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overall today was alright. i thot i saw wrong person today mornin. HAHA. cose i didn noe she was wearin a jacket and holding her another bag xD but anyway i wasn wearing my specs at the moment so cant blame me. ahah.

the tcher day celebration was jus plain boring. most of the time we were jus tokin instead of listenin of even watchin lahh.

interhse finals lost. great huh. i knew it anyway. the score diff wasn close at all. i predicted tat creativity will win. but many ppl said we will win instead. yeahh, as long as we had fun its alright. theres still a nxt year(: but huh, its weird tat many ppl supported commitment! ahha. i don mind anyway. perhaps its bcose of those bitches in creativity lahh. NOT ALL, but some. SOME are great frens.

my defence sucks lahh. my knees sucks more. after losing i was happy for jackie's team lahh. but i still felt like cryin though i did hold back my tears. cose its useless. its NOT bcose we lost. im used to losing in interhse games anyway. its bcose of my performance and my knees! mostly bcose of my knees. cose it jus mke me wanna give up more. bfore the game even started, my left knee alr felt dislocated! and worst, i cant tape and i dono how-.- and puttin two knee guards on both knees is damn weird. my knees are jus plain pathetic. i reali wished i culd turn back time.

OHH. and one most impt thing. JIAJIA sucks(: SHES A NETBALLER BUT SHE BREAK DURING A CENTER PASS!!! and obviously, i scold fuck on court. but i didn said i out loud. plus the umpire saw and jus said play on! wth. im damn it angry ok. tats why i said fuck and obstruct. but many time wasn blown. bcose tat ass step up. so its none of my business. yahh, i do admit im short. perhaps i finally noe why shorties aren allow to be defenders-.- so wat if u have the skills? u don have the height. but its my most fave coach which made me a defender(:

today is mcs coaches day! ahah. i suppose only i rmb-.- but theres no more a team to thank the coach anymore): but! we've still got our team spirit! we've not bcme strangers neither did we lose our laughters! i suppose onli mcs theres such thing as coaches day. ahah. cose we didn like our tchers as much as our coach perhaps! ahah. and we tink its unfair tat theres tchers day but no coaches day. ahha. i love mcs p6`06 team! they're jus a bunch of NICE NICE ppl. theres no conflict in us or watsoever. though the whole team did not like one person in the team. and we all worked hard to prove tat shes actually not needed in the team! ahah. we're evil too huh. but anyway, HAPPY COACHES DAY & HAPPY TCHERS DAY[in advance].

went back mcs after netball. was feelin beta wifout tinkin abt my damn knees. took a long time to go back mcs bcose of sherlyn slow-ness. HAHA. then was complained at the first thing i reach there. its like theres 3 grp of ppl. and i have to actually give up two to go find the other): but not reali 3 though. so first i went to 6d`06 de ppl. they were jus plain complainin-.- then two crazy seniors came and 'plak' hit me-.- and i didnt even get to say harlo to them jus bcose of 6d ppl givin me attitude. wtf. plus i didnt get to tok to szemin much! then end up seniors all dono die go where. so i heck care them and walked off[pretend]. then szemin came wif me. and we tok A LITTLE. then went back cose heard my name plus ppl cryin-.- tat emo kid lahh. then i reali fed up alr. so i jus ran off. why do they wanna do tis to me? its like my SO ONE IN A WHILE goin back mcs and see them yet they wanna show me tis fuckin attitude. i don wanna quarrel alrights.

then saw some tchers and off to play netball again(: yeahh, tats why my knees are like dat. i over-used it. i sucks i noe. then trained p4s awhile. they look so scared of balls. and jingxun and jiamin are shooters yet they anyhow teach the p4s-.- somemore i can say out wat shooters are suppose to do lahh.

many ppl are goin to tues carnival. daph says shes in charge of dono wat thingy. im wonderin if we are playin or helpin out-.- im sure im gona see many ppl. forgot ask tha-.-

ard 3+ left mcs went j8. actually eatin sakae[?] but stupid rkycia poh donwan treate us. ahah. the rich ass lahh. juniors are all rich asses but seniors are some poor ppl. ahah. so ate mac instead. and we saw megan and wq. not steadin huh. very funny lahh. and i tink megan understood my facial expression i gave her jus now. then crazy devika came. went super crazy lahh. cose she didn wanna return my fone. and yahh, THOSE PPL who said im gona have a stead bfore them stead bfore me pls. somore the attitude all like them de. HAHAHA. all have bad attitudes. tat equals rudeness.

me and devika fight all the way to the toilet. HAHA. she didn wanna return my fone and i didn wanna return her wallet. got her precious stead pic instead plus so much red notes. ahah. then we fight until i accidentally kick her -----. HAHAHA. and i culdn stop laughin! ahahah. and she started walkin VERY weirdly. HAHAHHA. denise say she walk like penguin. ahha. super funny lahh. then walk ard j8. ard 6+ went hme.

the holidays are like fully booked. mon got lit and sci extra lessons-.- somemore each 2 hours!! wtf. and its EARLY in the mornin. i specify EARLY. i sure very sleepy one lohh. then plus i wanna go watch 5nations. alot ppl goin huh. i wonder if theres anybody to go wif me. ahah.

i dono wat to do anymore u noe. sometimes, im grieving over nth but a pairs of stupid knees. nobody can help me at all. i noe it clearly myself tat im gona lose my position in no time. perhaps jus break my knees and kill me.

very tired today lahh. normally in bus i don slp de. but today cant tahan liao. my eyes keep closing! and i got nei mu xiao xi again! ahaha.

first period was chinese. super duper boring. and the tcher is super duper uper duper uper uper CRAZY! she gave us frm 1 ws to like abt 7 ws? or mayb even more. i didnt bother to count. but its super alot. very thick lahh. i see alr wanna faint man! i donwan do lahh!!! idiot tcher.

then was jus some boring lessons. today is ms chen last day. and ive been called many times today. i dono why. first was stupid nair call me read passage. everytime aim me read passage one lehh. not like my reading very lan like dat. then kana called in sci to ans ques again. then during sci kana called again. to collect things. then cose the class very noisy so i said ' how cme i hear my name?' ahah. then i jus walk to the front. then walk back kana called AGAIN. wan me walk how many times? alot ji guan de lehh. from the back walk to the front. HAHA. like in eng class like dat.

then after sch went to eat and off to train again. we seems so kiasu. ahaha. but we always is didn reali train de. cose we are more of playin instead. ahah. ard 3 like dat we went amk cc. continued to train awhile. then some went off and some went to shoot at bball court. many birds there lohh. super irritatin.

ard 6++ like dat went home? then reached abt 8. didn had my dinner. so i bluffed my ma tat i ate and ask her to buy food for me again. ahaah. i tink she noes lahh. hecked.

tmr is netball interhse finals huh. i don feel like caring anymore. im jus afraid i might disappoint ppl huh. jus hope tat my defence work lahh. but still, enjoy the whole process is the most impt(: JIAYOUS PPL! MAY THE BEST TEAM WINS!

hopefully i have more time tmr. so tat i can enjoy myself back at my pri sch lahh! im lookin forward to interhse and seeing many many of my frens tmr(: seniors, juniors and tchers. hopefully the ass tcher is not there!

im gettin lazier to blog. cose its so busy these few days and im gettin more and more tired after each day.

