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“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” Swami Vivekananda
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MIA-ing or perhaps LAZYing
Friday, September 28, 2007 2:49 PM

i haven been blogging neither did i came online for the past one week lahh. im jus TOO lazy to on or perhaps no time to on lahh. MIA-ing in progress(:

have been studying alot lahh. but now i finally noe how cme i can actually score quite well wifout studyin much alr. bcose in the past i didnt stress so much on studies. meanin my daily routine was jus playing attention in sch and cme home slp for HOURS then start studyin at nitex. its bcose i didnt put pressure on myself to study so much. but all of a sudden now im tryin to put so much pressure on myself tat ive broke down-.- so now im back to my normal self. im not gona care abt my studies anymore. jus zou yi bu suan yi bu. im jus gona take it easy and jus be normal. instead of studyin like crazy im jus gona study at nitex. i bet EOY no more 3rd for me. HAHAH. but hu cares abt being 3rd pls. im jus tyco durin midyears to even get 3rd lahh. the first two in my class is like super not so like me.

so im left wif 3 days but i still haven finish studyin maths, geo and history. amazing me(: but heck lahh. take it easy. jus hope i wuldn fail tats all. AHAHA. although ive read most of the txtbk alr but seems like nth goes in my brain at all siia lahh. heck abt studies alr lahh. im goin to go slp(:

btw, im not goin online till exams finishes. by the time exams finishes, i'll be back to mapling at home and netball outside. HAHHAA. im soooo miss playin netball lahh. im still waitin to noe the results and trgs to start.

the class is so gona die if ms low cmes in often to be the examiner man! cose she said to us tat if we nv tuck in shirt or wearin ankle socks shes jus gona give us 2demerit wif tellin us-.- jialat lahh. hopefully she don mean wat she says. HAHAA. slpin time(:

weirdo days~
Sunday, September 23, 2007 7:52 PM

i tink i finally noe wats stress. i SO SO SO miss playin netball lahh! these few days have been studyin like i dono wat.

FRI
pe played badminton. HAHAHA. yahh, though my knees alr like dono wat shit, but i still don care. relieve stress arhh! ahaha. long time nv play badminton plus perspire so much alr. so obviously i was being a water tap again-.- cose the hall fans not on plus doors all shut-.-

after pe was geo. tink this time geo more easy score bahh? cose mslim help us alot lohh. not like msphua. she didn reali scold us though. then was recess. went to change my plaster cose the pas[?] the white liquid thingy is kinda hardenin the whole plaster. don change later i don need straighten my leg siia. then went down to drink milo.

then was maths. i wanna slp lahh! but cant lahh. don listen later exam sure die die. then was english. even worst. but lucky was writin letter of compliment in grp of 4. so meanin the lesson won be so boring. and meanin there aren enough space for my pathetic legs. so meanin i kana kicked on the wound lahh! somemore not onli once but quite a few times-.-

after sch ate while waitin for jackie. then went amk lib wif jackie and rachel to study. ahha. its like a everyday routine to even go to amk lib. then dono why i suddenly got rashes. perhaps its bcose of the wet pe shirt? not sure. but also cant be. cose im always like dat but nv once kana rashes lahh! so ard 3+ went home. bathe then slept from 4+ till 6+. wake up cose super duper itchy until buay tahan. then ate the medicine apply the cream and went back to slp. ahah. too tired lahh. i thot i'll onli be slpin for awhile. but hu noes i slept all the way till1am then woke up-.- which is like i missed my show and i cant do my d&t alr. wth-.- wanted to wake up to do d&t but STILL very tired. so jus slept till the nxt mornin lahh.

SAT
woke up ard 9+. first time siia lahh. super early lehh. ahhah. then ate and watch cartoon awhile then off to study-.- from ard 1130 till 730 im like studyin lahh! finished readin science txtbk and litbk. and im still left wif maths, geo, his,d&t and chinese. so much can! hopefully i have enough time lahh. but ard 4+ i went to cook my lunch-.- i had a hard time oning tat stupid gas pls.

730 watch cartoon to relax(: ahaha. i noe im still kinda childish. but i onli watch cartoon lahh. actions not childish lahh. then went to bathe ard 9++. then did my d&t till 4am like dat. pro rite? ahaha. my dinner was at 11+ which is onli biscuits.

TODAY
woke up ard 12. ate and study again-.- im sick of studyin alr lahh. i goin to buay tahan alr. then did some chinese. the words jus cant seems to enter my brain. showing tat im seriously out of memory alr. not enough memory space. ahahaa.

then my ma suddenly call me ask me go down take my food plus my d&t work ruin! then i si be tu lan. and obviosuly i shouted into the fone. my ma ask me how then i say jus ask the aunty go die lahh! and more tu lan words lahh. cant rmb alr. cose im totally agitated. if i at the shop perhaps the machine and stuffs there all spoilt by me alr. im alr stress out enough. i cant take it anymore. then broke down. i slammed the door, locked the door and broke down. i culdn take it anymore. i seriously want netball trg to start asap. i don care if my knees hurt or watever. i don feel like studyin anymore. so wat if i seriously did try hard to change? they nv ever rmb how hard im tryin, wat thing ive done for them. they onli rmb the bad stuffs of the past. ive changed but they dono at all. wat they done reali mke me wanna get away from tis home forever. ive left wif no more respect for them anymore. no matter wat they try to threaten me or watever im not gona care anymore. they don understand me at all why mus i go and try to even understand them? i seriously don feel like continuing anything anymore.

i jus closed myself in the room the whole day. until at nitex. wen im force the re-draw the stupid d&t thingy. and she tried to help. but do i look like i'll give a damn to wat she wanna say. i jus ignored her. if i can, i rather shift out.

i don feel like changin the plaster anymore lahh. super irritatin and ma fan. but the whole wound is super ugly. the bruise there clearly show why i fall and how i fall pls. i seriously hope the fall didn mke my knees worst. but i jus got tat bad feelin tat the knees did worsen.

okk, the whole post is jus crap lahh. my english.... i dono wat i tokin abt at all.

