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“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” Swami Vivekananda
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“The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is.” Winston Churchill

2009 is like gona start REAL SOON. few minutes time i guess. perhaps even right after i type finish my post. HAHA. not tat i type slow k. just tat i type alot? HAHA.

somehow i tink a year pass real fast. and somehow i doubt ive used my whole year time fully. and worst still, i tink tat my life is gettin from bad to worst. or if there's such word, worse to worst! i can tell u tat i really dont look forward to nxt year. worst still, the class and the tchers. i hope i dont get some fucked up attitude tcher again. i dont want my day to get ruin by some think-they're-so-big tchers. and worst still, not my bday anymore. but i guess my bday kinda no meaning anymore. in fact, i can say i dont actually rmb how old i am! gooshh, u noe wat? i somehow rather myself to be in the same class as this year again. although i have some really irritating and fucking attitude tchers, i feel tat i actually blended in wif them. now a new class and i need time once again. noe wonder ppl was dedicating post to classmates when holiday started. HAHA. i bet i'll miss having those crazy ppl in class. of course it'll be the ones i always hang out wif!(:

and i bet alot ppl forgot tat we ACTUALLY got hmewrk!-.- the most sian part right? i just KEEP forgetting tat i got hmewrk lohh.

gooshh, i really really tink i wont look forward to go sch everyday again. my goodness, tinking of project works/grp works i really really really really SIAN DIAO. tinking of adventure camp, i MORE SIAN DIAO. i hope it'll be cancelled. HAHA. though i really like those high elements stuffs, i still do not look forward to it. worst is those team work stuffs or even bonding stuffs. cose one word, IM ANTI-SOCIAL!!! arggghhhhhh, i really hate it alot. i just cant change it ok.

i tink the only thing i'll look forward is netball trg liao. even pe is NO MORE looking forward thing. cose COUCH POTATO is teaching!! imagine gettin aimed every lesson?! imagine gettin called every lesson?! imagine doing sai kang for him every lesson?! imagine doin all his stupid not so pe kind of pe lesson?! OMG, i really cant imagine anymore.........once i tink of him calling my name i feel so freak out. i REALLY hope he forgets my name. though for netball i noe i'll be out. as in not in the main 12 lahh. but i still look forward to the trgs. cose of some reasons which i wont state out. if not later ppl say wat i emo or wat deep feelings watever crap de. if only she can prove tat i read her mind wrongly, then i'll admit i read ppl's mind wrongly wif MORE percentage.

HEHE, i got it correct. by the time i type finish my post, it's 2009!(: so now, i shall wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR(: i guess last time i'll send sms to ppl who are more close to me. but now, i dono why but i dont feel like doin it alr. or i shld say i dono hu to send anymore.

so i hope tat 2009 will be a good year for everyone. hope everyone will get wat they hope for(: may 2009 be a happy and peaceful year(:

okk, tis time, i just felt like posting and so here i am, posting. HEHE. and yahh, ppl kept asking me to update lahh. but im really really lazy and busy. kinda rhyme yahh? HAHA. i tink im like crapping instead.

so hmm, christmas season much? tis year kinda felt MORE like christmas i guess? cose i was really BUSY buying/thinking/making gifts. BUT, HAHAHA, its like only for 3 ppl? and most for 2 ppl only. HAHA. see how little friends i have! k lahh, but if i make more huh, im goin PO CHAN liao lohh. lucky tis time i smart, drag my mother along to go buy christmas gifts. if not, i really no money liao! HAHAHA. AND, guess hu i saw in popular?! i cant believe my eyes ok! i wonder if she saw me! AHHAHA. I SAW MS TAY IN NORTHPOINT POPULAR LAHH! hmm, i tink im like mking a big deal out of it. HAHAHA. but im just really surprised. and i hate seeing familar faces when im outside. or rather, when im wif my parents. though im alone at tat time. i saw her and quickly hide! HAHAA. i tink shes shopping for christmas gifts too. so after buying i went back and start working on the gifts till midnight o.O HAHAHA

i really tink ive gone bonkers? or rather, im MORE hyper in the night. to be exact, midnight. nono, after midnight. okk, i really dono wat i toking.