TUES
lessons were ok. but im not in the mood to listen lahh. cose was very tired. then plsu those rubbish tchers tokin some rubbish stuffs, its worst. today was practically rainin the whole day lahh. and obviously, im always kana splashed. i dono why. esp by jackie. so rmb, wenever theres a puddle of water infront of u, don go near jackie. if not u will regret.

the whole day my leg was hurtin alot. like theres a prob wif the nerve or smth. i hate tat feelin. monday nitex my head was pain like i dono wat lahh. then plus slpin tat time my knee super duper uber pain. i dono why either. tat prickling feelin is so not nice. then go sch its worst. how i wished there was a wheelchair or either a lift for me man!

then after sch was sec2s netball interhse. ms lee scared me by askin me to be time keeper. ahah. cose i was tokin tokin tokin to rachel. wanting to go get rollers from i dono where. then ms lee suddenly called my name. i got a shock lahh. me and huimin was the time keeper. and i admit tat if im wif huimin, i'll get influenced by her to get high and siao and noisy. ahah. the umpires all cork eye de. keep askin where is the time keeper where im jus like infront of them? ahah. and they complained tat we keep changin ppl. ahah.

compassion and integrity got into the finals(: i realised tat most of the time wen compassion play, its gona rain. and many ppl agree wif me lahh. and many ppl fell cose of the wet floor. be more careful lahh!

then bought bbt and went hme wif jackie. finally we took 851. many netballers at the bus stop but we took the first one. so its wif chloe and liko.

WED
first period was lit. ghosh, i seriously don reali like lit. bcose the tcher kept askin us to ans question. i hate it lahh. everybody was always prayin tat she doesn call our index number. aahah.

rest of the lessons were jus boring. VE lesson got back result slip. results was not bad lahh. but im so not satisfied wif my chinese lahh. overall i got onli As and Bs. i was surprised my english didnt get C! ahah. improved i suppose? but still im glad theres no more underlines and Cs tis time. hopefully i can do beta in final year exam?

after sch didn eat again. again i didnt felt like eatin. i dono why. today was sec3s interhse. commitment didn have any netballers. so obviously, there wasn any hope for commitment to get into finals lahh. i tink tat some play until very serious. even if its their own teammate, they don tok to each other lehh. somemore i heard wahh lao from one teammate scolding the other. ahah. but anyway im sure tat for sec1s final, im gona be agressive also. and dont be surprise tat i'll be scoldin vulgarities or look very irritated. ahah. but still, if its my fault i'll be sure to say sry.

sec3s hu got into finals are integrity and harmony. every lvl have diff houses hu get into finals huh. diff houses hu are strong too. normally those wif more netballers get into finals. we trained a little today. train on the defence. cose of jiajia lahh. why mus she be playin? ahaa. no offence lahh. but i have no confidence in defendin her noe. seriously, i rather defend jackie. and im so gona work on it. bring back my mind on defence on court. ahah. wat tokin me? guess im gona use the normal way for center pass. since she always run up and jackie always throw her highest point. perhaps i'll try to not let her get in semi circle. supposingly i shld keep all these to myself. ahah.

hopefully commitment wins. ahha. we are alr guessin hus gona win in finals. and hopefully finals end asap. cose i wanna noe wen is our holiday trg, the perth trip thingy and go back mcs asap. ahha. i wonder wat will mrs ong says abt the perth trip thingy man. hopefully the sec1s get to go. ahah. ive nv been on tis kinda stuffs bfore lahh. ahha.

i seriously do hope tat my defence work out. and hopefully i don get the pains wen i jump): i dono why i got the bad feelin tat my knee will hurt like i dono wat during the game on fri.

today lessons were jus boring. english was all abt scoldings, pronounciation and tongue twister-.- sayin abt tongue twister, my name has one. ahah. the seashells one lahh. then was chinese. then iap. all boring lahh. perhaps its cose whole day im jus tinkin abt netball. no mood for others. then suddenly durin iap rain-.- and i was practically cursing the sky? ahah.

after sch didn felt like eatin so jus drank milo. then kinda trained for awhile? first game was wif creativity. we lost. by one stupid retarded goal. its all my fault lahh. if ive gone nearer for the center pass or either went nearer to jackie after the center pass, we could have scored another 2more goals. stupid ass lahh me. they like did the same thing for 2-3 times?! wtf. stupid stupid lahh me. i played badly for both C and GD. the score was 9-10? if im not wrong. jus by 1 bloody idiotic goal lahh!

second game wif compassion. we won. played GD throughout. second quater was jus plain retarded. tats why i said i dislike playin those luan luan games. everytime kana bang. but at least i finally get to play defender. super shuang but im not satisfied wif how i played for the second quater. i seriously do miss playin defender.

third game wif harmony. we won also. and i played GD also. tis time was worst! i didn even see the ball passin by-.- plus i was blurred in the game lahh. i tink its cose i play too much C then forget i can enter semi circle. wahh lao. and wen first quater nv play tat time i heard some BLOODY ASS PPL TOKIN ABT MY TEAM DE PLAYERS. fuck her lahh! and i will specify her name. cose i don even tink she will be readin. even if she is, tats her prob not mine(: she is JIAJIA lahh. kui ta hai shi netball player. somemore say abt her own teammates to other ppl. ok, i admit i do tat sometimes. but at least i say to teammates and besides the person noe it herself. cose i sometimes do say it right into her face(: sry lahh. im like dat de. so u see i netball trg tat time hen shao tok one. bcose i don wish to offend ppl and everybody has their own que dian. but is like she is so freakin purposely can. she noes im there and YET she say it. and obviously, i said 'SHUT UP LAHH!' and i tink jiamin thot i was refering to her. HAHA.