我只感觉得到复杂的存在。如果我有选择我宁可死了算了。我不想再应付人身的重重困难了。
我真的很累。

the day has come.
Thursday, September 20, 2007 6:07 PM

how great can my knees get huh? right. early mornin while walkin to sch, i kinda trip over smth and sprain my ankle. actually im not suppose to fall cose tis always happen to me and i nv once fell. but tis time, my knees broke too): meanin the sudden broke came again and tis time TWO knees broke at the same time as i trip over tat dumb thing-.- and amazingly, my knees bleed like i dono wat. plus ankle.....wahh piang. early mornin alr like dat.

then went to class first thing ask ' anybody got plaster? ' ahaha. clean up the wound and then winny and qi huan help me go find first aid box. then end up so many ppl cme-.- red cross ppl. and they are not as gentle as mrs dave): i seriously do miss her alot. the first thing i thot abt wen i said first aid box was mrs dave. cose the same thing happened too. then bcose assembly was starting they jus anyhow pasted the watever thingy tats call. one BIG cloth there so extra-.- no offence but i seriously rather have the plaster. but still, thankyou those ppl for attending to me lahh.

then was those normal boring lessons lahh. and elysia fainted again-.- kana ci ji huh. everytime faint but nv zhuang dao tou de. i wonder how she faints man! expert liao lahh. and ive decided tat my d&t thing is all gona be on pasting(: HAHAHA. i tink im gona fail badly like dat man. ahaha. but heck liao. seriously too lazy to bother abt tat.

after sch saw ms lim. and she say we are all gona get scolded for wat we did on wed. die die liao. ahaha. ytd theres nth much to tok abt so im jus too lazy to type it out lahh. jus the normal routine.

i thot i wouldn be using those antiseptic creams and stuffs alr. but hu noes such things happen again. but tis time not bcose of netball. is the result of over exercising myself. now, i don even dare tell anybody was goin on wif my knees anymore. esp my parents. i donwan to get discouraging stuffs frm them anymore. further more lettin them worry or perhaps they wouldn even bother abt me anymore. i hope tis fall wouldn mke my knees worst): iwanttobestrongagainpls.

two day.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007 7:50 PM

cant post bcose my stupid sister is hogging the whole com for the whole day jus bcose shes havin holiday and shes sick-.- plus i don tink shes allow to go out! HAHAHAA

MON
we went sci lab for sci. did experiment. ahaha. was fun lahh. and some stupid de go taste the salt water. then after evaporation they also go taste the salt-.- then was eng. nair told us to bring our eng books wen we havin sci but we all did not. so we went back class then take our eng books wif sci. ahaha.

then was recess. then chinese. then iap. ahaha. mr poon nv cme! HAHAHA. then drama was retarded. we all jus played played and played in the choir room lahh. all runnin ard screamin shouting like some kiddos. ahaha.

then after sch was oral. stupid can. after i said good afternoon, her first ques was ' hu gave u ur name?' stupid lahh. then she ask again ' wat is the first thing which u can tink of for ur name?' stupid lahhh! wat does my name got to do wif oral? she spent abt 1min tokin abt my name-.- somemore ask me if i got tease bcose of my name. like obviously pls. suan me izzit her.

after oral went hub. jackie and i saw weizhen(: shes wif her fren. then we went to buy things and off we go to the lib. we are lucky de lohh. after walkin one round in the lib finding for place, jus nice got one couple jus stand up then we got place liao. ahah. but was super noisy. got bhind us is raffles de. infront is anderson de-.- then we do until tok abt netball. aahha. mrs ong still haven tell us abt the perth trip.

TUES
sci again. ms low pull my ear-.- jus bcose i didn do the own experiment de hmewrk. stupid lahh. at least i finish the others ok. and the chairman copy ppl de lohh! plus at least i didn copy. HAHAHA.

then eng again. then recess. then was history. ahha. super duper noisy. alot kana demerit bcose nv listen to mrs chia. HAHA. stupid lahh she. everybody was playin and tokin lohh. wanna give also give whole class wat.

then was maths. had the journal test. was ok bahh. then during maths ms lim walk pass! ahaha. she was SOOOOO SHY tat she walk pass our class she purposely use her hair block her face then look to the other side! ahaha. the ppl hu saw laughin like siao lahh. ahahha. perhaps our class succeed in mkin them together! ahaha. and theres geo tmr then maths! HAHAHAHAH

after maths was chinese. tcher tokin rubbish again. nobody bothered abt her pls. so i jus did my sci revision lahh. ive jus mke used for the two period wisely! ahahaa

after sch went home buy lunch which is also bubble tea. then homed wif jackie. slept till 6. then realised tat jackie sms me sayin the world champs de list cme out liao. im suprised though. meanin tat as long as u have the skills, no matter how injured u will still have a chance to play. BUT u MUS have the determination. and be strong no matter wat.

then after wakin up first thing use com check. ahaha. then went down run abt 3.1 in abt 17min! finally my stamina improved. and i realised wen theres dog, i run even faster-.- ahaha. ppl hu noe me shld noe y. HAHA. then bathe and ate. and im using the com now. perhaps i will go do my sci? or go slp at 10. ahaha.

