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“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” Swami Vivekananda
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” Steve Jobs
“The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is.” Winston Churchill
Almost gone.
Monday, November 09, 2015 1:21 AM

I can no longer keep track of my own thoughts. I dont even know if I've mentioned abt it here before. But whether or not i did, I'll say it again...if not I'll be going crazy soon.

I really really honestly want to find someone who can understand how i feel. Which i dont think anyone will ever be able to convinced me of. Its always myself that i have to get pass. The only thing I've ever gave my all for. The only thing i ever knew it was truly mine. The only place where i could be myself. The only place where i can trust. The only reason i lived. Everything changed. Its all gone. Up till now, i cant face that fact. And no one understands how impt it is to me. How impt it is in my life. Its the only thing i really missed the most. And the only thing i really want the most.

I really want to say it to them that im sorry. I betrayed their trust. I've let them down. I've let myself down. But i really tried. I just cant handle the pressure i give myself. I just cant. I wished u didnt have to see that side of me. No matter what happened or what misunderstandings there are, I've still let u down. I wished u didnt give up on us. I wished u didnt change. But everything is just different now. I wish i could live up to expectations too. But i just cant pass my own body.

Maybe its really time to leave. At least i hope there'll still be something nice left to rmb me of.
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