so commitment have gotten into the finals! JIAYOU PPL! we have to WIN creativity. and qihuan said tat the stupid jiajia said ' thanks commitment for commiting suicide' after the game. and i was like' wtf. we HAVE to win them in the finals' and clarissa said smthing too. cant rmb. commitment mus win jiu dui liao lahh!

today umpiring was very lenient. yahh, but its understandable. cose there wasn much netballers allow to play. i noe i said words tat are kinda hurting lahh. but sry lahh. im like dat wen playin game de lahh. cose its like netballers noe the rules lahh. then wen....aiya. i dono how to say lahh. cose creativity tat game reali need much more umpiring lahh. and its like the netballer herself is mking the mistake-.- but nvm. the games are over. commitment DID THANK the umpires LOUDLY. and i always thanking the umpires tat time almost said ' may god bless you abundantly' cose i used to say tat like for 2yrs alr? i jus hope during the finals the umpires dont so lenient then i very happy liao.

tmr gona be sec2s de. we're gona help out(: i tink is dao luan hai cha bu duo. ahha. JIAYOU PPL FOR TMR!

my leg is reali gettin worst. i dono wat to do either. i get bruise around my knee for no reasons at all. and my joint is gettin frm bad to worst. and no use askin me go physio or watever. cose my ma don allow at all. all she does is to tell me to quit-.- nobody ever understand how much i love to play netball.

woke up ard 12.30 today. cose ytd slept late. then wake up my ma ask me go down-.- i hate it wen i wake up then smbody ask me go down eat. cose settling my meals for me is easy. i can jus drink water for my meal. or don even eat.

then walkin down tat time my ma told me abt wat happened ytd lahh. she said my cousin went ytd then asked abt me. then my ma say until dono like wat lahh. say wat her coach temporary change to national player. the name dono wat hui one. say wat is her sis in tat sch so she cme coach. then still got ask abt if i goin to watch dono wat netball thing. then still got alot lahh. all ask me fill in the blank one lohh. then my ma say she ytd came back frm netball dono wat thing. stupid lahh. tok halfway de. then end up i ask my sis for my cousin number and my sis ask me don disturb her-.-

then eat finish alr my ma ask me go np buy bus stamp. wahh lao ehh. like i very free like dat huh? sian lahh. tell her NEVER open today liao she donwan listen. so i jus grabbed 30dollars frm her and walk off wif the bu shuang face. then actually i wanna give her eat the chocolates i bought jus now de. then bu shuang alr. so both packet of time out i OWNSELF eat.

then went np the counter NEVER open. sian lahh. waste my time niia take bus there then take bus back. very nice to play horr?

then came back. i complained complained complained. ahah. then they say they goin grandma hse to ji bai zu xian. then i say can donwan go anot. then they say ok. so im saved from boredoom for the moment.

then went in to my room do the damn iap hmewrk. then i also complained complained complained. HAHAHA. i cursed the damn tcher. ahahha. then my ma see i so bu shuang she go call my cousin to get the number. ahah.

then i smsed my cousin and found out tat my guess was correct. her temporary coach was chen hui fen. the national netball player. then she say wat her fren and sis. don get wat she tryin to say. ahah. i tink shes tryin to say its her fren de sis or smth else? not sure. her sch damn lucky lohh. coach all very good and famous de. ahah. their actual coach is ms heng- she got outstanding umpire award for nsl games. and she was also my pri sch coach for p4. and shes the one hu gave me a chance to enter sch team(: and she also noe tat her player is my cousin. ahaha. then now their temporary coach is chen hui fen. very lcuky arhh!

today cant go cycle again-.- cose i jus rmb tmr got netball interhse. if i go cycle today tmr i can don need run liao. mus be in good condition for tmr's game(: mus try to get our team into finals! though i reali donwan to stay back on tis cmin friday.

hopefully everything goes well tmr. i have to pray for all mondays to go smoothly man! but i got the feelin tmr durin sch hours won be tat nice. cose theres iap. sucks lahh. i dont tink im finishin his hmewrk. hu will like to draw 70 drawings?! like we very free like dat. perhaps i'll jus scribble thru all his hmewrks. ahah.

theres many thing im hoping for tmr man! ahah.
#1 hopefully i won attitude on court tmr(:
#2 umpires pls don paste stamps and ur eyes while umpiring.
#3 tmr dont rain. i don like wet courts. esp wen the dirty rain water goes into my eyes-.-
#4 hopefully our team can enter finals.
#5 MR POON DONT CME TMR!
#6 iap cancelled for tmr. HAHA
i suppose tats all im hoping for? HAHA

today woke up kinda late lahh. abt 12 like dat? cose jus felt like slping all day. then watched tv and used com. nth much to do. since theres no more test tis term no more mood study le. i dono why. no motivation. but wen i no motivation, others all got motivation. weird lehh. why ppl always diff frm me de huh?

then ard 6++ then i did SOME of my hmewrk. im still left wif iap. STUPID iap lehh. i reali feel like killin the STUPID person to mke such a STUPID lesson. its jus plain boring. studying is boring enough. plus those lame stuffs and lame tcher arhh, noe wonder students all don like studyin lahh! the worst is to have some unreasonable freakin idiotic ass tcher. tink they like very smart very good like dat. then give us all some STUPID rubbish hmewrk. draw so much for wat lahh. frm got inspiration also bcme don have liao lahh. im SO sure i will get B or C for iap. but, yahh. I DON GIVE A DAMN TO TAT.

then watch css. i'll always watch the finals de. other than finals i don bother watchin. ahah. did my english portfolio while watchin. super no inspiration. so end up not very nice. or i shld say; super duper ugly lahh! for english onli tis kinda rubbish thing i can get marks. other than tat my english is super lan. i rmb got one time my pri sch p2 de eng tcher say' if ur eng was as good as ur maths tat will be great.' ahah. cose tat year i got 100 for maths and like B for english? ahah.

then wen to bathe and continued using com. i don feel like doin iap at all. drama i'll sure be goin to sch to copy for journal. ahah. cose i CANT RMB wat happened. ahahha. then art arhh, depends liao lahh. mayb today chiong or either tmr chiong or either don bother to do! ahah.

today super boring. stayed at hme all day doin rubbish. super bo liao. cose the stupid weather cheat my feelings again): ahha. the sky so dark arhh, then like goin to rain like dat wat. so i didn went down to cycle. then end up pass so many hours liao still haven rain. wth-.- somemore so windy lohh. if i went down confirm super shuang. even if rain nobody noes im under the rain either. stupid choice of mine again. im so gona go down tmr. be it goin to rain or hot like hell. shun bian ask my ma go down play volleyball wif me. ahah.

