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“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” Swami Vivekananda
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” Steve Jobs
“The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is.” Winston Churchill
long time no post ehh..
Saturday, December 23, 2006 11:24 PM

very long time no blog le bahh..now blog le lohh..
21.12.06
today we get our postin results..i got into amkss lahh..not much ppl go amkss lehh..anyway good for jing xun megan n belle lohh..they get into same sch..then won b tat lonely?dono lahh..everybody all go different different sch lahh..after tat me n megan go jia min hse..actually suppose to give jia min a surprise party de bahh..but turn out to be..erm..messy party?cose megan go open the door..then close back..then jia min's ahma saw outside got alot ppl..so the ahma tell jia min to go open the door..then end up no surprise le lohh..but anyway its early for the surprise also..cose still got 6 more days then jia min's bday mahh..then i cant rmb wat happened on tat day le..
22.12.06
early mornin wake up get ready to go to sec sch lohh..then co my ma wake up..then i keep colin my meii wake up but won work de..she don even move a single bit..then wen goin to go tat time then she wake up..stupid de lahh..after tat obviously is late lohh..but anyway alot ppl late also lahh..then listen to the principle tokin crap..his chinese so funi de..first day alr like dat le..then after tat they brin us go our classroom n tell us our tchers lohh..my tchers to me one look so toot the other one look so fierce..haha..no offence though..they will still b my nxt yr tcher anyway..then my class got 15boys 25girls..haha..tats good..cose theres more girls..haha..then whole class same colour hse de..n its black man..no fate wif green anymore..haha..but im alr 6 yrs of grren le..now change abit nvm de..haha..n the worst thing is in my class theres a michelle..tats bad..cose my ear got prob de..later frm michelle i will hear till rochelle de..haha..after tat go le..then wanted to buy bks de..but my ma say queue so long later then buy then i say gan cui nxt time cme again then buy lohh..so she agree..then chloe cme find me..my ma go ask her if she still have her sec1 bks then she say have,haven throw yet..so my ma ask if she wans it..then she say no then my ma ask her if can give me..haha..then mke until i got so many bks frm different different ppl..so poor hor me..haha..i got bks frm my cuzs my sis n chloe..hw sad..all old bks..haha..but heck lahh..as long as can study can le..sounds as though i love studyin..haha..my tokin to myself habit cme again..haha..after tat go hme le lahh..
23.12.06
today go church wif sze min..ahaha..first time i goin church..cose im not a christian..feel so weird there..then after tat got some band performance..its so eeyeer lahh..haha..no offence lahh..but true..so we keep goin out..after tat got some games lohh..then got one game so disgustin lahh..need drink the watever drink is tat..look like some kinda cow dung..haha..but i tink its melted ice cream mix wif some kinda drinks lahh..sze min's fren said nice so sze min wen to drink it..then she drink le got tat kinda face..haha..then drink finish le cme tell me say she stomachache..haha..n i told her the drink look like cow dung..haha..then lucky i didn wated to drink n i managed not to drink it..haha..cose its a mus to drink..so im damn heng lahh..haha..then move on to nxt game..the tokin tokin one..haha..then jus nice we two the hearin n tokin all not clear de..so had a hard time?then we cheated..haha..after tat got tat blind fold thingy..i don like tat kinda game..or shld i say i hated in participatin in tis kinda game actually..then had the fallin down game..its a mus again..n i managed to not do it..cose no time le..haha..then today i finally saw her guy n her another guy..haha..her guy look more nice then her another guy..haha..after tat then wait for her father to cme..then her church de ppl alot all sot de..then waitin tat time got one guy n two guy cme tok mahh..then its so funi lahh their conversation..haha..then her father fetch me hme lohh..at hme onli got tat guy then he ask me if i got eat then i say no..i thot he eat le but end up he also nv eat..so.....after tat i told him i wanna go down da pao up then ask him if he wanan eat anything..then he say eat tat watever rice its called lahh..then hear wrongly then i keep huh huh..haha..after tat i go buy my thing n his thing..on the way back i wen to buy chocolate..aha..cant don eat chocolate for one day de..haha..tats y im like dat..then after eatin i watch tv then go bath le..n guess wat..i actually didn wanted to wash my hair today cose mornin i wash le n smore whole day in air con room..but then arh..i stupid stupid not concentratin on watever im doin i go use body soap go wash my hair..so stupid lahh..then i shouted'OMG' in the toilet..hahaha..then no choice jus wash hair wif the CORRECT shampoo le..aha..after tat sittin here type le lohh..

