Decipher the Story of My Life

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“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” Swami Vivekananda
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” Steve Jobs
“The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is.” Winston Churchill

damn fucked up.
Sunday, April 27, 2008 9:21 PM

ive not been posting and now im gona post and dedicate this damn fuck post to 2person. 2 damn fuck ass person. i dont care if they read this anot but the both of them is none other than JASELYN ONG JIE LIN AND HO ZHEN YEE.

I SERIOUSLY DONT CARE IF ANY OF THEIR BFs OR BACKUP GOIN SPAM ME AND BASH ME UP OR WATEVER. COSE I AM SO NOT IN THE WRONG AT ALL! FOR GOODNESS SAKE, I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THOSE FUCKING SHIT GRPMATES HU USE US[me and qinyu] TO HELP THEM FINISH THEIR FUCKING SHIT ASS UNDONE WORK. IF U'RE NOT FREE OR WATEVER CRAP I DONT CARE. COSE THIS WORK WAS GIVING LONG TIME AGO. I MYSELF AGREE THAT IM DOIN LAST MINUTE WORK. BUT AT LEAST I PUT IN THAT LEAST BIT EFFORT TO FINISH IT UP. BETTER THAN U PPL. GOIN MIA AT THE LAST MINUTE. WORK NOT FULLY DONE AND EXPECT US TO HELP U FINISH? DREAM ON. U PPL NOE MY ATTITUDE. IM NOT THE KIND HU GIVE IN SO EASILY OK! U WANNA BLAME ME? DREAM ON ALSO. COSE IM GONA SAY UNTIL U GOT NTH TO SAY. EVEN IF MS LIM DARE TO SCOLD ME, I WILL MKE TIS MATTER CLEAR.

i THANK jaselyn ong for doin the least bit. but if u replied my sms i wouldn have scold u here either. cose ur work is not even a work pls. its some undone shit whom nobody understands except for u hu done it urself-.- u might think im aiming u or watever crap. BUT I SWEAR IM NOT AIMING U. u urself noe my character well enough. im a person hu gets agitated very easily. u can go for all u want to ask ppl not to fren me or perhaps ask someone to bash me up? tats just some childish act. perhaps thats more of wat zhenyee will do lahh huh. but im so not scared pls. if want fight come one on one lahh.[i sound like a babarian] anyway if i did fight wif u i'll really be dirtying my hands pls-.- i hate it wen ppl take 'no printer' as excuse. so dont blame me for being unreasonable.

and zhenyee. u're like MIA since i dono wen. and im so not interested in ur affairs anyway. i do noe that u didn like me since sec1 perhaps? but im so not interested also. cose i noe that only if someone noe me well they will understand me. if the grps is can choose de i'll surely not be in tis grp. if u until tmr still didn print or did it, u're gona get it from ms lim. if u DARE to blame it on me or qinyu or even jaselyn, u'll get it from ME. 我保真你死得很惨！

so overall, if u're ever in my grp, better watch out. just do ur part i'll be satisfied(: and qinyu wants to say tat she wants to box the both of them.
我不是好惹的！

haizz~~
9:08 PM

我们之间就像风筝，越飞越远，最终断了线。
我想主动跟你讲话，可是我始终没有足够的勇气。
只能期待着有一天能够和你相遇。

ireallymissyouawholelot):

i didn pon sch today ok!
Friday, April 18, 2008 9:36 PM

HOHO. i didn go sch today. not pawn nor pon sch can! im really sick lahh. i wanted to go see doc tis morning but sadly my ma dont allow. yaya, watever ur say. fake illness or not impt or watever crap. but its true, i just have the feeling if i dont get it cure bfore exams, asthma or lung infection gona overwhelmed me during exams liao lahh. she'll just say ' its ur excuse for not goin sch lahh, dont need see doc, just eat amoxicillin and after 2-3days will cure.' like freak, wat if it doesn? cose i noe i wont just stop eatin rubbish cose of the illness. its not just pure sore throat alright? i feel tat my lungs have tighten up lahh. plus the medicine i need is not at hme. i can understand why u wont let me go see doc. cose once i see its counted 100+. i noe i've wasted lots of money but wat can i do? ur give birth to me and complains now? contradicts too much isnt it?

so, the ppl whom ive asked to help me take my geo bk hme did not rmb to take it-.- okk, i dont blame them since its my fault for not goin to sch. wat to do? sec sch's life is just so hectic.

