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haiz..
Tuesday, September 05, 2006 5:11 PM

many things happened for the past few days lah..i moved hse..tats y the com mus b fix..now..finally have my own room le..but sad..nobody pei wo now n i still have to slp on the floor!!!!wen can i buy my bed?so cham lah me..then bicycle also..the bicycle the parts all rusty liao..then repair le isn it the same as buyin a new one?but my parents all say repair can le..or mayb cant even repair..like dat have to save my own money again..one bad news is tat my last mth fone bill bao le..first time bao until like dat..sms 4000++..then bill is 190+..i have to fork out my own money..save again!wen can i stop savin n spent the money?can my damn brain jus concentrate n study?i jus wanna stop tinkin n study..cant the troubles jus go n nv cme back?y mus my brain b so gd at rmbing tis kinda things..then rmb stuffs for studies cant..i jus wan the troubles to end..i donwanna continue havin troubles..its jus like killin all my brain cells..i don wish to care abt anything anymre..cant ppl in tis world b trouble-free?haiz..depressed?i have no idea also..hu can i tell my troubles to?nobody even understands hw i feel..so wat if i changed?nobody noes at all..its useless..no point changin at all..i jus wish to work hard to prove to my damn parents tat im not useless n stupid..but it seems to b so impossible..can i do it?i don even noe..its jus like twenty smth more days to psle n my brain jus don wanna work..but no matter wat i will force myself to study..psle is a thing tat happen once in a lifetime..mus work hard!if i don..mos probably i can jus give up on netball alr..so wat if i can defend?coach also wan change me to attacker..which im so lan at..i cant even reali get free frm a p5 player..hw can i b a attacker?smore coach still say wat after psle co her the grades then wan us go scgs..later the grades like shit then i can go die le..i will disappoint so many ppl loh..jus hope i culd study hard..n get gd grades..tats all i wan for now..nth else..

haiz.sad doesn solve anything..
then wat shld i even do?nth?


tis useless..i wanna have a breakdown..
then go asylum..n nv return..

IM DEAD.......I DONWANNA B ALIVE..
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