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“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” Swami Vivekananda
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” Steve Jobs
“The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is.” Winston Churchill
If it's meant to be, it will be.
Tuesday, November 25, 2014 2:27 AM

It's been long. And im back to this phrase - if it's meant to be, it will be. Besides, I did tried my best. Thats enough for me. I dono if u did, but I believed u did. I know I didnt trust u enough, in fact, I dont even know who I trust enough. I guess that day might probably just never come. I'm meant to be left alone. That.....i guess will come to light some day. When im old and dying hahahaha.

I supposed u'll never see this. But its fine. Thats the whole purpose again I guess. 9 years ago and currently, nth changed. Neither would i, I guess? Even the way I handle things are pretty much the same. I respect the decisions ppl made for me. Even if that may not have been the best decision for me. But since the person claimed that it is, so be it. I'll live with it and move on. Like always, cause the person making the decision will also be in pain. The one making the decision will always be the one to be in more pain than the person receiving it. Just that sadly the person receiving it isnt like the others.

Requiring more time than others, being more sensitive than others, perhaps isnt that much of a good thing afterall. I think u never had the patience to really read finish everything I typed and really put urself in my shoes to understand it before right? I guess nobody did. Since sometimes I am really long winded HAHAHAHA. Perhaps I shld be some sort of author HAHAHAHA But then my languages sucks :/

Humans tend to have 'cravings' for something once they tried it and fall in love with it. Just like food. Its a norm. I guess thats really true. Seems like im human afterall. I always thought I was different. Then again, the more its impossible, the more I'll do it. Just like how its not possible for me to even make it this long as a netballer. Remembering how much pain and torture I had to go through to be JUST this far. No one will feel it, unless u're as sickly as me. Unless ur passion is as much as mine and u're as physically weak as me. This time round, I'll do it again. I will and I can. I know this time it'll be double the effort, cause its a two person thing. And this time round, nobody is going to make the decision for me. I'll do it myself even if it means more pain.

I know u dont liked to be forced. But I hope u like to prove ppl wrong too. This is just the start of whatever that ended.

Cherish the things you have and stop dwelling on the things you've lost. Then, only you'll realised things aren't that bleak afterall.

You'll always be my friend. No matter what happened, this status, will never change.
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