i feel bored at hme but theres no one to entertain me except for the tv. and i just didn feel like facing the com to do the project again. though i noe the due date is delayed till june hols but i just cant wait till then right? so ive decided to run away from it and go back to slp.

nth much for the day just watch tv and slp. for the next few paragraphs, theres no need for u to noe wat im tokin or even understand or even read it. even if u do understand, dont try to get anything from me cose u noe wat the answer will be. PLUS, im not emo-ing for god's sake. tats just how i am so dont try to cheer me up cose im happy enough.

all tis doesn feels like hme anymore. all the complains and naggings and everything. tis just isnt hme. you ask me to come home earlier. but so what? so what if im home? what can ur do except pushing all the blames to us? we've alr done our best. everything we can do we did. but what about u? u did not tried ur best. i want to work to help too. but what can i do except to stop eating and save the money up instead? but u're a whole new different case. why cant u just sacrifice more since u said u've always been sacrificing? okk, enough of all tis crap. i tink i should just died of fatigue. i should have gone sch today and came home late and then go bathe and off to slp to aviod all those talkings. im alr too lazy to tok to anybody. i feel like goin back to the past. but i noe all those wont happen anymore. but the old me could be revive. i dont feel like talking anymore.

there's many challenges in life. there's many choices and decisions to make too in life. if one decision is made wrongly, there's no turning back. and the challenges will be there for you to face. whether or not you want to face it, its your choice again. and me, i've choose not to face it and run away. but yet i know running away is not a right choice. running away only gives you more worries, troubles and time for you to think it over. now i've really decided. this gona be it, i'm not running away anymore. but facing one challenges each time. taking one step by a time and overcome the challenges i face. i must be determined to finish this race and all the others. i must not be a weakling anymore. c'mon girl! you can do it! be strong and finish the race!(:

sick sick sick!
Thursday, April 17, 2008 11:12 PM

today not very lucky ehh. early morning walking down the steps of the bus i almost fall out of the bus instead of walk down the bus lahh! damn ass can. and i was sitting down for the whole journey to sch yet stand up knee still dont want listen to me siia! damn ass. i always feel bad when i sit down. but yet i cant stand for the whole journey anymore. cose if i do, i cant move my knees EASILY when i start to walk. damn crap right? thus, i have to sit wif guilt. HAHAH.

pe was assing lahh. we're suppose to have 2.4 run today. but the damn lightning thingy lights up AGAIN. then we waited lahh. then it stops and we went to run 2rounds and the damn thingy lights up AGAIN!!! asshole lahh. mke me waste my energy running 1.2 siia. but seriously i think my timing for tat two rounds is super ultra slow can. cose i was liike bhind some expected cant run de ppl. perhaps its bcose i started wif blurness, tryin to figure out how to use my watch. HAHAHA. plus my right knee wen stiff again. damn sucky. i feel like goin to the physio again yet i dont really think tat physio therapist is good. no offence though but its serious. so bcose my timing was slow so i wasn really angry. and both my legs went numb after running. like crap pls, im a netballer yet i cant run tat pathetic 2.4-.-

i really have to buck up to be like the past old me. running last time was actually somewhat my favourite thing. even if im having asthma i still went for my 1.6 lahh. now, its like crap. better do smth sooner or later.

then chinese was alright lahh. ohh, and did i mention my oral got 35upon40?! HAHAHA. i thot im gona like have 20+ siia. cose the tcher was askin for my chinese tcher name lahh. i improve from last year by 3marks(:

then recess. super hungry but one packet of milo full my stomach liao(: iap nxt. i kinda find drama alright now alr siia! perhaps my role was quite fun so its nice? i kept sayin my lines wrong though its just one or two lines. HAHAHA. but at least it mke sense and tats wat PRESENT students do though(: art sucks to the core lahh. tcher now even more sucky. lame shit lahh she. nv see my face so wat. i give u face see u is outside cher then nv talk back siia. if not i surely shoot u until u got nth to say-.-

then after sch ate changed back to uni and went for photo taking. i have not grown a single bit lahh. old hag wong totally sucks pls! even ms poon dont like her! HAHAHA. ms poon asked us to go find old hag wong down, but nobody wanted to. then i said 'ms poon, u got handphone why dont want call her?' then she gave me tat expression. the expression when someone is super disgusted! HAHAHA. then she said ' handphone need money lehh' then i said 'fake lahh[in teochew]' damn stupid can. i doubt anyone likes old hag wong-.- those type of ppl should have been remove from the world man!