my legs condition is goin frm bad to worst..the most i can control is onli for 4yrs?then mayb after tat im givin up le..or mayb even half way im force to give up..or mayb go for opperation..reali hated myself for all tis..its jus like a torture to me..but nobody wuld ever understand tat kinda feelin de..unless they have been through it..but i still find myself fortunate if i tink on the bright side..but i noe theres more ppl BETA then me..but they jus donwanna tink on the bright side..yupp..i noe its difficult..but for ur own sake n the ppl hu care for u,jus tink on the bright side can..like it will kill u or smth..take a break n tink on the bright side lahh..mke ur own goal in life lahh..so tat u will have the determine to live?like me mayb?nahh..im not a good example..cose i don even noe if im reali tinkin on the bright side or m i jus runnin away frm reality?i dono..or mayb i reali didn had any prob..im back to my old self?anyway its good bahh..cose tat can say is one of my reason to live on..close the door back n nv lettin it open easily anymore..not tat childish tinkin anymore..growin up on all obstacles i meet in life..n overcome them..said enough le bahh..tired of readin so much le bahh..so mayb jus hope those ppl culd reali did understand wat i meant..livin is difficult for sm ppl..but havin determination to continue livin is easier..
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lazy to post le..
Sunday, December 10, 2006 5:30 PM

haiyo..i lazy to post le lahh..very ma fan..haha..so in the end..i can onli rmb wat happened ytd..n fri..haha..
08.12.06
today my ma bring me n my sisters go ice skating..so fun lahh..ask other ppl go but they bu shi not free jui shi cme tell me dono hw to ice skate..then i was like..i also dono hw lahh..as long as noe hw roller skate can le mahh..or either go there learn lahh..so fun lohh..then i wen to skate wif my sisters..after one round then i noe hw le..so me n my jie hole my meii hand n skate around lohh..then my meii also a while noe hw le..but cant do on her own lahh..then after tat my ma suddenly ask me n my jie to help the other two girl to skate around..then i was like..wth..nth beta to do izzit..but lucky i don relai noe lahh..so is my jie help them around..haha..then cme back tat time my jie complain to me say the girl so heavy mke until her hand pain..n smore mke her fall..haha..then she wet i not wet..haha..cose i didn fall..haha..good for me..but not my meii..cose she fell many times..haha..then after tat abt 6 like dat we went hme le..
09.12.06
woke up quite early cose goin out mahh..then wake upp le go watch cartoon..then half way my ma keep tokin on the fone..cose my uncle body got abit prob..then call until so many times..a while call my ah ma a while co my aunts..then until finally got one of my aunt can fetch my uncle go TTSH so my ma stop callin le..so i ask her wat happened lohh..she say cose ytd she brought my uncle go c the downstairs his hse de 6-10 clinic mahh..then my uncle ask the doc''ke yi da zhen mahh''then the doc say''ni yao zhao dian si jiu da lohh''then i hear le was like''wth lahh..wat kinda doc is tis..ask nia mahh..don need like dat tu ppl de wat..like cursin him go die like dat''then tat doc my ah ma there de alot ppl also complain abt him le but the damn clinic still haven tao bi..hw idiotic..then suddenly say until me..my ma say wen i was baby tat time then at my ah ma hse i sick mahh..then keep on vomit or smth..then go c tat damn doc..then every 3hrs go down c but still haven cure a single bit..then until very chum..the damn doc still didn do anything..then my ma no choice send me go hospital..then there the doc say lucky send here earlier not i die le..then i hear le i was like..tat kinda doc confirm not good de..or shld i say is not even fit to b a doc lahh..kk..then after tat i go bathe le then go out le lohh..then go rkycia's hse lohh..me n megan reach there first..as in the p6s de..haha..i jus realised..finally we wasn the last few!!haha..then after all cme le we eat le then go down bball court play netball..there so many idiotic guys de..then play half way one idiot short ass cme dao luan..we shootin tat time he tried to use he damn bball hit our ball away..then got a few times i hit the ball off wen he shoot up..n he is so bai chi can..netball also dono wats tat..then their ass balls hit ppl lohh..then smore hit my frens lahh..i almost wanted to kick their ball away lahh..then tat idiot short ass wanna cme scold us..then i say him back..its like wth lahh..dare cme irritate me smore say my frens..reali feel like bian ta lahh..then play until very tired le smore whole body wet..so go upstairs wif jing xun..then the maid..dono call wat name lahh..she wen down..so we didn noe wat to do..so i ti yi to jing xun ask her go open rkycia's cupboard..haha..hw bad m i..then we took such a great time to jus open n close the stupid door..so diff to even open n close it lahh..n