so erm christmas day and i haven finish my gifts :/ then ard afternoon went out to monique's church. i didn noe she was in city harvest church lahh. but anyway, ive nv been there bfore so its kinda a good experience? but still, i want say tis, HER CHURCH LOOK LIKE A SHOPPING CENTRE. im serious. and no offence arhh. same as the one downstairs man. and its DAMN huge lahh. i was kinda expecting to see someone i noe there. cose ive heard many ppl tokin abt tis church bfore. HEH. but sadly, none. and tis christmas is like the most christmas, christmas. i mean its kinda like the first time i said SO many merry christmas to so many ppl. and somemore is alot i dono de ppl. HAHAHA. the drama thingy was funny. HEH. after tat was damn hungry lahh! cose i didn ate lunch. after tat was just goin home and da bao-ing kfc back home. ahaha. just had the sudden craving to eat kfc mahh. no lahh, more of fast food. but i just ate macs the day bfore so i didn wanna eat it again. so after tat went home to carry on mking my gifts.

then was boxing day. i thot i could finish by then and send it to their hse. but sadly, im too slow. actually bcose there was ALOT of work and that i spent alot of time tinking of wat to do. HEH. but i can say i feel damn accomplished and damn satisfied wif it lahh! but sadly, i didn take any pictures to share the joy of seeing nice things. HAHAHAHAH. im serious lahh. i feel tat its nice lahh. but to be exact, i wont give ppl things tat i dont tink its nice. HAHA. hmm, if u really wanna noe how my gifts look like, then ask jing xun or monique to show u. HAHAHA. or perhaps IF they MIGHT post the pictures, then ni you yan fu le!!! HAHA. jackie ong, u're so suay. mei yan fu de jia huo! HAHA. if u actually read until here, i bet u got nth to do now right?! AHHAHA.

so erm today was wrapping up of the gifts and off i go to be santa claus. AHHAH. only to two ppl lahh! HAHAHA. i feel rather stupid lohh. guess wat i did? AHAH. i went out to jing xun's hse to give her the gifts then off i go to monique's hse. then i came home and got reprimanded by my mother for not coming home later so tat i could da bao for her. HEH, how nice of her right? ppl's parents will scold them for doing such lame thing or mayb even say why are they back home late. but mine, rather i be out then in. but obviously, i didn wanan bother abt her. cose shes been complaining over her fall. i mean her injury. she fell like on christmas and hurt her left knee. ONLY scrape off a little of the knee's skin lahh! no biggy k! then shes complaining and complaining. saying wat we shld be filial[?] to her now cose she cant walk much. but its like not as if i mke her fall or something right?! and worst thing, she fall bcose shes copying some toto numbers on her hand-.- like freak pls! i noe we shld be filial to her now, but i just cant help it. cose she hadnt really done anything for me, so why the hell shld i help her? bsides, not like as if the pain is like wat? goin to die or smth? then wat abt the pain i have. all the pain ive accumulated. shldnt i be like dead long ago? and the number of scars on my hand and knees, shldnt it be more pain then urs? and worst still, the worst fall i ever had and yet i got FORCED to play. were u even there to help me?! no one helped me! so why shld i do the same? so after tat i came home to maple. HAHAHA. im back on maple! now nobody can contact me fast on msn alr! AHHAA. i totally like replied 'sry, im mapling' 4 times to ppl lahh! cose i like reply them after a few hours when they are alr offline. AHHAHA.

and then we celebrated my sister's bday at 12 midnight. like crazy pls. just bcose she chao zhe yao chi dan gao k! totally dumb. she rather eat it while nobody celebrates wif her. HAHAA. and shes kinda alr irritating me out! until i told her, u irritate me again i give u a slap for ur bday present. AHAHHA. then she kept quiet. HAHAHA. she the the cake until totally gross me out lohh. cose the whole cake is chocolate. HAHA. my whole family likees it, so no choice. AHHAHA. and theres like tis choco liquid on top. so shes like using her fingers and applying it on the cake?! totally EEWW-ified. i really conclude tat shes a crazy idiot lahh. totally useless girl.

so practically tats my past few days? as usual, im lazy to post pictures lahh!