no motivation to study? or izzit not time to study yet? ALAMAK LAHH!
Sunday, September 16, 2007 8:41 PM

today woke up ard 11++ then went down to eat branch. then went home. suppose to do hmewrk or mayb i shld say study. but i seriously dono how to start or wat to start on lahh. or mayb is no motivation? i see ppl all like writin notes lahh. but i dono wat to write lehh. cose i tink tat readin the WHOLE txt book will be easier and clearer lahh. so wat m i suppose to do lahh?!

i wanted to do maths paper. but do finish one the other no mood do alr. then decided to write history and geo notes. then i tink, history mrs chia alr give us so many notes. then geo readin txtbk will be clearer? besides the notes tat im writin all is frm txtbk. so wats the use of doin double work? so history i'll be readin the notes and the txtbk then will finish studyin for history. then geo jus read all the worksheets and whole txtbk. then english don have to study? except mayb read those paper one writin compliment de letter format lohh. then maths perhaps read through worksheets plus txtbk? then do some assessment[?]? then chinese bei how to write the shou ce inside de words. then mayb read through the gu shi da wang since the tcher say will cme out from there? then sci read the notes tat ive been writin and read the txtbk? then lit read the bk twice. the d&t jus read txtbk and the notes then finish studyin le wat? tats where i dono how cme i like study until so qing song then other ppl write tis write tat de. did i miss out smthing?

so end up studyin im watchin movies and internet. HAHAA. i scared later not enough time again-.- supposingly i will be studyin startin from nxt wk bahh. after tat went out to eat then home again-.- my sunday had jus been wasted like dat lahh. wanted to go out cycle but keep rainin then sian diao alr lahh. stupid! i beta mke full use of my time alr.

random-
Saturday, September 15, 2007 9:45 PM

im jus gona put everything in one whole paragraph. so it'll be long. and everything is mix together. if donwanna read no one force u to(: cose im jus typing it for the sake of typing it.

many ppl had been askin me many stuffs tat onli ppl hu reali understands me able to say. but some might not even have the ans to it at all. they jus like to ask stuffs abt why is my life so boring and stuffs. but i don reali find it boring. my life is normally filled wif netball. since i quited gym its all abt netball. but not fully abt netball since i have my frens and stupid family. some ppl hu don understand me as well as my pri sch fren does they jus ask me why do i always like to play netball and wat so fun abt it. it bcose its something which can reali mke me forget everything and be happy. i noe i look very serious and perhaps sian to ur during trg. but to me, being serious and NOT sian during trg is impt. we can laugh and tok during trg but not too much. besides, we have to get the basics and stuffs all right first right? some ppl jus like to complain abt not being able to do some things in netball properly. its bcose ur jus like to fool ard during trg. im not complainin or watever. watever ur wanna tink i cant control. i onli can say ur don understand me well enough. even ppl we claim to understand me don understand me. wat more can i expect from ppl hu jus noe me or wat? sometimes i jus keep quiet is bcose i don mind gettin blame or gettin hated by other ppl. cose im willing to sacrifice for my frens. perhaps u don treate me one but i don care. cose i treate u as my fren. no matter how idiotic u are u are still my fren. but perhaps not my good fren lahh. sometimes u do noe all those 'ren shen da dao li' stuffs. but u jus culdn do as wat u tink rite? cose im like dat too. cose u are influenced by ur frens tinkin. she treate u like gold but u jus treate her like silver[my example(:]. won it be beta if u tell her straight. like how they did and i find it funny though. and they laughed at each other actions after sayin and can have a even beta frenship. yahh, those tat i wanna say cant be typed out at all. cose wat i wanna say cant be explained in words at all. onli ppl hu truely understands me can understand how i feel wifout me sayin. but i wonder wen will i have such a fren. one is gone and no one came to replace her at all. i always thought i can do it myself. be alone and stuffs. but sometimes i jus cant but simply forced myself to. i do hope i can rely on someone but theres no one to rely on at all. enough of those lahh. back to netball(: 我知道我忽略了你们。可是我真的不是故意的。因为netball是我最重要的一个东西。i noe u noe it too. and i also noe its out of anger u did tat. but i seriously didn mean it. i didn wan to say no to outings ur arrange went something regarding netball is happening. i noe ive hurt u all in many many ways. but pls forgive me and understand why i did tat. some is bcose i jus reali reali wanna forget the past. its always a hurdle i have in my life. bcose of my past many things change. but some is bcose of netball. which i noe ur can understand. and u even ask me something stupid jus bcose of netball. but if its reali impt, netball won mean anything to me at tat moment. i suppose its enough of my crap. anyway i noe nobody will be readin. and even if someone did, how much of a help culd the person even give? perhaps jus by mkin me not lonely anymore?

iveneverstophatingmyselfatall.iveonlifakemyselfatthemoment.

finally bought clothes! (:
8:29 PM

woke up early today. kinda early lahh. 1040 counted early for me alr. ahaha. then ate and use com for awhile. then went northpoint. ate lunch and bought dono wat com stuffs. saw m2 card but my ma donwan buy): save money myself perhaps? or wait for her to agree wen i can persuade her wif my reasons. HAHAH. im a reasonable person ok!

then bought 3 shirts. ahah. cant find any shorts so perhaps wait till nxt time wen im more free zai go further places buy lahh. and i also need save money buy slippers. ahha. 39.90 so my ma don allow again): sad lahh. the things i wan always so expensive de. tats why im always so broke. ahaha. but i noe wen to buy stuffs. not like my sis-.- shes much much older than me yet shes like dat. but anyway its understandable. hu wanna cme back to such a hme? hu wanna tolerate someone hu did something to u in tis way? someone hu spoilt ur childhood. but at least shes older, not as observant as i do. she have lesser pain than me. cose i overheard their conversation but not her. tats why i always hated myself for being tat observant. she can work but she donwan. i see most poly students work while studyin but i don see her doin tat. i onli noe shes out all day wif her bf-.- but one thing in common for us is; if its something we donwanna do, we will not do it no matter wat. or either if its smthing we wanna do, we will do it no matter wat.

