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“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” Swami Vivekananda
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” Steve Jobs
“The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is.” Winston Churchill
Another lesson learnt.
Friday, October 17, 2014 2:49 AM

At times like this, I realised I really grew alot. And everytime, it was never up to me to decide. This is just life. Life that is cruel, life that is realistic. The more u run from it, the more u feel the pain. Might as well face it and learn from it.

This time I realised, in the living things world, it doesnt matter how much effort one puts in, not all the time it pays off. As long as it requires two party, not everything goes ur way. This is why I rather face non living things. Why cant humans be more true to themselves? Why cant they just say the things they want to say? Why cant they be straight forward?

Endless questions and zero answers. What for sacrifice for smth that the other party doesnt appreciate? Then come another qn, how do u define showing appreciation? Thats something without ans too.

But after staying in hall for so long, I've realised, its always that small little actions that mattered most to me. And also them that etched deep in my mind. Something I'll never forget and would do it back infinite times. I will not forget the little things that ppl do specially for me. Neither will I forget the little things ppl did to me(bad). And I'll do it back 100x in return.

I dont forgive anyone easily. At least till they 'served' finished the deserved punishment I had for them. Ya of course im no one to determine that. But the pain they give, I'll give it back too.

I dont even.know what im saying alr. But whatever it is, everything's over. I'll be back to the past me. But this time, more mature and smarter. Never ever ever falling into that trap ever again. The door will be shut forever. This time with whatever adhesives I can use to shut it tight, not even air can enter.

Im tired. I no longer need anymore lessons. I no longer want to grow up anymore. I dont want to be in pain anymore. I just want to be happier again. I dont want to be stucked in any turmoil. Its enough. I just want to be alone again. I rather have everything filled to the brim than having a broken bottle. I no longer want to sacrifice for anything/anybody that dont know how to appreciate it my way(at least).
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Overthinking?
Wednesday, October 15, 2014 12:03 AM

What's becoming of us? Honestly, many times I really really do wanna ask u many things. But I know nothing will change. So all the more I dont want to make things difficult. I just hope you're doing well. But then again, I dont even know if u're even affected. I guess all along, I just didnt have faith in myself. Never ever did. I no longer know what im confident at anymore....
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你还记得吗?
Saturday, October 04, 2014 3:29 AM

Everytime I come back here, it's always two extreme feelings. Either im really happy, or I just wanna bury myself somewhere and cry. Hahahaha. But then everytime I finished typing, I'll pick myself back up. This time, im not sad nor happy. Im just reflecting I guess...

Im quite sure u arent reading this anymore. But I'll still say. Whether or not u understand its a different thing already.

从前的约定, 你还记得吗? 你说过的话还算数吗?

以不再期望什么。这些也只是思念。
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