Decipher the Story of My Life

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“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” Swami Vivekananda
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” Steve Jobs
“The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is.” Winston Churchill

It was never ever forgotten.
Saturday, January 23, 2010 9:34 PM

actually i got nth much to say. ok, nth to update also. i just wanna say, i finally felt the feeling of having a break. i mean like, i didn know weekends were so useful. in a sense, useful. cause i need to sleep and study and watever!

thats the end of what i wanna say abt my week though. HAHA.

today was really really quite a bad start. but seriously, i didnt know i could control myself that well. or perhaps more like hide them. i really didnt thought that she still rmbs it. what more even think and talk abt it. what i cant believe more is, i believe that she actually told me all that. i know im gona be 16 soon. but seriously, arent im still quite young to be absorbing all these? if u said that u would have entered there, i think i would have entered there long time ago bfore u did. if u said it was bcause of her, i really do think that we're burdens. shes free alr. but im not. i just couldnt open up anymore. i dono who to turn to and who to tell. if u said u wanted to, u should have. cause i know she wouldnt wanna know that she had such a person exsisting in her life. honestly speaking, i would rather be in a home of strangers. i rather be alone. i rather be just left behind than knowing all these nonsense. if i didnt know how to control, how to escape, i would have alr drop dead by now. i told myself not too. but because of all these nonsense, i've did it again. i couldnt be like the past me anymore. i could no longer hard and cold. i just can run, run and continue running. if only i could do this in real life. i wouldnt have so much to think abt. if only i could chose what kind of life i want to lead.

DETERMINATION.
Saturday, January 16, 2010 11:17 PM

AHAHA. i shall make this quick. bfore my sister comes back or smth. HAHAH. i feel like some sort of thief whenever i use her laptop. HAHAHHA. but at least its for a good purpose k! its to finish my bio notes.

SO, HAHAHAH, i feel so productive/accomplished today. HAHAHA. i managed to finish alot things today. HAHAH. firstly was game in the morning with SJC. won. but got punished in the end): sadness, yes, rather. then went home to bathe and slept from 3+ to 5+pm. then woke up and did my hmewrks all the way till now. HAHAHHA. so meaning i have lots of time tmr! HAHAHA.

but still, i have plenty of things to do. cause i shall be guai kia and start to prepare for Os. HAHAHHA. more like kiasu huh? HAHAHHAA. no lahh, at least prepare for my chinese Os first right? i'll do it once and get my A1! and i decided to start improving my english. HAHAHA. i really hope its not too late. HAHAHA. so im gona make an effort to read both the eng and chi paper AT LEAST ONCE every week. yes, i know its not alot. but at least i read! HAHAHA

and i'll try to make time out or maybe even get my ass out of the house to run. HAHAHAHHA.

okk, actually, i got nth much to say also. i just want to say smth. I NEED CHOCOLATES LIKE REALLY SOON! IM TOTALLY DYING WITHOUT IT MAN! I DID NOT TOUCH ANY CHOCOLATE FOR 1 WEEK AND 3DAYS ALREADY!!!! but sadly, my sick is still not fully recovered-.-

AND ANOTHER THING. WE NEED TO, HAVE TO, MUST DEFINTELY WIN CEDARS THIS TIME. I MEAN, WE GOT TO GO HIGHER. IM NOT GONA END MY SEASON JUST LIKE THAT. NO REGRETS. DETERMINATION PLAYS IT ALL. AFTER TODAY'S GAME, I FEEL MORE CONFIDENT AND THAT WE'RE MORE PREPARED. NOT THAT BCAUSE SJC WAS NOT GOOD. THEY'RE IN FACT QUITE GOOD. MAYBE BECAUSE IM STARTING TO KICK MY HABIT ALR. YEAHH! GO AMKSS NETBALL B DIVISION 2010!!!!

Just for the sake of posting. HAHA
Saturday, January 09, 2010 11:15 PM

hmm, erm, actually, many things happened. but im just so lazy to state everything out. i shall just sumarise. and seriously, this time is sumarise. AHHAHAHAH.

this whole week was just hectic. HAHAHA. busy everyday because of farewell. and finally its over. like seriously. dont have to bother abt so many things anymore. and my definition of hectic is, i cant bring hmewrks back home to do and i dont have time for afternoon naps. AHHAHAHAHHA.

so ytd was the farewell. finally over. but yeahh, its not very successful though. but kinda, i had my fun. AHHAHAH. cause its my first time bbq-ing. i mean, i myself doing it. instead of waiting for ppl to serve me. AHHAHAHAH. anyway, i always dont eat much also. so theres nth to serve. i can always count what i eat after my bbq! AHAHHAHAH. amazing? yes!

then today was very much of procrastinating. HAHAHA. want go dont want go. but in the end, i still get my butt out of the house. AHHAHAH. had qianyan's belated birthday surprise. be glad i appeared even though im suppose to be at home slping like a dead log! AHHAHAHAH. i so do not look forward to my birthday. AHHAHAH.

tmr gona be stay-at-home-mug-like-siao day! HAHAH.

let me sumarise my nxt week first. cause i doubt i'll be online. AHAHHA. monday, trg. tuesday, help out in CCA selection. wednesday, maybe free maybe not. thursday, trg PLUS STUPID WEIRD IRRITATING NONSENSICAL AND WHAT NOT LINE DANCE-.- wtf pls. just kill me straight. friday, free from all the nonsense. but i bet i'll be doing hmewrks and studying like some idiots. and saturday, its friendly with SJC. i hope our team is prepared for every single match alr!