ohh, and ytd after i finish the gifts i was lookin through some old notes and birthday cards. then some memories came back. nice yet saddening ones especially. some is like totally no name, so i was guessing, and indeed i was right. AHHA. i rmb tat time is like damn liu xing those autograph book? i think tats what we called it? and my class is got one book which everybody will write some notes inside. then i read it and was like, almost all asked me not to be so fierce. AHHAHA. and some noe i dislike them. AHHAHAHA. then the crazy ones are the usuals. HAHA. my gang of course! then the 'u-know u-know' girl. HAHA. obviously its my tablemate! rmb the 'girl magnet' thing! AHAHA. once i saw the u-know u-know thing i surely noe wat she want say alr. AHAH. but is of course de. cose we were tablemate for like 2years!! every term we sat together. though shes taller than me. AHAHHA. but as u can see, i tend to concentrate more at the back and i like it at the back. and my teachers were all nice to me so they let me get wat i want(: then theres some teachers who wrote the book also. but sad case, no mrs dave! i REALLY REALLY miss her ALOT. and yet i TOTALLY have NO fate wif her): but come to tink of it, if i saw her, will i dare to call her? i mean, will i not be ashamed to call her? but theres ms ang's! AHHA. now called mrs yu. not nice lahh! but i really thank her for lettin me carry on in the second best class. if not i really dono where i'll end up in): then i saw some birthday cards. i tell u, even those hu i dislike also give me card lehh! HAHAHA. i really receive alot cards in pri sch de lohh! and most are like ugly like hell! AHHAHA. but of course, i kept EVERY SINGLE ONE of them. cose, its the thot tat counts! then i came across the graduating thingy. u noe the one in the library? i forgot wat it called lahh. i dislike them for playin such sad songs mking me think of every thing tat happened in pri sch. ive gotten like alot of notes on tat day. cose EVERYONE was surprised tat i cried(: and im really glad i sat bside siti ok! shes like my pri 1 fren lahh! so she kinda understands me also! so i just ran to the toilet and came back seeing so many notes. after tat i even got roses from THAQIFAH!!! HAHA. my BEST CAPTAIN lahh! we really shared alot of joy and fun in the team. i noe her since pri 1 also. to be exact, my team kinda made up of alot of gymnast. be it rhythmic or artistic(: and shes one of the artistic gymnast. and she plays C for ALL GAMES for FOUR QUARTER. to be honest, i tink shes our only C. cose she alone is strong enough(: i rmb always cheering her up while shes upset wif the team or any other ppl. i always uses the word, cool down, they need time to absorb. back to topic. she and daphne is like the first person to give me flowers!!! AHHA. actually not only them. still got jiamin. she was suppose to go up also, just tat they sit too far apart. AHHA. and shes my BEST PARTNER! everytime if one of us were to be absent, we're lost. AHHA. tats why ms puva came in and wanted to split us up. i mean our team all have our BEST PARTNER SYSTEM. AHHA. so she wanted us to mix ard. so i always end up finding my capt! AHHA. or my best defender, daphne! i really enjoyed the time we all spent together as a team. i tink i will not meet such fun and enjoyable team or coach or teacher anymore): they all let me feel as though im REALLY part of the team and tat any of us were to be missing, the whole team falls apart. tats what teamwork and teamspirit is abt. trusting one another. i tink tats abt it? i have MORE to say but i tink im flooding the whole typing area alr! AHHA

if u actually read till here, i CONCLUDE tat u have nth beta to do now!!!! AHHAHA. i bet im right. or just tat u're too kpo to find out abt wat i did and wat ive been thru!!!! AHAHHA. but its a skill to master. reading so much and typing so much! ahhaha. but actually, to be exact, if u read all of my post, i mean like since ive started having tis blog, u will actually noe me. ohh and, to be exact, i doubt ive changed my url bfore(: im just TOOOOOOOOO LAZYYYY(: if u noe me, u'll really noe how lazy i am! NICE JOB READING MY POSTS!!!!(:

im goin to go back mapling. AHHAHA. at a time or 2.57am in the morning!!!

i thought i could do it, but ended up i showed my weakness. in the end, i still lost to myself. but just one thing, i couldnt believe the thought appeared in my mind. and yet it was the energy/determination/power to kept me going. if u're are guessing, its the first time ever tat happened to me. ive nv ever pushed myself tat far, because i didnt dare to. and yet tis time, ive actually did it. until now, im still hurting. its the second time i escaped death, and i really mean it. i cant believe i did so much just for it. and come to think about it, if i quit, what else do i actually know? other than being a nerd, what else could i do? sometimes i really think god shouldnt have let me escape my first 'death touring'.