after tat went home. wanted to go down cycle de but too lazy. and i donwanna strain my leg tat much. did a little of hmewrk then he came home and off my mood goes. he jus keep watchin his stupid kick off-.- later i reali kick him off then he noe.

laziness(:
Friday, September 14, 2007 9:12 PM

long time no blog huh. too lazy alr lahh. im even lazy to on the com again-.- but its a good sign for me to study more. ahaha. long long post, so bear wif it if u wanna read! (:

TUES
okk. wat did i do huh? yahh. so was sci. then english. then recess. then was history. as usual nobody was listenin. bsides we still continued eatin and doin our own stuffs. ahah. and loon shin is a lousy faker can. eat durin lesson kana caught then use fone during lesson also kana caught. lousy chairman lahh! ahaha. then was maths and then chinese. chinese wrote ying yong wen. wahh lao ehh. i write until i wanna slp can. everytime like dat de lohh. then after sch i cant rmb anything alr(:

WED
first period was lit. pathetic. hate it also. cose the tcher have alot of things to ask de. super irritatin. then VE. as normal, nobody listen to mrs chia. besides she wasn teachin VE but instead she taught us history-.- tats the reason we always used to complain to her. ahah. then chinese and then geo.

geo was super funny lahh. virtual tour to bukit timah nature reserve[?]. its super lame lahh! plus the birds chirping sounds, worst. and it irritates me more. and its like everytime after geo lesson is maths. ahaa. so we everytime try to chou he mr tan and ms lim together. ahaha. somemore we call ms lim mrs tan. HAHAHA.

then obviously was maths lahh. and then VE again. tis time tat stupid wong tcher came. so obviously not much ppl dare to mke noise lahh. but they let us do our work wat. so my hmewrk for tat day was all done(:

then almost all of the sec1s netballer stayed back to run 10rounds. leg wasn tat pain though. after running did our hmewrk at the netball area there. cose we didn noe where we shld head to. ahha. then ard 5? went home i tink. ahaha.

THURS
chinese then maths then english then recess. then was d&t. big round tan nv come. ahaha. im givin weird nicks to tchers. HAHAH. then the whole lesson mrs koh goes 'get it?get it?understand?' wahh lao. many of us cant tahan her 'get it?get it?' somemore its DOUBLE time lahh! she tink she baby arhh? tok double words-.- though shes nice lahh. but her 'get it' will mke ppl go crazy. almost slept. but bcose its exam topic i mian qiang give her abit face. HAHAHA.

then was sci. everybody high tight. ahha. alot all go toilet wif jus two miserable pass can. and on the way there we saw ms low. ahha. and she ask us where we goin? we all shouted TOILET! ahaha. then whole class very noisy. ahha. but obviously ms low don mind. and she can control us de.

then after sch went amk lib. its like 1 went we dismiss. then walk to hub buy stuffs and off to amk lib. the amk lib change liao. last time not much tables now alot le. then got one pathetic uncle sittin alone readin books on animals i tink. then i was like 'ehh, jackie, wanna share table wif him mahh?' then she say 'ok lohh. but u ask arhh!' then we walk ard the wall at the table there then i decided to ask. ahah. cose we didn reali dare and didn noe how to start sayin. ahhaa. then ard 2++ we started studyin. or perhaps i shld say started doin hmewrk lahh.

then ard 6++ left. and bfore we left we saw some seniors lahh. and jackie wanna find her sakura books-.- so i helped her. many of them dono how to search for the book after finding the code frm the com lahh! perhaps im very familar for borrowing bks le. ahaha. im so guai huh? after i helped her find then went home le.

TODAY
first period was PE. played AWHILE of bball. cose didn reali felt like playin at the moment lahh. jus felt like slpin tats all. then played badminton. cose i feel like playin. ahaha. but the wind kinda very strong so its quite hard lahh. but dono why i play awhile onli alr perspiring like water tap again. onli tat tis time water tap spoil. ahah. so not much water cme out. HAHAHA.

then was history. as usual nobody listen. and i was like using my fone instead lahh. then was recess. went down to eat bread. ahah. amazing, like finally i ate smthing during recess(:

then was boring maths and then english. WORST can. i seriously gona read the passage until slp lahh. then almost fall asleep tat time nair suddenly call me ans ques-.- mke until i blur blur de say wrong ans until ppl tell me the ans lahh-.- stupid nair. boring like hell. two periods somemore. then everytime give alot of ws le then nv go through-.-

then after sch ate and off to tpy lib. there not much tables lahh. ask them go amk de they donwan. then end up sittin on the floor lahh. but i still managed to finish my hmewrk lahh. then went hub. they go buy things so jus follow. then after tat went home. ahah. so early rite? fridays yet so early. amamzing lahh.

then reached hme since its so early so i decided to go run(: aahaha. ran 2.8 in 20min-.- its super slow i noe. try to improve perhaps. then walk 1 round. last two rounds of runnin was a torture to me): not bcose no stamina or wat. its bcose both my knees are hurtin like i dono wat. plus my rubbish ankle-.- suddenly pain for i dono wat reason. beta not be fa yan again. i had enough of pains can.