seriously i have no idea if u gotten over it lahh. but im SURE u will be much much happier and relax if u gotten over it. many alr gotten over it. but why cant u? perhaps some are fake, i noe tat. but if u dono how u control ur feelings, they will eventually get over u. and end up many MORE things will happen. and wen u eventually grown more mature, u will tink tat u are foolish to even let the feeling got over u at tat moment.

if u reali wan me to be happy don let me worry abt u. u shld noe well tat i can read many things out of jus one particular word or even wat u do. so don try to bluff me. i aren the past me anymore. i grown more mature after much things tat happened to me. perhaps wat u said to me u shld leave it to urself. work hard, study hard is more for u. cose im alr satisfied wif wat i had acheieved in sch besides netball lahh. u noe clearly tat the past aren goin to cme back anymore. besides more of it is sad rather than happy lahh[to wat i can rmb]. so perhaps forget it is a beta choice(: AND, im not tryin to be mean or go back on wat ive said to u. i don like to be stuck between two of my good frens or mayb even more. if i culd control time, i culd have perhaps jus mke ur not noe each other or mayb ur not noe-ing me.
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first period was pe. train on netball. obviously for interhse lahh. then cose we used the paper and mdm yao[?] was like sayin us lahh. as in the good way. ahaha. i suppose theres hope for commitment to win interhse netball bahh. hopefully lahh.

then was history. as usual everybody fooling around again. and today i joined in. ahah. but mrs chia nv scold me. ahha. she cant say anything abt me anyway. cose theres nth bad abt my studies to even let her say. ahah. and i don tok often either.

then recess. then was maths. one tcher came in. super boring the class. wanna slp but cant. the stupid tcher sit at the back lahh. smore the guys so irritatin. cant stop tokin abt the cards. don even understand wat they tokin siia!

then was english. stupid lahh. do the show dont tell thingy until i out of ideas end up get 5/10 niia. wth. then listen to some stupid stuffs. then jaselyn purposely go blast the sound. nair shocked tio. quite a few also shocked dao. ahah. then end up everybody laughin at nair. ahah. then cose we every eng lesson need bring storybook. then today alot ppl nv bring. so went to anyhow kop one bk frm the shelf. then end up everybody bk almost the same. ahah. but nv use lahh. cose was practically listenin to the stupid lame stuffs until lesson end.

then took back geo paper. 16.5/20. ok bahh i suppose. anyway overall also get A1 so no diff to me again. then was trg. didn eat cose didnt felt like eatin though at first i was hungry. so jus drank milo. then off to play. ahha

bfore trg start, many of us are like goin crazy playin playin laughin laughin lahh. most of us are like super high. ahah. dono why also lehh. we ran like crazies lahh. then i was sayin we don need do warm up alr. then end up we ran 8rounds onli. but it was alr a torture to me. but tis time i ren xia qu. managed to run finish the 8rounds(:

then cheryl came up wif those weird weird stuffs again. then was straight shutter and the high one. i miss jumpin high up man. comon ppl, throw to ppl their highest limit. then was shooter rotation. the defenders did other things. AHHH!! i reali wanna go back to defender. reali miss doin defender drills. then i cant rmb alr.

then was center pass. smtimes i cant tahan myself. i jus gave those lousy passes. i didn even thot of wat i was doin. i liked defending but i cant even defend those lobs. like wth. i dono wat im actually good at man. i reali hate myself. plus those knees. jus two word to myself: PATHETIC SHIT. i have no more confidence of gettin into the main seven alr. even worst, being back to a defender.

i always tried to control. today i tried too, but someone saw me alr. and its someone who shldn see it at all. wenever i thot abt it, tears jus falls like dat and my heart ache alot. i reali regretted for doin all those. for mkin myself bcme like dat. im jus a useless piece of shit. i noe ppl tried to console me. but i noe clearly myself. perhaps shes right. mayb she tink it tat way. but, normally wen i read smone mind by how they reacted, im normally correct. i jus hope tis time im wrong. and the tears did jus cme down bcose i didn get to play. hopefully she didn thot it tat way. its jus tat my confidence went all the way down. i didn mean to lie to u either. i wanted to tell u. but, if i told u obviously wuld have asked me wat happened and i didn wanna tell at all. have u even see me tellin anybody wen im feelin down or either wen im in pain?
evenpainkillersdontworknow.watmisupposetodo?irealihopesomeoneculdtellme.

its a long long time since i blog lahh. too lazy. cant reali rmb wat happened though.

MON

lessons were alright since there wasn iap. ahah. so early dimissal today. the match was damn nice. long time since i watched matches after the nsl games alr man. nobody to go wif so didn bother to go.

i jus realised somebody is so not liked by many many ppl. pathetic her. perhaps tats worst than me though. but im used to being a loner so i don reali mind. but i don tink she is huh. perhaps she jus stay in the toilet the whole day wuld actually entertain her(:


TUES

sci is real boring though ms chen's nice lahh. lessons as usual. nth much happen. after sch went self trg? not reali self trg though. the shooters were shooting and the others were practically jus playin volleyball. including me. ahah.

volleyball is kinda fun though. but i cant seem to control the ball. ahah. the ball either fly too high or dono fly go where lahh. and imagine my ma is a volleyballer wen shes young yet i dono how to play. ahah. she dono how to play netball either. and i jus rmb i do have a volleyball at home. ahah.

after tat went hub. actually wanted to study. but i no mood at all. so went home instead.


WED

lessons were as usual boring lahh. i find tat my CAs results are always beta than SAs result lehh. perhaps is cose we always cheat. ahah. the tcher sure is very stupid man.

VE wrote abt wat i aspire to be. and one part i wrote was to be good in my studies too, though its not impt to me at all. perhaps is cose my parents always jus wanted me to pass my polytechnic tats all. so im jus lettin them be happy. however they wan to despise me i don care anymore. cose its useless. they themselves cant study as well as i can yet they despise me. wat kinda parents are they? but i didn write everything i wanted to. cose i noe if i ever did, one paper aren enough for me and i will definitely cry. which is smth i donwan to do in sch. and i swear i will nv.

after sch went home myself. its the first time tis month? aaha. long time since i took 851 back home alone. wen i reach home do my normal stuffs then excercise. HAHA. long time since i did physical at home man. cose today my shoulder there was aching. i dono why lahh. so since its alr pain so jus work it more then. ahah. i realised i cant do much of guy push ups anymore man. i used to do 40 on every monday and fri frm p1 to p3 man! ahah. the kinds where our fore head touches the ground kind. ahah. so tat means ive been slacking alot alot since pri sch lahh.

i suddenly feel like doin artistic gym now man! ahaa. i bet my bones will break instead xD

after excercising, went to slp. i dreamt abt smth damn stupid can. ahaha. smthing abt a fight in sch i thing. ahaha. then i got cut on my finger again. but tis time the middle finger. o.O wat izzit gona mean to me tis time?

slept frm 3.30++ to 7. ahaha. got all my slp back alr perhaps. and im gona slp early today too! aaha. gona be energetic tmr? and theres d&t. ahah. i wonder wat happens.


TODAY
first three lessons were supper boring. then recess. then was d&t. i do the phone until sian liao man. at first was nice to play. ahaha. but now, how i wish someone culd do it for me. i sand the wood until got blister lahh. then end up victor tan say don need. wahh lao. say earlier wat. mke until i finish liao then say. go die man! somemore the extra practical lessons to finish up the phone is like nxt monday and tuesday lahh. like all netball how to have time to do? pekcek lahh.

then was sci. ms chen ask us to do the 'model' or plant and animal cell. i realised ive been sabotage many times lately man. esp today. first was netball inter hse. then durin sci is they put my name for the cell thingy. bad luck lahh. we used plastercine[?] to mke the 'model'. not bad but was super dirty. somemore need use the dirty hand go pack bag-.-

wen amk eat then do awhile of hmewrk. perhaps more of teaching jackie the maths test ques? then wen hme le. slept frm ard 5-7. the stupid tv website cheat my feelin man! ahaa. i donwanna further explain why. ahaha.

netball inter hse cmin soon. on monday. hopefully our hse win. cose, for the past few years my hse is like hopeless. and i do tink now theres a chance to win lahh. so hopefully im correct. ahah.

mostly the test results all get back le. left wif lit and geo? i realised ive gotten quite a number of A1s. but yahh, its useless to me. my parents didn even say anything at all. wats the point. onli his got B3. then eng sure is B or C de lahh. they onli noe how to scold me wen they didn see me studyin. they said i kept goin out. but, im more mature than my sis. i noe how to tink. but they don trust me at all. so wat if ive gotten many As? its still the same. tats why i always give the no-expression or either the sian-diao face wen i gotten back my paper. ppl always ask me why. but i didn reali give the exact ans. even if i did they wuldn understand. i dono why, no matter how good my results is, they wuldn show anything at all. but wen my result is like shit, they despise me. but why wen other ppl do well in their studies i can see tat their parents are happy. but why aren mine like dat? even my frens parents is like happy for me. they onli rmb my bad point. wat abt my good point? i dono and i don tink i'll ever noe. but..... nvm, forget it.
wen will they ever understand how i feel. how hard im tryin?

ive been studying alot these few days man.

SAT
was at my hse downstairs the bus stop at 1. shows tat im late meeting jackie. then reach yishun mrt station i went in then jackie say she forgot bring her ez-link-.- then she bought the dono wat card lahh. forget le. then took mrt off to amk hub. was late meeting them[the ginas]. but jaselyn was later then us. surprisingly. then took neos and off to amk lib.


read finish my book then did my hmewrk. until abt 6+? then we left. then bought dinner and homed wif jackie. came home bathe, watch tv and eat then back to studying. ahaha. ive reali been studyin alot man.


i slept at 2 jus for doin hmewrk. i realised tat the maths aren hard at all. i jus need to concentrate. besides i can tink beta at nitex. ahah.

bfore i slept the thoughts came into my mind again. i noe i study for myself, my future. but sometimes i jus cant bring myself to study. i jus need a little of ur encouragement. ive nv heard or see ur doin anything to encourage me at all. ur jus didn bother. but onli despise and discourage me. izzit reali tat hard? smtimes i jus dono wat ur are tinkin. i jus dono why m i treating ur like dat now. i wanna be nice too. but after tinkin wat ur had done to my childhood, wat ur had done to my life i cant help it but to show u my real attitude. i culdn control it anymore. ur made me do tis. i didn want to either.


SUN
woke up ard 12+ then ate my lunch. watch awhile of the tv then off to hmewrk again. ahaha. im so guai i noe. ahah. i did my notes for geo alr. meanin ive prepared for my geo test on wed. left wif maths revision. shld be alright i guess.

then did my english portfolio cover pages. then finish up on lit proj. and tat si bai chi jaselyn ong not yet finish. she says tmr. wat can u expect to get from the tcher if its SUCH a last min hmewrk? i donwanna fail the test man. besides ive JUS passed the previous one. have to get beta tis time to pull it up rite? okok. enough. i noe wat to do.

today's lessons were alright bahh? first was pe. played a little of volleyball. then didn wanna play alr. so sat down for quite some time. and was under the rain. ahah. didn wanna move away at all. perhaps i miss being under the rain too. i stood up until i realised the whole seat was wet! ahah. lucky i didn wet my pants! xD and jaselyn hit the light until the plastic? or glass thingy dropped lahh! and the stupid ball hit my head wen im not lookin. cose im tokin lahh. stupid man. once nv see for a while sure kana de. then nobody save ball for me): despite me always savin ball for ppl man. gettin more stupid liao lahh. everytime kana my head one.


then had geo. ms lim sot sot de. all of a sudden tok abt her height. ahah. say wat 1.5 is considered tall for her. ahah. shes tellin us her height! but hu dono man. ahah. suddenly say wat ppl have different meanin of words. ya, tats right though.


then recess. then maths. practically not much ppl was listenin lahh. i is listen until wanna slp alr. and i dono why, today i super bo mood. don feel like playin don feel like tokin don feel like listenin to anything and don feel like studying! mayb is cose today super tired.


then was english. stupid summary. nair everytime bu shuang us for summary. cose nobody wanna speak up. cose of her man. hu likes tokin to her? her words doesn even mke sense pls. and if we follow wat she teaches us, we all summary sure FAIL man!


then finally was trg. i was so lookin forward to trg. cose today super bo mood. need to play to forget stuffs. the performance was not bad lahh. didn noe some ppl wear specs also lahh. like how ppl thot i wear contacts. ahaha.


trg did the circuit kinda warm up again. haiz. knee pain again lahh. why mus it always happen like dat. i reali hate it. i onli ran like two rounds and did 10dips and 10push up. wtf. i hate it. i cant run cant jump. reali hate myself for tat.


then was pair ball. then the 3man work. but instead my grp did in 4s. not enough ppl lahh. our grp was the slowest. ahah. cose we kept laughin lahh. then cheryl say laugh again do 5push up. ahaha. then nobody dare laugh alr. jackie got until 25! ahah. i got 5. but end up we all nv do. all forgot liao lahh. i didn get to do the jumpin ones again): cheryl noe its my favourite but she donwan let me do! and i didn noe my hand reaction was actually QUITE fast! aaaha.


then tcher complain complain complain. so we no choice shift to the outside. did 1/3 court. then two round of spritin again. tis time worst): my knees are gettin weaker and weaker each trg. i reali dono wat to do anymore. i donwan to give up jus like dat. perhaps i jus got to tahan more.


cheryl so gu yi one lahh. trg ending tat time then she keep cmin to ka jiao me. though its suppose to be concernin me. she said im like a lao ren. and i said back' don everytime say the same thing as my mother lahh' then she started laughin. haha. then again after dismiss she said to me' u like the lao ahma lehh' then i say' shen me lao ahma. wo hai bi ni nian qing lehh.' ahaha. then dismiss le.


then wen me rachel and jackie walkin out frm sch gate saw cheryl waitin for dono who. ahah. then i shouted cheryl and she look back. then we started mkin fun of her. ahah. cose the car and bicycle came at the same time mahh. then i said' u takin bicycle home izzit?' ahaha. then she show me the face. then we started sayin nonsense to cheryl lahh. ahha. car plate number is 7690? ahaha. didn reali go rmb and i have stm. ahah.


then ate dinner and off home. as i said, netball can always let me forget things. as usual, i forgotten wat mkes me like tis. but still, i super duper uper miss many many ppl!

we're gona have early dismissal on mon! HOHOHO. good man. miss IAP. super happy. ahah. and still can go watch match. even beta.

the post is gona be abt tues trg and today. ahah. so tues had trg. warm up was some kinda circuit like trg thingy lahh. ran abt like 3rounds like dat onli then the pain in my left knee act up. very diff run. i tink cheryl saw? then i told her and she ask me stop runnin lahh. and again she tried to hold me. but end up mkin my hand pain instead. ahah. but anyway, thankyou though(: im glad to have nice coaches.


then she didn allow me to run alr lohh. so i jus did my stretches. cose after skippin my leg very pain. so tink do stretches first will be beta bahh. then cose i didn run alot so decided to do 20 dips instead. then cheryl was kinda wondering how much i did. ahha. didn wanna tell her. since my leg is alr useless, why don train my hand now. ahha. but of course, i donwan my hand to be useless either.


then did some jumpings. ahah. my favourite. ahaha. and im under the shorties grp): ahaha. so it was easy for me lahh. and cheryl can see tat im not jumpin to my fullest ehh. ahah. then had some court work stuffs. kinda boring though. i stand until my leg tired. and my lobs are gettin more pathetic lahh. sad case for me. beta train harder.


then today was alright lahh. chinese was ok. noe our results alr. got second in class i tink. or third. forgotten. but i noe is 39.5 upon 50? not sure either. ahah. surprisingly shinyin did not get higher than me. perhaps the tcher missed her name. ahaha.


then maths tcher dono die go where. but at least class not tat noisy lahh. and the damn tcher was suppose to give us the worksheet to let us pass our test lahh! wtf. damn her man. dono die go where. fail she is the first our whole class gona blame. ahaha. then english was BORING. as usual.


then recess. chatted, as usual. then was d&t. not bad. kinda fun. aah. but i wasted alot time in the beginnin. cose i didn noe wat to do. then the stupid machine scare me. ahaha. doin halfway suddenly 'POP' the thing flew away! ahah. then i xia dao donwan use alr. ask the person help me. ahah. then file until siao. at first very nice to play. then i stand there stand SO long alr still haven finish. then bcme not nice liao. ahaha.


then was science. kinda find mcs tcher kinda feeling in ms chen. i dono why. perhaps cose she's young and nice towards me. ahah. didn wanna be rude to her today to say siam so i said excuse instead(: ahaha. tat time i said siam to many tchers i don like. ahaha. i tink i got used to havin young tchers alr lahh. except for chinese tchers. ahahah. i still prefer young tcher to old tchers lahh. young tcher are much nicer.


then after sch went to eat. then go take history test. ahaha. cheat de lahh. i intercom-ed for mrs chia. then she gave me the paper and then ask me go to the bench to do. aaha. and shes not there to see wat im doin. ahah. then gang hao qinyu and michelle there. so i kinda ask for their help. though it didn reali work. and i cant concentrate lahh. so noisy.


then after the test went to find jackie. then waited for them to finish playin volleyball and off to amk hub. bought stuffs to eat and off we go home. and one stupid thing happen. jackie ask me to help her hold her drinks lahh. then she dian my hand siia! somemore is her finger dian my palm. first time like dat lehh. and her fan ying is so da where im the one being dian lahh. im used to being dian by ppl. ahah. mus rmb don near ppl wif lots of dian! ahaha. first time we take the early 169 bus also. ahaha. since it was early and we didn have homeworks, we decided to go play netball. aahha.


wen home first. then meet at the bus stop at the court there. near our hse. ahah. took my full of words ball to the court. actually we thot there wasn any netball pole. though i saw one jus last week! but after findin for quite some time we found it lyin on the grass. and jackie decided to put it into the hole on the ground as it was tat kinda hole-ed pole. ahaha. super duper uper dirty i tell you. then jackie like the nv eat rice tat kind, super no strength. so first try of aiming it into the hole and liftin it up properly failed. ahah. until the second try. shows tat we all bo aiming ehh plus no lisense[?]. ahaha. tats wat weizhen said to me and jackie wen she thot we didn noe how to bring the pole up. aahah.


then played until ard 6++ then walked to the place near northland sec there. buy things and walked to the nxt bus stop. ahah. lots of walkin. then i took bus and jackie walked home. ahah. see how near it is? ahah. i can actually cycle de. but my ma say no and besides if i do my knee will hurt more tmr. tat mean trg die die. ahaha.


hopefully tmr gona be a nice day. but wif english, its nv gona be nice. and guess i might be tapin both my knee liao. sad case lahh. but if nobody help me or very itchy, then forget it. i rather pain to death. ahaah.

ok. so sunday no big deal lahh. nth much happen lahh. so today. finally went to sch le. ahah. then was sci. live science stuffs lahh. then english. nag nag nag. then recess. then chinese. same. nag nag nag. and the tcher prefer to be called lao de than lao shi can. wth-.- i call her lao shi she donwan reply me. then clarissa call her lao de[old pig] then she reply her-.- thjen was iap. everybody high man! ahah. cose today no art. ahah. tcher nv cme! ahaha. nobody likes art bcose of the tcher pls. he sucks lahh. and mr sim and mr ong came to 'bai fang' our class durin ssrp. ahah. everybody fooling ard lahh. ok. then tats the end of the day.


went eat then lib study then homed. ohh. and i cycled all the way back to my old hse there jus to give my father the bic-.- not reali give though. my parents went there[old hse] by car and i went by bic. ahaha. they drove slowly and i ride fast. stupid can. vut damn shuang. cose its very windy but scary. ahaha. lucky not alone lahh! then reach liao my jiao also ma diao liao. ahah. tmr die die. hopefully won pain until where.



如果我能够弄时光倒流的话，我就不会得这种病了。

i think i kinda mad today huh. i suddenly missed doin hmewrk. ahaha. felt weird wifout hmewrk for days wen theres hmewrk but its not wif me. so woke up early these few days. i dono why. perhaps cose ive been slpin alot these few days? like wat my ma said. but to wat i noe, i onli slept for the whole day of tues wat! where got alot? to count those sleepless nitexs they are more man!


then i was waitin for jackie to wake up this two days man! my hmewrk is wif her and my ma is pestering me askin me why aren i doin my hmewrk. and askin wen is my test and stuffs. super irritatin. jus bcose i don show them the papers doesn mean i no test. jus bcose i didn study at hme doesn mean i did not had my test. all of a sudden they keep pestering me. its so not them.


so kinda watch cartoons the whole day again. and since they kept complainin that i always on the com and tv together, today i did not ok. i off the tv and use the com onli but wif lights on everywhere(: aaahha. lazy to off lahh.


then ard evenin sian liao. donwan use com le. jus leave it there. jackie still dono doin wat. so decided to go bathe then go down cycle. ahaha. but end up playin netball at hme(: ahaha. kinda losin ball sense alr. BUT, my ball handling is still good! ahaha. bu kui wo yi jing lian le si nian le(: practise makes perfect! ahaha. and at the same time waitin for jackie and deciding where to go cycling. ahah. end up all don have.


then finally ard 7.30 like dat jackie reply. FINALLY, but my show start alr lahh! then no choice i ran all the way down to the bus stop. bus jus go-.- wth. then actually wanted to cycle there. but tink tat if i go up then down again another bus mus have alr gone. so decided to wait lahh. this shows how near my hse and hers actually is. ahaha. then reach le ran up the over head bridge took my hmewrk and off to wait for the bus. ahah. abit stupid huh. takin same bus over and over again. ahaha. then reach hme ran all the way up. ahah. BUT, end up smone alr hog the tv. wth-.- mke me ran like dono wat then end up smone hoggin the tv. but soon he left so its back to my turn.


and heard from jackie tat one tues cheryl was doin more on center pass? but im wondering, the centers didn cme how are they suppose to have center pass? ahaha. i meanin how wuld we[me and rachel] noe wat to do for center pass since we aren there? ahah. weird. wen we are there cheryl always does GK throw in. wen we are not, center pass. im so so waitin for tues trg. hopefully nth goes wrong. courtwork pls. though my physical is bad. ahaha.


then i went to bathe again. for i dono wat reason. nth to do perhaps. ahah. guess im gona work late today. anybody wanna work wif me? ahaha. seems like im tokin to myself more huh.


i jus realised its not onli me tat has problems wif netball. though im deeply in netball. but im actually forced to quit though. but tis time nth is gona mke me quit my cca anymore. i put all my effort in my cca for years jus for even one. and my efforts did paid off well. though one cca didn reali work out for me. ahha. so nth is gona stop me anymore. jus to everybody; if u r reali interested in smth. go for it. don stop halfway. or stop wen u have not even started. don let anything stop u. and moreover, wen u are alr in it don give up jus like dat. sm ppl might not even mke it like u do(: though it is real busy but u get to play it everyday don you? aren tat wat u wanted?=DD

tis week is jus bad bad bad. three days of sch and i haven been to sch at all. great huh. hmewrks wif jackie. until today haven take yet. ahah. don feel like doin anyway.

second post of the day. not gona be long though.

sometimes i jus cant help it but to tink abt the unfairness. i noe life is nv fair. but...i jus cant help it. y m i born like dat? y m i always so different from others? y cant ppl get how i feel? sometimes i jus wanna end everything. i cant seems to hold on much longer but im forced to. im force to show a strong front but i don wan to at all. i got no choice. ppl may tinks im a hypocrite but i don care. cose they dono how i felt at all. not a single bit.


ya. enough of my nonsense. off to bed.

irealidonwannabeliketisanymore.

SUNDAY


erm. cant reali rmb wat happened though. suppose to go out but lazy and sick. sad case huh. then wen my mother cooking tat time she gave me see one disgusting thing. ahhaa.

can ur guess wats tat? ahah. its frm the prawn. the heart or the brain? does prawn has a heart or even a brain? ahhaha.

i got tis frm my meii fone. ahah. retarded huh.


























my meii believe tat tis is my medicine. ahaha.




















tis is long time ago de picture lahh. jackie's lollipop. ahah.

TODAY

yupp. i didn go sch lahh. cose sick wat. sore throat plus cough plus abit flu. cough until like wanna cough the heart out then will shuang siia. chao irritatin lahh. but no matter wat, im still goin for trg tmr(: but not runnin. cose im sure my asthma will act up.

then cose my art not yet finish so after seein doc went to park to draw-.- cycle bicyle though. ahaha. cycle won so chuan but i frm toilet run to park chuan until i dono like wat siia. see first bahh. if tmr im beta perhaps i will run. wifout tellin other ppl obviously. but if reali cant then i MAY tell cheryl bahh. after drawing went cycling ard park. 6rounds equal 2.1km niia. ahha. if napfa can cycle then shiok liao. ahah.

then went to bicycle shop fix more stuffs to the bicycle. ahaha. but got tat extra sittin thingy bhind. means have to fetch my fat pig sister. ahha.

then went home. ate my medicine. feel so strengthless lahh. then like bone pain like dat. haiz. hopefully i'll be beta tmr. and im in a dilemma again-.- cose i told my ma tmr i'll be goin for netball but not runnin lahh. then she sure tell my father de. then sure kana nag. even my knee alr kana nag like i dono wat shit alr. haiz. wen will they understand?

enough of those stuffs le. saw one blog today. chao retarded can. pathetic person. she do noe abt SOME ren shen da dao li. BUT, shes still doin the same thing to others. so wats the diff? indirectly hurtin herself wifout even noeing siia. isnt tat worst? wth. pathetic ass. and wats wrong wif chicken and egg? ahah. not noeing which cme first is a crime izzit? anyway theres no logic to which cme first at all. ahaha. she shld go learn her science man. and wats wrong of havin hope for broken frenships? isnt tat beta then some hopeless ppl[like me]? okk. enough, i noe tat nobody can ans any of my ques at all. so no point even askin.

i jus don feel like bloggin anymore lahh. to lazy. and i almost spelt as blooging. i dono wat im tinkin siia. yahh, so im jus to lazy to even on the com. to even walk to the com lahh. im cmin hme later and later nowadays. so i cant reali rmb wat happen for the whole week lahh.

TUES
so in the mornin was told tat re-test for 2.4 was post pon. so everybody suddenly 'wth' ahah. cose all wanna pon their trg but i didn wan to. so its gona be on wed. and i decided not to take. ahah. too lazy lahh. so had normal lessons lahh. then netball. today's netball abit stupid stupid de. aaha. cose warm up was easy though. cheryl was takin the bibs and one towel lahh. then wen she started tokin i goes' OHH~ i noe wat u wan to do alr.' and then i said donwan. then she reali nv do lehh. ahaha. then she put back the towel and took a ball. then she gona say i say' i also noe wat u wana do liao' ahaha. then she say not fun one. all she wanna do de i can guess liao. ahah. too bad. hu ask i got a young coach bfore. besides its smone she noes? haha.


then had those normal drills? cheryl today so purposely de. keep wanna break ppl's grp up. ahah. so i ended up doin wif jiajia yanting and sherylyn for some drills lahh. was easy. cose ppl nv throw the ball properly. so overall today's trg was kinda slack lahh.


WED
had lessons. and i didn noe VE also got test siia. ahah. jus wrote rubbish. heck lahh. and today i went straight home after sch. ahah. cose i was very tired lahh. i need more slp. so go hme tat time saw hon yu. so went hme wif her. ahaha. cose i didn like to sit down tats why she stand wif me. ahaha. so nice of her.


THURS
had lessons lahh. i cant rmb wat happen during lessons time anyway. theres nth nice to rmb abt either. today's d&t was not bad. ahah. and i don tink mr vtan get my design lahh. but heck. shappin of the design was almost done though. and one of the instructers there spoilt my wood! so end up i didn touch the machine at all. all was done by the instructers there. ahaha. i didn wanna touch the machine anyway. ahah.


then sci. practically nobody even listens to wat ms chen is sayin but she jus continued tokin. ahaha. but maths tcher is the worst. he nv noes wat we are doin. and so the two new tchers are always kana bullied by us. ahaha.


then after sch went amk hub wif jackie i suppose? ahah. cant rmb.


FRI
pe. actually was playin netball. then sian liao. dono why. cose not proper court. i dislike playin netball wifout a proper court lahh. so change to go play badminton. ahah. first played wif jaselyn. she not serious de. somore is i always run to her side to hit the shuttle cork lahh. they no strength one siia. siann. so played wif qinyu instead. ahah. ONLY badminton then i like to play wif her. ahaha. had continuous hittin for 16times? ahaha. play until right hand very suan and tired so stop le.


then was geo test. alright i suppose. and suprisingly i haven failed any of my test yet(: then recess. didn wana go down so ask ppl help me buy milo. had hard time askin them to buy. ahah. cose they everytime say need take risk. but i don find any at all lahh. so heck lahh. they came up and i had to give them gummy lahh. qiao zha de them. jus a packet of milo niia.


then maths. as usual. nobody reali listens. so all jus tell tcher dono how to do then hmewrk all can late hand up de. ahah. then english. compre test. okok i suppose. mayb will fail bahh. cose summary more than 150words and the compre ans all damn short. dono wat will happen to me liao lahh. moodless to study alr.


then netball. cose not much ppl came so onli ran 6rounds. and jackie went for the dono wat sci thingy so ended up pair ball work wif qinyu. ok, its very slow. and i didn get to warm up for my lobs. in the later part of the trg sure die wifout warmin up for lobs de. and i realised smthing. qinyu throw ball not shun de. doesn follow the fingers de lahh.


then do figure of 8 wif clarissa and jaselyn. but ended up wif many others. cose one person went out then not enough. so i ended up doin many. mayb its to mi bu last time nv do de. ahah. then shifted to bball court cose ndp ppl need use. netballers are nice ppl. ahaha.


then had some team drills lahh. then separated to mid fielders, shooters and defenders to train on the separately lahh. then got one rachel suddenly say' all our centers are bai ka.' then all the mid fielders started laughin including cheryl. ahah. its true though. the REAL centers lahh. then need to lobs. and obviously my lobs didn work out. fuck man. damn pek cek. even rachel says it too. ahah. im like dat lahh. i need to warm up my passes first bfore doin the drills. or i cant do it properly de.


then all join together train. mid fielders have to do 5push up wenever theres a miss pass made or shooters didn shoot in the ball. everytime like dat one lahh. so the highest record was 30push up. ahaha. wasn by me lahh. i onli got 25. ahaha. 30push up was bcose of one shooter lahh. mid fielders didn made mistake at all pls. and many of us do until skin peel liao lahh. and so did mine. until past[?] came out lahh. add on to the pain on the knee can. right side was the worst. bathe tat time still got the prickling pain lohh.


then was dog and bone. our team won. so didn have to run. today i aren in good condition huh. start of the trg alr noe things will be bad le. cose i ate flu medicine in the mornin and i still feel blur blur de. throat wasn tat well either. was kinda coughin too. bad day lahh. but luckily i still managed to survive the whole day wifout any big thing happenin.


TODAY
actually goin out de but cose ppl cant make it so didn go. but anyway didn wanna go either. i didn reali felt good at all. felt very sleepy all day. my right hand was acheing due to playin too much of badminton and did to much push ups. but my left hand wasn acheing tat bad.


then woke up ard 11 ate breakfast. watch tv and went back to slp. ahah. im reali super tired. cose of the flu, cough and throat pain lahh. felt real bad. i suppose im gona be sick again real soon. and i guess im gona get fever. mayb will pon sch on monday. but not on tues mayb. or mayb not both lahh.


even though i felt real sick but i still went out to eat. i is buay zi tong de. ahah. went amk hub. saw clarissa. i was wif my mother and meii. and she thot i wif my aunty. ahah. understand though. wanted go foodcourt eat de but too many ppl. so went to outside the kopitiam. ahah. saw many ppl though.


then bought bbt and homed. sian lahh. i feel damn tired again. though i slept so much alr.