the door like gona drop down anytime..so scary..so me n jing xun jus close it n go out le..then we damn warm mahh..so decided to on the fan..then dono which switch so anyhw press..haha..then the back thing so diff on de..i try le then jing xun then try so many times finally i on the damn diff to on de fan..haha..then i wanna on the tv..so on the other switch..then wanted change chl mahh..then my hse no scv de..so don have alot controllers..then i anyhw use any control press to change chl..end up was chl 8 but was so damn blur lah the screen..then i dono wat i press bcme blank screen..haha..then its like..we two the hse all no scv..so dono hw to use..but i saw hw they use so decided to press back the cartoon chl de..then press so many times the screen still blank..then i realised the tv is chi tun de..haha..so press le i waited then finally the tv back to normal..hahah..after tat they came upp le lohh..then pauline went into rkycia's room then pauline close the door say wat they dong fang..haha..then we all started to laugh..haha..then after tat call megan her lover to go in..haha..then got so much shouts lahh..then its like if ppl xiang wai arhh..its like they had lots of fun inside..haha..then pauline went to play the guitar..haha..she always does tat wen she go smbody hse which have guitar or volin or watever instruments..n always mess ppl hse upp..but if the ppl hse very messy she will help to clean upp..haha..she cleaned the tchers pantry tat time also..haha..after tat eat le then a while go down wif megan then go hme le lohh..then in the car tat time megan n her sis is like some siao za bo lahh..fitin like siao like dat..kk..after tat then i walk hme le lohh..then nobody at hme..normal lahh..after few hours my siao meii cme hme liao..then wen i sit on the sofa tat time she damn smart lah..cme pull my hair..so pain lahh..smore shes like pull n drag me to the other side of the sofa lohh..so pain lahh..then after tat i pull her hair then she wanna let go..if she still don let go i tink her face will have my hand print le..siao de she..nth beta to do cme pull my hair..then later i go slp le lohh..
10.12.06
today do nth lahh..woke upp at 11++12 go eat breakfast..then my whole family wen out..i donwanna go..then wen cme back tat time so much things lahh..haha..i ask them buy tibits wen cme back they reali buy..smore so much..haha..good..haha..then nth happen lahh..now sittin here typin lohh..
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...reali is speechless..
Friday, December 01, 2006 11:31 PM

u ppl always said bcose i didn say anything so ur won understand hw i feel..but so wat if i said?!do ur understand a thing?!NO!!ur nv did understand a thing..tats the reason y i always didn say anything wen anything happens..cose its totally useless..unless ur reali gone through all tis..not ur reali wuldn understand..u ppl noe i dono hw to comfort ppl..i will b speechless wen askin me to comfort ppl..but ur jus FORCE me to..jus TELL me to..but do ur noe hw i feel?!NO!its like..wenever smbody cry or get angry or sad..its always my fault..everything links to me..like im a conductor of everything..its the truth lah..not tat im tinkin nagative or watever..its the truth lahh..then smbody will definitely push or pull me there to go comfort them..then WAN me to say smth..or either say sry..its like..ur noe it..im not the type hu noes hw to express myself..i dono hw to say thankyou n sry to ppl..or mayb cose ur dono it?i dono..then its like..i will go..but i won say anything..i will jus keep them company no matter wat happens..but ur expects n WAN me to say smth..then i ask ur wat to say..ur say dono..then wat can i even do?nobody to tell me at all..ur wanna understand me..but even tis kinda things ur also can understand..then after i say my probs..do ur even understand?nahh..i don tink so..then after tis post..i bet ur tink i have troubles..then wen i wanna help..ur will say ur addin on to my probs..its like..wen ur don say..then suddenly cme tell me sry or smth funni tat mkes me feel even more bad..cose its like..i don like to feelin of u ppl hidin things frm me then suddenly say smth funni to me..its like smth linked to me again..then mke me feel like..if im dead..its beta..cose nth will link to me again..n i won bei ni men ying cang shen me dong xi le..im NOT sayin tat its anybody's fault lahh..jus feel so..undiscribable..nahh..tis not reali reali my REAL feelin..cose the real feelin,i have no idea hw to even put it in words..i have no idea wat im even feelin either..so jus keep myself busy frm even feelin stupid or watever..jus feel so not myself..im tired of tis kinda life alr..its so not the old rochelle goh i noe..jus so odd..cose im nv helpin type..but smhw..i did changed alot..i dono which to b..i dono wats goin on in my mind either..jus so..confused..jus so odd..i dono lahh..kk..enough of my rubbish..
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