but i didn wan to stop. cose its a target i set. though i didn set timings. ahah. if i cant reach tis small little target of mine, i can don tink of settin more bigger kinda targets alr. and tis time im reali determined ok!

after runnin went home. bathe then ate and used com. so tats my day lahh! ahhaa. tmr my ma say wanna go shoppin. HAHAH. cose i seriously in need of buyin many many things lahh. instead of studyin mode, im in the more-of-playin mode. ahaha. but anyway will be back early i tink. cose they sure go play mahjong de. then cme back alone or either wif my sis. provided tat shes not goin to church lahh. then have to at least study abit. ahaha. im so guai(:

ihopeitwonfailonmeagain.

are we fated? HAHAHAA(:
Monday, September 10, 2007 8:37 PM

today lessons were ok lahh. mke me rush my science end up don need hand up until end of tis week-.-

then was eng. tcher sot again. ask us to bring our eng stuffs up to lab wenever we are goin lab. then its gona be like a whole stack lahh! which idiot will do tat man?! then ask us wen is our sci lessons which we are goin to lab. no one wanna ans. so i jus replied her loudly in a bu shuang way.

then recess. crazy stuffs always go on during recess. and if u happen to be in our class u sure will go deaf soon. HAHA. then was boring chinese. manage to read finish my bk and did a little of the chinese holiday hmewrk. ahah.

then iap. boring shit lahh. mr poon was like practically keep standin at our table there. wahh lao. super irritatin. ahaha. didn wanna do the cuttin at all pls. then drama. worst lahh. act act act. sian diao can. somemore some stupid couple play-.-

after tat went opp sch to eat? buy bubble tea hai cha bu duo. then buyin tat time i always look ard de lahh. then i dono wat mkes me look ard at tat time and guess hu i saw? HAHAHA. i saw the back of weizhen! then i was askin caroline and jackie and winny ' is tat weizhen?' then caroline ans 'ermm, shld be bahh.' then jackie ans ' where?! where?!' then i show her and she say 'erm, dono lehh, look like.' then winny say it shld be and ask me to chase after her. and so i jus went. ahha. then i ask jackie shout her name and see if she turn back to reply. but jackie donwan. so i shouted lohh. and amazingly, she turn back! HAHAHA. and supposingly she saw us bfore we even saw her lahh! so evil, donwan call us. i dono wat mkes me turn back either. perhaps its bcose she walk too loud. ahaha. and her hair always tie the same pattern de. ahaha. perhaps its fate. you yuan wu fen. HAHAHHA. second time seeing her ard there liao. she so good huh, no sch.

then went amk hub wif jackie to meet my ma. halfway she went wif her frens and i went to meet my ma. pathetic can. she reach bfore me yet i reach bfore her-.- i don tink anybody understands lahh. and i hate tat singtel shop lahh! everytime got vibration de.

then went to buy my ear piece. like finally can! cose i got du lan wif my ma and told her its two different thing of whether to buy clothes or ear piece lahh! but im resonable de lohh. my clothes and stuffs are like old like hell pls. holes here and there-.- shoe spoil until dono like wat also nv buy. im alr helpin them save money like dono wat alr lahh. yet she still wanna cme jiang dao li wif me. see she win or i win lahh! HAHAHA.

then went hme. and i went to yishun lib myself bcose of my damn sis. another unresonable pig! i hate unresonable ppl pls. shes like goin hme yet she donwan to go lib to borrow her own bk and ask me to borrow jus bcose im goin to lib to return my bk. i don mind helpin her borrow. but she don even tell me the author and the tittle is like half half de?! so stupid can. waste my time in the lib. i tink if nxt time i du lan wif my parents i can go the lib myself. cose i jus realised the lib not bad lookin huh. in good condition rather than like the past yishun lib.

then borrowed 3 thick bks and went hme. im like holdin 3bks and a file in my hand can. trainin my hand muscle again-.- and now i noe why my wrist hurt alot very often liao.

then ate stuffs and went down to run(: ran 2.1 and walked 300m. ahaha. felt more refreshin lahh. nxt time i should do tat more often. i was practically perspiring like a water tap again(:

then came hme did a bit of chinese and off to use the com. aahaha. back to slackin period. still nobody told us abt hu is goin for perth trip lahh. everytime drag drag drag. then mke until we like so xing ji like dat. ahha. cose we nv been to such trips?

schs startin again-.-
Sunday, September 09, 2007 9:40 PM

goooshhh. sch's startin alr. sian lahh. i rather have those holidays which aren holidays kinda week. i stil wan trgs man. sad lahh. jus hope i won be lazy lahh. or nth will even work out for me.

today woke up ard 11. then ate and did my science. finished alr. left some ques tmr copy can le. then did geo. left one ques tmr do. ahah. so meanin tmr reached sch have to copy sci paper, sci theory, iap journal, chinese and perhaps art? my hmewrk seems finished but not reali finished. weird huh.

then after eatin lunch ard 2+ read my bk till abt 3+ and went to slp. ahaha. jus culdn help it but to slp went im at hme all day lahh. woke up ard 7+ continue readin my bk to ard 9 and ate my dinner. my timings are always off went im at hme all day.

ive been eatin alot these few days lahh. then tmr after sch need go amk hub mke my fone. hopefully tis time my ma mean it. not i don care if the bill is gona bao or smth. cose is u donwan shun my timing de. after tat most likely will rush hme to do hmewrk if theres any. then perhaps go run or smth? ohh, and most imptly mke notes for geo bfore no time again-.-

i still cant seem to forget the past.
i still cant seem to be determined enough.
i still dono wat i reali wan):
cant i stop being like dat?
istillhatemyselfalot.