hectic? yes, for me. im just so tired with all sorts of bacteria/virus and everything in my body. and with the medication overdose, i just keep wanting to slp. HAHAHA. i just hope i can keep my mind clear and my eyes wide open tmr. AHHAH. if not there goes my Amaths test~

its always like dat. when i dont wish to be sick. im down with all sorts of nonsense. and i believe nobody will believe im sick cause im up and walking around. yeahh, my body is weak, but my mental is strong. and its because my brain controls my body, thats why i forced myself out. if not, bye bye trgs and byebye birthday celebrations and byebye farewell i tell u. but, it is a good thing or a bad? i need to recover fast. but im not giving myself time to. haizz. if only im stronger.

i dono where my extra energy is coming from. but i just hope that the source its coming from, would never end. i just need to keep on moving and never stop. neither do i have the time to stop. please, just let me get stronger.

Sadness.
Sunday, January 03, 2010 9:49 PM

as the tittle explains, this year doesnt seem that good afterall. i suppose many huge events are gona happen. i mean like, important year perhaps? and since the 1jan, i dono why im always having that bad feeling again! GOOOSHHH, I AM SO DEAD......

and guess wat? i just realised something. my PE is on thursday, and i have assembly AND TRG on the same day! SAD ANOT? i mean, i'll stink like shit man. perspire like some goon in the morning, then have to change back into uniform and wet it. and then change into the smelly pe attire AGAIN. OMG, I HATE THIS KINDA ARRANGEMENT): if u ask why i dont wanna change into a new pe shirt after sch, i will ask u 'how many pe attire u want me to bring to sch on ONE day?' cause i HAVE to change again after trg! like how many shirts in my bag man! it'll again be stuffed of clothes than books-.- SUCK!

and then im still bothering over what bag to bring. HAHAHAH. but weird thing is, i dont have MUCH bags. HAHAHA. only two to be exact. HAHAHA. bagpack or sports bag? hmm, i shall leave it to later. since i dont intend to pack my bag yet. HAHAHA.

i think every wednesday will suck the most. cause we end sch at 2.10pm. PLUS, ALL IS DOUBLE PERIODS. kill us pls. suck suck suck. sec4 life wont be that great. what more, i have no idea who is my partner. pls dont give me some irritating guys or some weird guys. hopefully its a girl, but not someone i dont talk to. HAHAH. yes, i know im troublesome. but at least give me a good life for my last year?

hmm, i guess i wont be blogging often. HAHA. anyway, normally i also dont blog often. HAHA. guess what my mum told me just now? HAHAH. she actually asked me to manage my time properly. stop thinking abt playing lehh! HAHAHA. she dont even know what class im in, and what im studying. and when are my tests and exams. and yet shes telling me all those nonsense-.- i dont need her reminder to know that im a sec4 alr. just because she dont see me studying doesnt mean im not studying. i shall STAY AT HOME to study in front of her more often. AHHAHA. but i guess thats not gona be very possible. cause my sis is gona be home bfore me-.- i mean, she'll just noise up the whole house-.-

GOODLUCK TO ME MAN! BYE, I DONT FEEL LIKE TYPING ALR.

New year resolution much?
Saturday, January 02, 2010 8:00 PM

its 2010 alr. not a very nice number to write though. i dono why, but it just seems long to me! AHHA. i just hope i dont write some weird dates on my paper can alr. HAHAH. okk, i've just been busy for netball stuffs. the farewell thingy. lucky in sec sch only 4 years. if not i really will die of doing such things. esp the performance part. HAHAHA. i mean like seriously. gifts are totally alright. but performance is OMG. the always will sabo me to do those weird stuffs.

but everything will end on the 8th(: quite sad that we wont really be seeing the seniors anymore. but at the very least im not THAT close to them. so at least history wont repeat. HAHAHHA. good thing is that we'll be more free. i really got to start studying now alr lohh. HAHAHHA.

i think i really break my record alr. HAHAHA. i really nv really touched my hmewrks at all lahh! like maths, i nv do. chem, perhaps i'll chiong by these few days. then physics, HAHAHHA, forget it. i dont even wanna print the ws out! HAHAHAHHA. i rock lahh! HAHAHAHHA. and yet im sec4 alr. hmmm, guess i shall break my record again and set some new year resolution! HAHAHHAHA

FIRST THING FIRST, B`division to reach zonals top4. we've been working so hard and im not gona let my last year pass so quickly. i swear i will put my best into playing ALL games. what more, im not gona regret and cry my eyes out.

SECOND THING, manage my time wisely to work hard in studies and play hard in netball.

THIRD THING, try to last every single friendships i have! especially all those primary sch ones(: the usuals of course is no prob(: but i just hope we'll all continue to keep in touch!

FOURTH THING, dont fail ANY subject and try to get As for all subjects. HAHHA.

FIFTH THING, this will be the hardest! HAHA. try to not injure myself further physically or mentally. HAHAH. no more spraining ankle and no more knee pains.

actually, i dont really know what are my resolutions either. i mean like, if i really wanan think, i think that theres alot. what more, i dont really know what i did last year. whenever i asked myself what i've done for the past year, my answer will always be 'im just wasting my life away'. i dono either. i just live life just like dat. no particular things i have to, need to, or want to do. or perhaps i should say, even if i do have something to do, i doubt i'll even do it.

okk, i cant really seem to think straight alr. i mean like, i think im not VERY VERY awake. cant really think properly. HAHAHAH. okk, the only thing i wana say is, i think im gona have butt ache tmr! HAHAHHAHA. cycled abit too much today. HAHAHAH.