i didn dared to tell them abt it. perhaps im scared tat they would be worried. or at least im just faking myself tat i know they will be worried. i just hope the window in my heart was open. at least i still had one way out. but all i noe now is tat, its pitch dark. i dont even feel anything tat could light it up anymore. before i could even find my way out, the window tat was once open closed.

i just found out a bad news): i doubt my ankle will heal on its own. cose i can even feel the pain at the toe bone there. meaning i really twist/sprain my ankle and tat theres a bone out of place? im so dead. i can even feel the nerve pain liao. and yet i wont be stayin home for the next two days bfore trg. HAHA. really good luck to me alr.

yes, i post tis cose i cant get over the ankle pain thingy. HAHA. i can feel my left leg like gettin swollen alr):

HAHA. okk, im gona blog now. but i shall say something first. four words ; 我完蛋了。 this four words totally explain my state now. AHHA. i mean like my 身体状况. cose ytd's game i kinda sprain/twist/shock my left ankle. okk lahh, the second worst state of hurting the ankle? or the second not so worst state. HAHA. okk, i noe its crap. i wanted to go see sinseh today. but ytd when i was tinkin how to tell the sinseh where pain, i dono how to identify the pain. so i was like tinking 'aiya, slp wake up tmr shld be beta'. then hu noes when i slping, its the ankle pain which kinda woke me up-.- crap, so i was tinkin today go see. but lazy and still in dilemma whether or not i shld go tell my ma to bring me there. so i missed my chance of healing my ankle. HAHA. cose sunday and public holiday not open-.- and worst still my nxt trg is tues morning. AHHA. so good luck to me tat my ankle heals on its own and tat i wont die of pain on tues trg. AHHAHA. okk, im crapping again.

ohh and, the previous post i was sayin i wanted to post pictures right. but come to tink of it again, i tink im too lazy to do tat. only tat i will ensure myself tat i carry out my promise. AHAHHA.

so i shall just tok abt ytd's game and wat i did today?

ytds game was not so good. first thing first, they play rough-.- long time nv like dat play alr lehh! HAHAHA. okk lahh, shld be, long time nv play wif so rough ppl liao. HAHA. i tink the last time playing tat way was wif ij? i rmb tat fuck fuck fuck girl. HAHAHHA. i dont bother to rmb her name. HAHA. so today of cose i noe i wasn tat disciplined lahh! ahaha. pek cek lahh, no choice. but i can confirm u tat i only act tat way when the opponents mke me first(: and when the damn umpire doesn blow. HEH. but today i not tat extreme alr lehh. my most extreme one is when i got warning by umpire. HAHA. i noe how to zi dong de. AHHA. cose i'll wait until the last warning then i stop. AHHA. so tat i wont get chase out of court. AHHAHA. only when u understand my play and my character then u wont keep askin me to be decipline or even get angry wif me(: i tink only my pri sch team noes tat(:

so i kinda played quite alot ytd. but wasnt very well played. my defence was lousy to the max. wasnt tight AT ALL ok. but i managed to tap off a number of balls lahh. passes wasnt very good either. runs aren tat definite also. i guess i was too tired. yeahh, im dumb again to follow the attacker everywhere! then at the fourth quarter i twist my ankle? actually fourth quarter shld be not i play de. but huey fen hurt her thumb. so ended up i play. then fifth quarter wanted to let her play back but scared her thumb still pain and i wanted to try correcting my mistake. as in try out wat msjoan told me. and i want them to pay for mking me fall and hurt my ankle. AHAHHA. they were lucky tat i didn mke them fall on purpose. but of course there were many BANGS. HAHAH. i wont twist my ankle if they didn trip me lahh! they did tat twice lohh. lucky second one i saw and jump over it. if not i dono wat will happen to my knee. cose im sure i'll fall forward.

i shall be nice and not complain so much. AHHA. ohh, but one thing. nxt time if ANYBODY were to build an indoor court, pls be SMART and not build it so small tat the players have no chance to save the ball or the ball could even rebound back to u! the person hu build tat indoor court is damn like fuck ok! so, overall, we won(:

then today is go qinyu's hse mke the gifts. not much done though. HAHA. after tat ate and homed. nth much.
okk, i can finally watch my anime. but i feel like slpin alr):