today was fun?
Saturday, September 08, 2007 7:56 PM

woke up at 10 then attitude my ma to help me mke breakfast. ahaha. see how attitude i can give. then i did my hmewrk. ahah. rush rush rush! and finally did finish almost the science theory and exam paper. theory gona copy the rest which i dono. then science left sectionC tmr shld be can finish bahh. maths wait till im more free. journal go sch copy. art don feel like bothering. geo wait till mon? so perhaps im kinda finish wif everything alr. ahaha. see how slack im gettin.

then meet jackie ard 1150 and off to tpsh. quite alot ppl there liao lohh. then watched the sri lanka against northern ireland. and as i wanted to northern ireland won! ahaha. i don like sri lanka the GS-.-

then was singapore against long named country. as i expected, singapore won! aahaa. some of them almost couldn cope wif the contacts by the long named lahh. but if its me, i long ago buay tahan alr lahh. but overall, everyone played their best(: and supposingly i learnt many things from the matches alr. ahaha. and now, im jus determined to improve my stamina and netball skills. hopefully i can grow taller too! ahaha. and hopefully wen i grow older i can be in the national team! HAHAHA. dream on lahh me-.-

after all the matches went home. ahaha. and guess wat. me and jackie took the same mrt as chen huiyan! ahaha. me and jackie was tinkin tat we will see chen huiyan and we reali saw her. ahah. and jackie wanted to get closer so end up in same cabin as her. ahah. last time after nsl i also took same mrt wif her. and jus nice same cabin. and also saw her wif her boyfriend-.- and jackie was like practically staring at chen huiyan. ahah. and i tink she can somehow guess hu we are le bahh. ahah.

came home as expected nobody(: its like dat. somehow perhaps im alr tryin to get used to wat i have now. empty doesn matter to me anymore. all i was is jus to be an outstanding netballer(: and wendy tan is hu i aspire to be like in the future! AHAHAH. i don wan to give up like how i did in the past anymore. if they culd do it why culdn i? and mayb studies is kinda important after knowing so much more abt the national team.

guess im reali gona work hard now. after netball stuffs have all ended. no more CCAs and stuffs anymore. gona work hard on my studies and stamina(: hopefully i won be havin any remedial to use up my precious time. HAHAHA. im gona be determined tis time(: no more givin up. others culd do it so i culd do it also!

im startin to regret more and more):
Friday, September 07, 2007 11:07 PM

haven been bloggin cose didn have the time and was too lazy plus tired. haizzzzz.

WED
mornin went to sch for stupid maths extra lessons. stupid de lahh. i did finish my science ws during his lessons lahh. see! im so mkin use of all my time! ahahah. cose im in need of more time lahh.

after tat went home. then ard 5 like dat go meet jackie. then went tpsh. today no singapore but jackie wanted to go see how they played so i jus followed her then. anyway i can learn too.

and obviously i brought my hmewrk along. aahha. im so so so in need of time. then ppl say i hardworkin but i say cose im in need of time and they gave me tat expression. HAHAHA

THURS
woke up at 750am today. my ma was pratically askin me to wake up at 7 but i didn wanted to and shouted at her to shut up bcose i on my alarm alr. and she cursed me tat i'll be late for trg. and eventually im late. cose i missed two buses-.-

damn lahh. i reached abt like 9.10? so im late for trg liao lahh. ahha. i realised tat all my coaches have one thing in similar. they like to either call me miss rochelle or rochelle xiao jie-.- cose im either late or blur dao dono they called me. ahaha.

trg was alright lahh. besides tat it rain then stopped then the sun bright and sunny like dono wat can! super warm lahh. i cant rmb wat we did alr xD

after trg went home then ard 5 meet jackie. and off to tpsh again. to watch exciting matches. aahha. the game singapore played wif long named country was super duper nice! ahha. but i cant rmb wat happened either. hehehee.

TODAY
woke up at 7.25am. ahaha. ive learnt my lesson. so i reached kinda early lahh. then ran 8rounds. i hate my knees. they jus wuldn cooperate at all. my stamina went down again): sad case for me. stamina alr like saii still go down even worst siia. so im kinda determined to train my stamina went theres no trg. hopefully im not tat lazy lahh.

then did pair ball. kana scolded again. cose haven wear my knee guard yet. alamak can. cant i like wear later. everytime aim me de. yahh, but i noe she care for me lahh.

then did the runnin pair ball thingy. then was team ball. many times i was to jump kinda high. then some balls caught some not lahh. and she was like..... i dono how to say. but still, thankyou though. i like jumping u see.

then we had game against ourselves. HAHAH. played C of course. the sun was bloody hot lahh. then perspire super alot today. and someone said im like a water tap-.- and i replied'yahh, dirty water' and we are suppose to get used to the weather sooner or later de.

then shooters had to shoot. if nv enter then others have to run. and my partner was the noisy huimin. ahha. she entertained me for the run. ahaha. and im like almost the onli one clappin for the shooters like a retard pls. ahha. since i don like to shout tats my onli way to express my encouragement(:

then cose very long nv help keep stuffs so helped keep the pole today. i bring it myself all the way to the stairs then huimin help me bring up. ahha. then halfway keep got on BIG grasshopper jumped onto simone shirt lahh. and all screamed and ran off, leaving the pole to me-.- the worst is they jus let go of the pole wifout sayin anything. then end up i keep the pole myself. and obviously after keep i straight away run all the way back! HAHAHA. i actually thot it was a bird then i stared at it and realised wat it was then ran off. ahhaha.