after photo taking went straight home to slp till 6. im so gona fall sick soon. i can feel it man. my throat is alr gettin sore lahh. cose practically everyday my dinner was fries and bbt-.- im starting to cough now also plus i can feel the whizzing sound in my lungs): no asthma or lung infection or watever crap during exams is alr a fortunate thing liao. how am i gona run my 2.4 tis way now? haizz, but still i believe if i can do it in the past tis wouldn be any big thing now.

if time could really turn back,
i would have been happier now.
imissthemloads.
thatconversationshouldnhavebeenstarted,
soicouldfakemyselfthattheyhaveforgottenme]:
i need netball once again to forget this things.

damn fuck.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008 10:07 PM

feel like posting again. dono why. damn fuck. i dono why im bcming vulgar again man. think the vulgarities will subside some time later again lahh. ohh man, i seriously think i sucks at projects lahh. dont feel like doin siia. but i still have to face the reality to do it lahh. ahaha. sucker siia me, im the only one haven contributed(:

man man man, i really miss best tablemate alot man! if she read tis, she'll get it(: i miss the time where u always entertain me though im always so anti-social and quiet at times. and i noe im the only one who listen to u crapping abt ppl ever since deborah emigrate right? ahahaha. primary sch frens are really missed man! but sad thing is tat i seriously have no time to meet up siia): and and, those nice and good juniors aren in my sch but those asshole ones are in. HAHA. not all asshole lahh. but some(: i doubt the asshole ppl will be reading tis instead the ppl reading will be the nice ones. HAHAH.

cca just step down and yet im starting to miss playin netball alr. miss most is playin in tpy sports hall wif the bunch of mcs netballers! though we're really pressurised by all the clappings, we played our best and did not give up. we showed great sportsmanship and made lots of frens though they're normally our opponents. and though sometimes we're really very pissed off by the WEIRD umpirings and body contact players. i wanna meet up wif them one day man! and seriously speaking, no more benching[my word] for me bcose of my height anymore.

okk, i seriously must get down wif my project alr):

sianzzzzz~
8:43 PM

its like since 4 april i haven been using the com. nono, i should say having been bloggin lahh. use com is got but its in sch. AHHAHA. im just to lazy to even on the switch lahh. and im too tired till i feel im gona fall asleep or pon diao sch one of these days lahh. really damn tired. almost every morning in bus i will fall asleep alr lahh. normally i wont ok!

so im still just too lazy to type chunks and chunks of words lahh. and i doubt ppl wanna read them. HAHAH. so i'll just post pictures lahh(: the pictures will be in random order lahh. meaning not in chronological order and all kinda pictures.

my destop picture!(:

my d&t toy! damn fuck ugly lahh. plus the my fone camera totally sucks:/

our sch the sky very nice hor? HAHA. crap lahh-.-

my sis BIG eye-.-

no pupil[?] sai!

my sis insist on taking wif the light lahh-.- camera sucks again lahh.

nice colour combi right?

i saw tis word in the lift at my hse(: if cant see clearly its 'che bye'

i realised that my leg is really super duper ultra white!(:

my o-bak-kak dog(: from jing xun! my sis suppose to give me tat like on my 10th birthday lahh!she cheat my feelings niia.

my spastic sis doin spastic actions again.

can see the contrast of the clouds?

nice picture right? finally the camera is nice can!

i tink that my photography skills are great! AHHAHA.

the forest like trees near the symphony pond.

theres turtles and fishes in the pond lahh. despite the dirtiness[?]. HAHA

bored//tired shit.
Friday, April 04, 2008 9:28 PM

okk, im super bored now as theres no one to entertain me and im waiting for ppl to reply. most impt is tat jackie ong. if not shes gona wait for 1hour+ tmr if she doesn see the msg. HAHA.

so...