then jus went off wifout keepin the first aid box. obviously i noe ppl will call us[me and jackie] de. i wanted to keep it but jackie say ms lee will cme so i didnt bothered. stupid lahh. i seriously dono why we are a team yet we always like to push everything to each other. like, everybody have to play their part right? i don mind keepin more stuffs or watever. bcose im always restin and i do feel guilty abt it. and its not wat i want either. i don mind lettin ur being me to feel how its actually like to be like dat.

then went home ard 5 meet jackie again. watched the first match. then the match singapore against sri lanka. some retarded bangala shouted like some idiots. or i should say they are some idiots hu shouted like some asses. ahaha. and of course i shouted shut up and some others shhhh them and jackie OBVIOUSLY said worst stuffs. ahah.

of course singapore mus win lahh. the onli bad thing singapore cant REALI beat them in order to win easier is the GS height. BUT, singapore got a tall and can jump very high de GD/GK! so they kinda overcome tat and won lahh! ahahha.

singapore is a VERY STRONG team. they noe how to work on the opponent weak point to win the game MORE easily. like the game wif long named country. as long as they have lesser mistakes then them and don squeeze their way through, they are bound to win. cose long named is too rough. they contact ALOT. and the team have very good teamwork and bonding? do u call tat bonding? not sure lahh. i dono how to say. as long as u have those teamwork and bonding the team is sure to go to a higher lvl. the best is everybody aren a hypocrite(:

then went home. my hmewrk haven finish yet lahh! and ive no mood and time to do man. but im actually more or less left wif science. others heck care. ahha.

holiday aren like holiday at all! tis my first time havin such busy holiday lahh. earliest time i woke up was 5AM and latest was 7.50AM-.- like wth. my holiday have nv been like dat bfore. normally my holiday earliest time is like 12? ahhaha.

im wondering how cme ive bcme like tis. i didn want all tis to happen at all. im startin to regret alot. ive no right to say all those at all. anyway, wat i always wanted to say will nv be spoken anyway. ive always been at fault at many things. i don mind either. bcose ive always tink tat there WILL be someone hu understands wat i do someday(:

today super tired siia!
Tuesday, September 04, 2007 11:19 PM

woke up at 5AM today-.- its like much much earlier than sch hours lahh! stupid man. and cose i didn wanna eat my breakfast i was super duper uper early today(: HAHAHAH. i reached the sch bus stop at ard 6AM u noe! then i wasted 11mins walkin from the bus stop to sch and back to bus stop. ahaha. cose the stupid gate not open-.-

then waited for everybody to cme and off we go to knc. played against many sch today. knee wasn hurtin tat bad today lahh. heng man. but the games wif tougher sch was more pain lahh. cose need run alot. plus i no stamina de): today first time play WA in sec sch lehh. ahah. super weird, cose i kept wanting to run 3/3 then is onli 2/3 of court only. then first game wasn tired cose i ran the correct places. instead of goin crazy and runnin all over the court. but got some super tired. cose not much ppl helpin out):

after all games went back. then mrs ong tok to us abt the perth trip and stuffs lahh. hopefully i can go(: after the tok me and jackie went hub buy food then went home.

at home is wen the pain starts-.- my knee was super duper uper pain. i dono why. perhaps played too much today. then even wen i sittin down also got the bone crackin sound lahh! i was like 'omg, is my bone breakin?' HAHAH.

ard 4+ left home and meet jackie to go tpsh together. and i tink today is my early day lahh. ahha. im early for all meetings.

then watched the canada vs long named country played. my prediction was long named country win. and obviously they won. ahah. they can jump super high. then was the sg vs northern dono wat. and of course, SINGAPORE won! ahaha. we don like sg C lahh. and funny stuffs happened lahh.

then after the game went home. supposingly liko wanted to go hme wif us. but bcose we are takin bus wif clarissa so never take mrt wif her. sry arhh. mke u take alone. but we take bus is also to pei clarissa de. see! me and jackie is so nice! HAHAHA. anyway i suppose she can take wif jasmine wat. tmr jiu can take mrt liao. cose onli me and jackie goin.

hopefully i can finish my hmewrk in time lahh! plus catch up on my slpin time!!! i beta go slp now bfore im late again tmr. can i not go also? ahaha.

busy week lahh.
Monday, September 03, 2007 11:18 PM

supposingly im gona post a short one today cose my sis is rushin me to use the com-.-

almost late for class today lahh. but cose the stupid tcher dono die go where so nv late. lucky my father fetch me siia. not die die. not matter how late the tcher came i'll still be later man! then sci is plain boring. suddenly miss ms chen lehh. shes leaving today. sad lahh.

then after tat wen home. used com and off to meet jackie then clarissa. watch the sg vs canada match. interestin huh. the defender all damn cool lahh. the bside me got one uncle. i tink is huiyan and huifen father lahh. plus the mother bhind-.- wahhlao lehh he. tink he in gambling den arhh? shout those hokkien gambling kinda words. no wonder huiyan nv reali tok to him lahh. he say wat li ling leg long so keep fallin down-.- and wendy tan was takin video. ahah. and jackie ong went crazy over wendy tan jus so near to us. ahah. though i very chong bai wendy tan but im not like jackie. ahha. anyway sg won(:

then watch the long named country vs sri lanka. long named country won(: HAHHA. wat a name lahh. the long named country they can jump SUPER DUPER HIGH lahh. EVEN MORE COOL MAN! ahaha. and sri lanka GS was super duper tall. but attitude super idiotic. ahah. she purposely push the GK jus bcose she was defendin tight on her. and instead of being angry, the GK laughed at wat GS did-.- one word for GS; CHILDISH(:

then went home. and tats all. tmr have to like wake up at 5-.- wahhlao. my mother scold me for goin to sch so early in the mornin-.- dumb can. i beta not be late tmr. hopefully i can wake up lahh. so im gona slp now(:

i don feel like goin to sch lahh!
Sunday, September 02, 2007 10:41 PM

suddenly i jus don feel like goin to sch at all lahh. and i JUS realised i have so much hmewrks? bcose winny ask me abt sci ws then made me flip through my file and found out tat i actually DO have hmewrk-.-

but luckily theres onli;

#1 iap art [which i don intend to do until i have the time.]
#2 chinese ws [see alr can faint!]
#3 geography [wen i have the time?]

theres still sci ws. which nobody seem to noe wen is it due. supposingly i'll do tmr in the bus.

im jus waitin for tues carnival and trgs. but tinkin of needed to go sch early in the mornin, 'gosshhh, im so dead. hopefully i won be late xD' seriously, i donwan to mke ppl wait for me like how i made my frens to wait for me wenever i go out wif them. ahah.

tinkin abt 5nations i wanna kill myself liao. tinkin abt my not social-able character jiu sian diao. lazy ask ppl. ahhh, my character like dat is all bcose of my past. seriously, im feelin very dreadful of many things.
#1 don feel like wakin up early in the morinin.
#2 donwan see lit tcher face. [i always forget the name wen im suppose to greet them! xD]
#3 don feel like studying
#4 don feel like takin bus myself
#5 don feel like havin sci
#6 don feel like goin to sch
still got alot lahh. plus i seem like goin to sick again liao. even more sian.

i tink i shld go slp now bfore im late for tmr or even slp in class-.- btw, if anybody goin 5nations wifout anybody wanna go wif them tell me. if i not online sms will be faster(: ahha. i seem so despo lahh! and i doubt so theres anybody lahh, sad case): I WAN GO 5NATIONS LAHH~

how can hypocrites mke up a team?
7:04 PM

goossshh, smtimes i wonder how can hypocrites mkes up a real good team? perhaps they are jus hypocrites infront of coaches or mayb tchers? jus to mke them happy. but i bet they aren tat stupid either rite? its easy to see anyway. but i do wonder, is interhse tat impt? y mus ppl see it so seriously? things tat they shld see it imptly they don. things tat aren impt they see it so imptly. theres many weird ppl out there huh? i've got over the interhse thingy after i left amkss on tat day lahh. its like many teams there are our teammates. though i do dislike some of them. but yahh, ppl are like dat. they have their own character. mine aren as good as those whom i dislike either. and wats the point of mkin the whole team not like a team anyway? but i noe its alr impossible for tis team to be a nice and wifout conflicts team anymore. i jus hope i won be part of mkin the conflicts out huh. perhaps jus shut up might help(:

ytd nitex i was bored and didn felt like slpin at all. every saturday nitex is like dat. bcose i dislike slpin early. wait till dec holiday and i can go back to slpin late. ahha. then i went blog hopping. and realised tat there are still many rochelle-s in the world. HAHAA.

today was jus simply bored lahh. i have nth to do. no motivation to study or do hmewrk or anything lahh. so jus used to com to play games the whole day. boring~

holiday goin to be very busy. perhaps in the mornin onli huh. cose i have no idea if im goin for 5nations-.- nobody to go wif. sad case lehh me. cousin goin wif sch. pri sch netball de some go wif sch some dono die go where or either cant go out late or either not interested-.- then sec sch de some don allow some not interested. wtf. ask hu? ghost arhh? wahh lao ehh. everytime like dat de lohh. damn lahh. perhaps i shld jus study.

whole week go back sch. wtf. no rest man.
MON; lit and sci extra lessons until 12. afternoon go meet my ma go hub mke my fone. then perhaps if theres someone to go wif me to 5nations, u will see me there the whole week(:
TUES; netball carnival need report to sch at 6.45AM-.- 5nations?
WED; maths extra lessons. mayb goin out mayb 5nations?
THURS; trg until dono wat time. 5nations?
FRI; trg until dono wat time again. 5nations?
SAT; 5nations?

do ur realised tat i didn mention hmewrk at all? HAHAH. cose during extra lessons i may be doin hmewrk. cose at hme i everytime no motivation. anyway i don rmb havin any hmewrks lehh. ahah. hopefully theres someone to go wif me to 5nations lahh): if not i' ll be spendin my time at home-.- or mayb i'll go cycling all ard yishun. HAHAHA.

today was kinda boring lahh.
Saturday, September 01, 2007 11:18 PM

today was kinda boring. kinda slept throughout the afternoon lahh. wake up ard 10.50am then ate and went back to slp at ard 12pm? then woke up again at 3pm. ahah. i still feel very slpy lahh. wondering wat have i been doin?

then ard 7+ went out to my uncle hse to celebrate my grandma 82birthday(: its a mus for everybody to go. so i don mind not goin out today. but yeahh, i noe it will be boring. cose there de ppl either very old[those adults] or very young[ toddlers or age like my sis]. theres onli like one in sec sch other then me? tats why i always don like to go for those things.

went there ate and read my book-.- and i heard smth very funny wen we are all takin photos lahh. my uncle said ' hen xiang lao ren yuan lehh' then my aunts all started laughin. then one said' ni men shi lao ren and ahma is the bu zhang' HAHAHA. but the conversation is in teo chui[?] lahh. its super funny lahh[if u are there]. the whole function room was noisy like hell pls.

today nv see the 32years old jiejie. ahah. we call her tat bcose she look VERY young plus shes not tall(: but her husband is very shuai and she doesn noe how to listen to teo chui. ahah. shes worst than me. even the easy words she don understand. ahah. but shes very nice. in the sense of character lahh. then ard 10++ went hme le.

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