THURS
pe had napfa 5 items. though its only 3 lahh. so far still ok. almost aced all lahh. damn the sit and reach. totally hate it siia. only mke my knee more pain niia. sbj improve siia lahh. but i noe i could have jumped further but lazy retake lahh. cose i jump more my knee more pain siia lahh. damn ass.

then its chinese. super boring. tcher sucks to the core. i tink none of the tchers in amkss can ever teach chinese in a sense where students will actually listen ALITTLE and get wth the cher tokin abt siia! then iap lahh. drama abit nicer liao siia. lucky i not main character. if not super bo fun ehh siia. art as usual lahh.

today actually wanna go hme slp siia. cose im forever tat tired lahh. but jackie insisted on watchin the seniors match lahh. so we stayed. seems like seniors opponents are strong also huh. but still, im sure seniors can win all matches de. cose if both amkss teams were in north zone, we could have won easily. and wont be so pathetic to be competing in SCL siia. but end up seniors played 2quarters bcose of the damn rain.

then we left first since they wont continue. lightning wif thunder and we actually walk under it. normally i'll wait in sch de lahh but since jackie wanted to go so we left wif the juniors. and smth happened siia. HAHA. not smth bad but interesting lahh. but for the sake of privacy, i shall not mention the names. HAHAHA. a kana stroke guy went to the guard to borrow a so damn aunty umbrella for a girl lahh! and the guy is the so damn act and so damn zhao gu xing xiang de lohh. and he actually willing to give up his xing xiang for the girl lehh! HAHAHHA.

TODAY
skip the lessons part lahh. ms lim made me so damn hungry siia. everytime eat into our time de. so we got release late then went to eat and got ready for game. they were so damn pinky can. today both teams damn contrast. HAHAH. i thot they will be some unknown sch again siia. as u can see, ive been in the south for a long time and nv really played wif other schs bfore, so i wont even noe them lahh. but obviously we still won them wif a score of 45-13.

im QUITE satisfied wif my today's performance lahh. much beta than the previous few lehh. and so far, i still haven met a smarter WA. okk, no offence lahh. and not tryin to say im smart hor. but seriously the WA tinks im easily fooled since im fooled by her dodges once-.- at least today im QUITE into the game by tinkin of how to overcome wat the WA do lahh. but im still like 1sec slower in centre pass lahh!! my 3feet hands up is gettin lousier man. haven been hittin any 3feet hands up ball for ages alr lahh. okk, perhaps its 2feet lahh can.

after game shooters shoot and i did my centre pass thingy. its super fast lahh. seriously, i do wonder if tats the thing im lousy at and theres no more or she saw my knee almost break and wanted me to stop fast or im alr hopeless, in a sense tat attack and defence all cannot lahh. sometimes i do wonder hu i can ask. if puva was my coach, im sure i'll bcme an attacker alr and most prob a C too. and i wont have those questions keep wanna ask. perhaps one day wen i have a good tok wif her[not cheryl hor!] i'll ask bahh. tis few days shes busy and im busy also. kinda i doubt i'll ever ask her tis kinda things lahh.

after game went opp eat. okk, my dinner was just the chocolates and my chocolate ice blend. HAHA. i noe my dinner rocks. if its the hub bbt will be better siia. then went home.

oh man! shes like so damn hated siia! [ dont try to interpret tis sentence urself(: ]

sometimes i really wish it was broken,
cause i feel so tired to continue
yet i noe i'll hate myself for life if i did tat.
i feel so contradicting
but i've no one to tok to to interpret it for me.
how i wish u're back here wif me.

280post siia!
Wednesday, April 02, 2008 10:49 PM

okk, tis time will really be short liao. cose lazy to post lahh huh. i just realised i posted lotsa posts alr siia. HAHA. 280 lehh. okk, back to point.

TUES we had game against first tao payoh sec. today its the orangey day siia lahh. okk, so we won the game wif a score of 62-0 lahh. cose they didn noe how to play except one girl who keeps contacting and contacting wif mke me really fed up and bang her since no umpire will blow(: their umpire totally nv blow at all siia.

seriously speaking, we could have done much beta if our game was faster plus beta umpiring(: not saying i can umpire well lahh. and and, cheryl actually said we played beta while i tink we played lousier siia. HAHA. okok, i've finished typing my craps.

TODAY boring lahh. tchers all pajiao de. but also good lahh. so i can play game plus eat my stuffs mahh. okk, so tats the end. ohh, and i've cut my hair again. HAHH.

time for slping liao. even though i slept so much, its still the same to nv slp at all. why is tis so huh? perhaps tmr will stay back support seniors. can i suggest to go watch the northland game? though i noe the outcome but i kinda just wanna see my cousin play. HAHAH. random lahh. okk, is tis short enough alr?(: