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practically im lazy again to on the com whatmore type a post. kinda forgotten wat happened also lahh. perhaps i'll jus type part of wat i can rmb?

wat else can i say abt trg? perhaps mayb cheryl's lame game is back. HAHA. cose every game she said i can say bfore her and played bfore de. HAHA. and bad news is tat my lobs are gettin omg can. i even had to throw the ball until my shoulder ache man. okk, but its worth it lahh. cose i finally get it right. guess i finally understand part of why theres difference in my playin alr. as in pri sch i can grab hold of the ball very well. the ball goes smoothly wif my hand when i throw lahh. but nowadays its really very off. the direction is alr off lahh. and i realised im actually somehow scared of the ball ehh! its like so sudden lahh. mayb long time nv play wif the wall. HAHA. pri sch ppl will get it. time to train hard alr. another bad news is tat i dont tink weizhen will be coming down to train cdiv anymore bahh? sad case.

studies are still alright i suppose? only tat haven been scoring well these few tests. and good news is tat so far i didn really saw tat old hag wong. cose mornin assembly ends late and so i wont see her! everytime after chinese i tend to go back slower or mayb walk right off infront of her. AHHAHA. bitches are not meant to give way to(: i feel so evil man.

fri did the notice board. halfway everybody went to slack. aiya. normal for us siia! cose i went to slack too. we feel bad for tearing down those things seniors made lahh. but its seriously not our fault. so no matter how seniors wanna blame us, perhaps tat our luck bahh. so sometimes i do wonder how are we surviving nxt year? nono, not nxt year, but the days to come.

sat suppose to go sch help weizhen do dono wat lahh. she sms me the night bfore but i kinda not free lahh. cose nxt week alot test then got trg so will be too tired to learn de. so must learn bfore hand lohh. i feel bad for rejecting her. cose i kinda didn do much at home either. didn even touch the things im suppose to learn. cose of my stupid sis who spoilt my whole day plan. so i rather shes out whole day then home whole day. but afterall i'll still help weizhen if she need help other than askin me go back on weekends. HAHA. sorry lahh. tats how lazy i am lahh. unless im super free. which is very unlikely to happen lahh.

today i practically use the com since morning to do one english book review, chinese ICT lian pu and chinese ICT translation of learning journey hmewrk. like crap can. i type until my hand wanna die lahh. then wrist also so si behh pain can. but is worth it de. cose i finally finish everything at 7!-.- asshole lahh, mke me cant study anything again. i bet u ppl must be wondering how i spent my time at home huh? AHA. if u stay at my hse u'll understand(:

i feel as though im typing a letter lehh. like im tokin to someone like dat. but i noe the nobody will reply me. HAHAHA.

i want to help you.
but somehow,
i just don't have the courage
and too tired to help anymore.
i'm just to scared someone might get hurt again.
i swear it's not easy being me.

i shall tok abt ytd first. ALOT things happened siia!


MONDAY
AHHAHA. happy birthday to myself first man! tis time kinda sadden by the ones hu i expected them to rmb but didn de. fan er shi na xie mei you expect hui rmb de rmb. but tats not the most impt thing though.

im not gona tok abt lessons lahh. so super boring de. actually my mood was very good de lohh. THEN, until after sch the few in old hag wong chi class de got called to do things. its bcose of wat happened in the morning then tat stupid old hag wanna punish them.

so i was actually quite pek cek to noe she was actually punishing them in a way lahh. even qinyu was DAMN angry. until she scolded fuck siia! she dont normally scold ANY bad words lohh. then old hag was sayin we standing ard giving qinyu pressure. then i was ONLY PURELY askin why cant she ask someone.

[conversation ALL in chinese]
then she goes: u not my student u got no rights to talk back to me.
then i listen alr MORE buay song. and said: she later got trg need go eat now lahh!
then she said: ur dono how to go first arhh?
me: eat liao need time to digest.[i said digest in english then SCARED she dont understand so translate to chinese] so why cant u ask somebody else instead?
then she started all her nonsense AGAIN. so i just talk back to watever crap she said lahh. then winny was standing at the back doin nth but some sign languages.

she turned back and started saying winny lahh! like she didn even do anything siia! damn her. so i got more BUAY SONG. cose i TOTALLY HATE it wen some assing unreasonable tcher started scoldin my frens for no reason. so i said back: TATS WAT FRENS ARE FOR LAHH! and obviously she didn understand. so i didn bother to explain also.

then she tiam tiam alr. cose she lose to me. HAHAHA. then she also bu gan yuan lose to me so asked yao for my name and wana tok to me in 'private'. wats the diff man. she talks so loudly i rather stand further to tok to her. shout also can man! i dont like goin close to her. cose her face totally mke me wanna BOX her!

and she was like pi ping amkss until VERY LAN lohh. then say wat tis is a neighbourhood sch, even the principal is very LAN. then say the student until very mei you jiao yang. still say until 2/1 there lehh! say wat their class very noisy everytime tcher go in will complain. i was like' they noisy wat does it got to do wif me?' then keep askin some you de mei de. i dont even wanna reply her. then say wat i very proud. my face everytime very proud. then still ask me if i at home parents ask me do things i will say not free anot. then i said'yahh.' i was tinkin' for god's sake, at home i dont even bother to reply. i even talked back to my assing father. even though i noe anytime he will jus use the cane to cane me. and my face i ownself also noe is the BU SHUANG face and not proud face.' then i thot she tok finish so i jus walk away and she called me back sayin havin tok finish.

so she started AGAIN. then i REALLY REALLY VERY SUPER ULTRA BUAY SONG ALR. and said' you also like dat lahh. so dont tok so much' i was suprised i will tok to a tcher in tat manner ok! then she got even more buay song and started sayin amkss VERY LAN AGAIN and say her ACSI very good. i wanted to say ' if tat sch good then why did u transfer here? surely bcose u are as lousy as how tis sch WORST kid are.' but i noe i say liao surely go see principal so i jus continued STARING at her. then say wat my attitude blahh blahh blahh.

then after they finish we jus went off. im reali super ultra buay song wif her. now the vulgarities will start. SHES A DAMN ASSING TCHER I TELL U. HUEVER GOT TAUGHT BY HER WILL SURELY FAIL CHINESE LIKE CRAP ASSSSSS! SHE CANT TEACH FOR GOD'S SAKE. SHE SURELY IS KANA KICK OUT FROM ACSI LAHH! SHES A BLOODY CCB KNN KNS FUCKING OLD HAG HU WONT GET MARRIED FOREVER MAN! STUPID ASSING MANOPAUSE OLD HAG. DONT EVEN NEED TO GET MARRIED AS SHE WONT BE ABLE TO CHUAN ZHONG JIE DAI ALR LAHH! I SWEAR TO MYSELF IF SHE EVER DARE TO AGITATED ME AGAIN, WHETHER ANOT ITS INFRONT OF THE WHOLE CLASS OR ANY SHIT ASS PERSON IM NOT GONA GIVE HER AN EASY TIME. AND IM NOT GOIN TO GIVE HER ANY FACE. IM JUST GONA SHOOT HER RIGHT IN HER FACE. WHETHER OR NOT I GET EXPELLED ITS ALRIGHT. BECAUSE I WILL MKE HER FOREVER CANT BE A TCHER. I DEFINITELY MEAN WAT I SAID. I HAD ENOUGH OF HER.

she totally ruined my mood for the day alr. lucky later on was netball. we went to watch the vb game instead. HAHA. and the five of us got fetched back to sch and the others had to take public bus back! HAHA. kk, no offence. then trg. bcose my bd i dont need do punishments. AHHA. lucky me. if not i die die alr. so trg overall was alright.

then went home and told my ma ' wo you gen lao shi chao jia le' she asked how come? cose last time pri sch i dont do tat. no tcher called my parents bfore, nv meet my parents bfore and ALL tchers compliment me instead of sayin of my attitude. not tryin to boast but tryin to prove to tat old hag. so i told the whole process to my ma and she said nvm. and tat tcher shouldn be a tcher. then i told her i wont give the tcher an easy time and my ma and sis say bu zhi de wei le na zhong ren bei suspended. quite true. but still i wont give her an easy time.

everytime i start tinkin of wat happened i feel like boxing punching kicking slapping PHYSICAL HURTING her!


TODAY
morning was alright until tat old damn it hag ask me go interact wif her AGAIN. jus bcose of wat happened ytd. so recess time wen to find her wif crs and jas. then cose recess ended so the both was asked to go back and she said wanna tok to me today. so i listened wif the bu shuang face again lahh. then she asked me zhi cuo le mei you. i didn even bother to reply her. cose the ans was obviously on my face and she got it. AHHAHA.

then she said one day i will understand and my attitude could be changed. i i was tinkin' please lahh, wan changed i will also change the attitude towards other tcher also dont wan changed towards u.' and i huh-ed her many times as my deaf-ness came back again. AHAHA. then she was sayin 'wo zhi dao wo lian ye bu hao kan. ke shi ren jia yi jie chu wo ta men jiu hui zhi dao wo de ren ge le' then i was tinkin ' same here old auntie' then she started asking got ppl say me proud again anot. lame pok lehh she. then she still say until yeevon arhh! say her attitude also not very good. everytime talk back to tcher. then i said ' ta ye shi yi yang, ni gen ta jie chu jiu hui dong ta de ge xing le' then she keep sayin no no no. say wat i very rude, nv greet tcher. please lohh, im always the one greetin tcher first then others greet de lohh. she dont even noe ANY of our character and she wanna come act big and scold us. wait long man!

then in class need collect things and she asked someone else. cose i talk back to her ytd and she changed today! HAHA. meanin she noes shes in the wrong yet she still dare come kpkb. then she ask qinyu dont need help her nxt time alr. ahaha. qinyu was like so happy. like of course, hu the fuck wanna help her. then she was alr tryin to find faults in me and qinyu in order to scold us. but pls, im not her students plus im guai towards other tcher except for tat bitch lahh!

so after today lesson went watch movie. kung fu dunk. ok lahh. beta than cj7 lohh. only tat jay chou very act cute sehh. HAHAH. but overall its still ok de. after tat went home le.

reach home si bei du lan again. cose my damn sis took my fone away and until now shes not back yet she still dare to kup my fone. asshole!


OVERALL, TIS TWO DAYS ARE SOMEHOW RUINED BY TAT FUCKING ASSING BITCHY IDIOTIC KNN CCB KNS OLD HAG WONG. SHE SUCKS TO THE CORE!!! ASSING FUCKER. U BETA WATCH OUT.

SORRY FOR THE FULL OF VULGARITIES POST HUH!(:

urggghhh. i suddenly feel so damn it agitated. okk, forget it. no point sayin. after hearing wat she said i thot shes somehow like me. but hu noes shes like so damn it ass lahh. noe wonder shes like tat. i tried mkin her not feel lonely. but shes jus plain hopeless pls. dont like sacrificing yet wanna pretend can sacrifice-.- tats much worst than hypocrite lahh. dont anyhow tink after reading wat ive jus typed hor. i hate it when ppl jus anyhow jump in conclusions and i jus hate to explain. so dont try to come dig out anything from me.

somehow fridays seem to be real boring. cose theres no trg on fridays. then sec1s trg nth much to help though. and juniors all not nice to play wif de. i still prefer last time de juniors. though they're more irritatin and some quite assholes but they're beta. and wanna play also nobody play wif me. seriously i still wan my pri sch team back. haizzz.

then sat stayed at home study and watch tv. HAHA. nth much lahh.

then sunday woke up early morning to go for the 100days thingy lohh. suepr duper uber ALOT ppl siia! whole door overcrowding wif shoes then inside dont even have place to stand or sit liao lahh! so wait till abt 11+ then go burn the dono call wat de. so uber alot pigeons on the tree. and i spotted 3droppings. HAHAHA. my sis say i keep observing the birds. but i didn lahh. is jus nice i look in front then saw de mahh. then burn finish liao waited for long long time then can go. went tpy central to shop for phones. HAHA. my father got 100dollars vocher mahh. but i still didn get the phone i wanted lahh. and he said tats for my bday present-.- wtf, its not smth i wan can. i got nokia 6110 instead-.- crap ass.

so practically after walkin around the whole day i got so damn it fed up. cose they walked all over tpy central then somemore walked until so damn slow. drag here drag there. wait here wait there. somemore dono whether the phone for me or my father. damn assing lahh. so after buyin they walk theirs i walk mine. in a sense we walk the same route but i walk in front they behind. okk, not interested alr.

crap, these few days i jus feel so......wen my bday is reachin i feel more and more excited yet upset. excited bcose its my bday[no big though]. perhaps bcose waiting to see hu rmb? HAHA. nahh. i bet not much ppl. and surely the ones i wan them to rmb they wont. upset bcose it will nv be like the past. perhaps i'll nv have the taste of cake tis time round. its jus so diff alr. everything.


it's like a sudden lost of words.
when it's nearing, i suddenly feel so scared.
i told you i had a hard time changing too.
but i bet you won't believe me.
i want to help you but i'm scared you'll mistaken me and i'll hurt you instead.

okk, its a long time since i blog again. but im lazy to type so much. so i shall jus tok abt this two days?


WED
dono wat crap happen lahh. i felt like slpin the whole day ok! cose my stupid sis woke me up in the middle of the night so many times-.- damn ass can.

after sch was trg. ran 6rounds. my knee super pain i tell u. but i still try to run finish. i dono wat happen either. but i do feel real scare though. its not understandable tat easily by anyone. so forget it.

then pair ball? then i dono wat. cant rmb at all. only thing i can rmb is after trg my lower body was super duper uber pain. i totally had no strength no walk anymore. both my knees are hurtin like mad. i cant straighten it at all. but still i have to walk all the way to hub bcose of jackie ong-.-

sometimes, i dont even noe how to sit anymore. i cant bend for long time i cant straighten for long time. why dont i jus cut my legs of? tat will stop me from being an addict to netball. and let me totally give up.


THURS
had pe. got caught for slackin? HAHA. no big lahh. then was chinese. uhh, tats jus one boring subject. bcose of the tcher. she dont noe how to teach lahh. old antique man. now alr 21st century and chinese tcher should noe tat if use chinese translate to eng will be the best thing to help improve students chinese standard. and shes jus translating chinese to more chim chinese. wats the point? i rather study myself. more helpful. since i noe how to translate myself.

then was recess and then iap. boring shit again. now i seriously tink drama is beta alr. cose art totally sucks bcose of the tcher again. i seriously hate her face A WHOLE LOT. she jus mke me feel like rebelling. first time ever i have tat kinda feeling towards the tcher in jus the FIRST lesson u noe. cose i alr did kinda rebelled in the first lesson.

then after sch ate and did hmewrk while waitin for trg to start. finally the stupid designs finish. but i got the feelin it wont be accepted. HAHA. im prepared to redo. then trg start. warm up was the game. but i only walked up and down the court. HAHAH. not enthu enough wat can i do?

then some drills and team ball. then 1/3 court then centre pass. i seriously tink im starting to deprove till the standard tat im not even fit to be a netballer. i cant defend i cant attack. wats the prob wif me? i cant possibly find excuses everytime i dont perform up to standard be it trg or game.

then had a friendly wif seniors. lost obviously. but at least we managed to score 3? but we jus reali played badly lahh. and one thing. the seniors are VERY TALL. HAHA. my defending was like hell again. timings of jump all wrong. somemore everytime i jump the calf mucle pull until VERY tight then land down my knee felt as though it jus dislocate man! totally urgghhhhh lahh. i wanted to tell but its like. wats the use? she might jus tink im tired and want to rest. yahh, i am tired. but i tried. its jus so........

then goin to end SOON liao i no choice jus tell. cose my knee reali super pain. im jus reali scared i might jus spoil my cartilage or smth. i cant affort to spoil it. my ankles were super pain also. cose mayb land too hard. now it reali ankle pain and not sole there. wen i told her i jus hope i could jus faint and nv wake up.

then today i totally buay tahan alr. no more goin hub. my lower body is jus too pain to continue walkin. so jus went opp eat then homed. totally strength-less. hu want to change leg wif me? if its possible i will reali like to get tat done.


sometimes i really wish to stop.
but i know i won't allow that to happen.
but what can i still do?

so its been a long time since i blog lahh. so i'll kinda summarise the things tat happened.

TUES is normal sch day lahh. then after sch go for sec1 trg. it kinda remind me of pri sch went i first started netball though. but somehow i dont tink i was tat....last time. or mayb i should say, i have no idea how i was like went i first started netball lahh.

and jackie ong and jiamin was rushin their art? perhaps 2/2 alr considered lucky to have tat stupid lila and phua to be tcher liao lehh. cose heard tat ms tay anyhow give ppl demerit de siia. if i in her class i surely demerit dao siao! then jackie was hoping weizhen could be there to help her and here comes weizhen. HAHA. many times one of us[the team] tok abt her she will appear somehow somewhat. quite amazing arhh?

then its like suddenly weizhen high lehh. i mean as in....aiya, i dono how to say. perhaps only jackie understands wat im tokin abt. AHHAHA. mayb she misses her sec sch life alot bahh? or is tat she feel tat shes more herself being wif us? ahhaaa. tink too much le. but kinda i jus wanna mke her tok more and get high? HAHAA

then after their trg went home.


WED is the cny celebration lohh. its as boring as last year lahh. totally the same can-.- perhaps mayb the difference is only tat the band tis time round is much beta. last year dono wat crap songs they sang lahh. totally so.....sucky.


THURS is cny liao lohh. as i said, i cant celebrate lahh. so tis year cny totally not like cny. but i still go to my grands house lahh. its a form of respect? but tis year its much later. and guess wat. wen i was taking out my spec then wanna close it to put on the shelve, i broke it into two-.- how amazing right? aiya, anyway its long ago spoilt. and i told my ma its she mke spoil de and she'll jus push all the blame to me. ahhh, forget it. watever i said will be wrong in her mindset. so i didn bother to argue wif her. cose the spec was also paid by me. so not much of a diff. jus tat i wont be able to see anything for the next few days.

so went my father side grands hse first. no more grands there anyway. sad right? the ppl there are lesser also. no angbaos either. there the ppl give the most lahh! they aren VERY rich but they SURE are generous. then i kinda forget to take out the donation thingy until most of the ppl left. and obviously i got scolded by my parents again-.- always like dat. no big. then they jus gave me 5dollars at one go. but wrote in 2dollars column. my another aunt also like dat. if my other aunts are there, they're jus give me 10dollars and all write in 2dollars column de. cose i pri sch every year also have tat thingy.

then cose nth to do then my aunt treate me and my sis to movie, cj7. not bad lahh the show. after the show went to my another grands hse lahh. there all adults playin mahjong alr. cose the children all left liao. all abt me and my sis age de lahh. so obviously nobody will continue stayin there. i wanted to ask my cousin abt her zonals de lohh. but sad, she left alr. so abt 8 like dat i went home myself. cose obviously they will continue playin till quite late. then asked my ma follow me down. cose i cant see the bus number at all. or mayb i shld say i cant see the VEHICLE at all. only the lights-.- so reach home watch tv again lohh.


FRI my parents went my aunt hse play mahjong. there is super duper ultra boring so i didn bother to go. and guess wat. i stayed at home ALL DAY to watch tv. AHHAHA. amazing right? the tv didn burn or watsoever lahh. AHHA. i bet nobody can do tat. and i didn ate much either. and my 书派上用场了. HAHA. cose i knew i wont have anything much to do so i decided to borrow books to read instead. then can shun bian do the stupid book review.


SAT. okk, dont tok abt it. its more BORING. i stayed at home all day also. but tis time not watch tv. okk, perhaps somehow is wat tv lahh. but i didn my d&t too. HAHA. now still left the own design de. dono wat to do lehh.

so tis whole cny is super duper wuper uber ultra ultra ultra BORING lahh. its like worst than last year. cose last year cny falls on my bday and yet i cant celebrate my bday. my celebrate is kinda meaning celebrating wif frens. cose its much more like celebrating. cose wen wif family its jus the cake and eating. wat more wif the relationship of me and my family now is so....not the time to celebrate my bday tis year. and tis year angbao money is so damn it little. HAHA. put in bank also not as much money as i receive for education man. and i ask my ma abt buyin new water bottle liao lohh. but sad case, she dont allow. haiz, as wat i expect lahh. so i'll jus have to wait(:


somehow if someone ever get wat i wantedneed the most,
tat person is seriously the someone hu reali understood me.
as u can see, i always said i could read ppl's mind easily if i wanted to(:

sunday practically i jus learn my maths and dono do wat crap lahh. so tok abt today. much more fun and stupid. HAHAH

lessons were jus boring lahh. seems like the history lesson calling thingy starts again. cose today history i wanted to slp but the damn mr goh ask ppl to call me wake up-.- so i decided to play game instead. and mr goh keep mkin me die lahh! as in the game. cose he tok suddenly so loud then i xia dao then die-.- asshole man. then suddenly some idiots start calling me-.- playing halfway somemore. lucky nv die. not i'll kill them! AHHAHA. but mrs chia lessons are far more worst. the whole class like practically no tcher.

then others were jus boring lahh. then after sch changed and went to eat. then waited for long long time for the bus and tcher. not reali very long though. then went up the bus and wait for 1/2 ppl. then go liao we realised mrs ong nv go wif us. HAHA. noe wonder weizhen came lahh. but she come equals nv cme also lahh. cose shes super duper uber ultra quiet! we mke so much noise and she wont say anything lahh. AHHA.

so on the way there everybody got attacked by jackie ong and jaselyn ong. realised the two ongs and js? HAHA. only serena nv got attacked? so i suppose juniors must be thinkin tat they've got a bunch of crazy seniors lahh huh. HAHAA. and i mke jaselyn ong cry! HOHO. obviously its fake lahh. i play also got limit de k! ahhaaa. so overall the bus is jus super ultra noisy. those we didn cme seriously kinda miss out the fun. HAHA. and i tink if the seniors were on the bus the seniors should be more noisy than us bahh? ahhaaa.

then reach there watch the game. against SGS lahh. not SCGS. so i won the bet! HAHAHA. obviously seniors won lahh. so they got into round2. sad for us lahh. we were kinda super loud when the opponents was shooting. cose we want seniors to totally thrash SGS. HAHA. no offence lahh. but seniors were still great afterall. but they've got lousy juniors. HAHA

so after game went back sch. the others wanted to play volley. so the wei da rachel kan went to borrow frm mdm yau i tink? then they ended up playin in the foyer since the councillor room there got ppl playin alr. then jackie wanted to see if she can reach for the heritage gallery there de silver celling. and guess wat?! I CAN REACH ALR!!! ahahaaa. it gives me a sense of achievement. HAHA. cose im like so short from the stupid celling lahh. ive achieved wat i aimed for. now aiming for the one weizhen asked me to reach. but sadly jackie ong still cha yi dian dian. so shes aiming to reach there by the start of bdiv? tats wat she said.

then after jumping for quite awhile we went to find the others. then soon ms lee they all came back and asked us to go home cose its 6+. then obviously our team aren those guai kias so they continued. and so i continued watchin lahh. but soon clarissa and serena left then me and jackie also go le. then end up all go liao.

me and jackie went hub eat lahh. and guess wat happened? i almost got hoot! HAHA. cose we went to buy bbt lahh. then 3 girls came walking pass. and they look like netballers so i was curious which sch they came from. so tryin to see their sch logo or smth lahh. and they walked pass and said fuck to us. and jackie didn noe until i told her. so since they said fuck i started to STARE at them. and jackie look at them only lahh. so the first time i was only PURE curious. then the girl started telling her friends me and jackie was staring at them. then they stared back wif the bu shuang face. so i jus stared HARDER the third time. cose i was pek cek the girl scolded us fuck. then its like they thot i wanted to pick a fight or smth. then the 3 of them stared back. and cose i didn wanna pick a fight i pretend i didn saw them. AHAHA. then they jus walked off.

then after buyin finish our food jackie wanna buy bbt for her sis. so we went back there. and we saw them AGAIN. then they come say they from PIERCE NETBALL-.- me and jackie thot they were sayin WE were from pierce netball. then we go 'are they pajiao or smth?' and i kinda diao them lahh. not reali diao though. then one girl saw and said i diao them. then cose we pretend we didn hear or saw anything. then the other girl say we dont understand. then i was like' i tink u more dont understand pls' then they jus walked off since we didn bother abt them lahh. then we were also walkin bhind them. and we almost took the same bus at them-.- then i was telling jackie ' i tink if we took the same bus i dono wat will happen man.' HHAA.

i tink if i stared back somemore i seriously tink i will get hoot. AHHAHA. but i do wonder wat will happen. they die or i die first. AHHAA. and jackie was also sayin if amkss cdiv play wif pierce bdiv amkss cdiv will win. and i go 'WAHH~ so confidence worhh.' then we started being hyper abt the thot of playin wif their bdiv. HAHAH. so tats how AH LIANS started to fight wif others hu stare at them-.- how lame right? and if stares could kill, i dono ive killed how many thousands of ppl alr.

then after tat go home le. HAHA.

i dono why i suddenly had the sudden urge to blog abt netball yahh. about my netball life. so if u wanna read its up to u. cose a blog for me is jus for my reference to so called recall wat i ever did in life. since im always tat lazy to even go write in diary or watever for me to rmb things. wen u start readin until HERE is alr at ur own risk. AHHAHA. cose it somehow continues forever. so erm, choose a time wen ur're super bored to come read tis post. its nth much though. so all sorts of funny stupid crazy amazing sad unhappy and blahblahhblahh things happened to me for the past 4years.

after quitting gym and joined netball have been a real happy sad experience. cose of the number of ppl i knew and wat they've made an impact in my life. but mostly happy experience. cose of the nice trustworthy teammates i have. though sec sch ones aren TAT trustworthy and nice. no offence but ONLY SOME lahh. pri sch ones i have total confidence in them. wenever im on court wif them for a friendly or real match i'll always have the trust in them tat we'll do our best and win every game. even if we lost we'll still be as happy. cose i dono why, tats how my pri sch team is. no matter how much we've lost, we noe we did our best. and we also try ways to cheer our teammates. no one ever cried bcose we lost a game. but only cry wen we've won an impt game. and ive nv ever cried wen im wif them. they jus have the power to cheer me up.

but in sec sch. i dono why. those few times after we lost the impt matches ive cried. but i noe it myself tat i didn cried bcose we've lost. but bcose im reali disappointed and tink tat i reali did not do my best. even though i noe im sick. but no matter wat health im in i always tink tat its not an excuse to give myself. after the game wif cedar i still haven give up totally on the team and myself yet. but i admit, after the game wif rgs. a sudden thot came into me tat i should not have came tis sch. i tried all ways to have faith in my teammates and everything. im not tryin to say tat i play super ultra well those kind. but i noe it myself, bcose of the ppl which changed, my defending my emotions and everything changed too. i noe clearly tat my defending totally wen down. the hyperness i always have in pri sch trg and sec sch trg is totally diff alr. even though i kinda always dislike my pri sch coach and like my sec sch coach. but its totally diff. not tryin to say anything from all tis. but its jus....very hard to describe how i feel.

the hyperness i have in pri sch. its like reali hyper kind. until i believe nobody in sec sch actually will believe im like dat in pri sch. its like im super enthu for trgs and super bouncy wen come to defending. and my pri sch attackers all dont like me to defend them. and i goes out for all ball until i got scolded by coach cose shes tryin to explain things. HAHA. but now, i dont noe if its bcose of the number of injuries i have or wat. the hyperness is not there. im lazy once again on court. im tryin to get my foot moving alr. but its like im jus still 1 or 2 seconds slower. like, i suddenly feel im super ultra slow. i want my old self back. but its jus so hard at times.

i believe i can do beta than all tis now. i mean those defending and stuffs. ive been trg on defending for like 2years+ alr yet my standard is only like tat. i can actually do much beta wen im in p5 lahh. but i noe, im not tat cut out to be defender bcose im a short ass. but i jus hate it wen im needed to be an attacker. but wenever it comes to choose sch team i'll always get freak out bcose i noe i'll lose out in being defender and attacker. so i always hope i have a coach hu wont have biased thinkings. or could reali help me work out being an attacker. and i used to tink abt why coaches put me as the postition they ask me to play. but now im jus to tired to go tink of whys alr. cose its jus so hard to get the correct ans. as u can see, i play WD on court but i dont train to be WD. instead a C. cose wen its time for 1/3 court, im always the C! but if u ask me go defend in semi circle its also somthing stupid to do. cose im so short-.- and if im standing wif defender its like im the shortest pls. even juniors are taller than me. and if im playin as C during trg and WD on court, how can i be a good WD? and guess wat. i seldom do defending drills wen im actually playin as WD. how amazing can my netball life get to? not tryin to complain or wat lahh. but its serious. i reali reali reali wanna be a good WD and actually mke a difference in the team.

tokin abt amazing netball life. okk, i noe im starting to get random a little. cose its reali very amazing lahh. its like in the recent game i got called for obstructing 3 in a row. the person didn get to throw the ball at all. AHHAHA. and i got called until i almost got called out for tat centre pass. HAHAHA. how amazing can i get. and i rmb one stupid accident in perth. in one game 3person got called for obstructing. meanin all 3 out of play! and im 1 of them! HAHA. lucky i was playin WA if not one third inside only got 1 defender and 3 attackers. HAHAHA. and i rmb one game was my pri coach as umpire and my coach was sick so didn come. of course the umpire wasn our coach at tat time lahh. she blow me for every hands up i do. be it REAL obstruction or FAKE obstruction she jus blow me lahh! until i got fed up and stopped hands up and my tcher didn scold me! ahahaa. cose she noes im not in the wrong at all and i got blown-.- and once my captain accidentally hit her opponent's head while defending and her whole specs drop and broke into pieces. theres much much more incidents happened. if im gona list them out all of ur will read until die if u happen to even read until HERE. AHHAHA

even noe much more things happen in pri sch team then in sec sch team, im starting to so called like them more alr! HAHAHA. after so much thick and thin we've all been through together AS A TEAM. even though our team aren like the past anymore. but i believe tat every one of us want to win every single match we play too. and we'll still be good frens? i noe after so much trg we still didn get through the first round. im much more disppointed than all of ur i believe, but jus blamed it on our lack of luck. if we're in other grpin we could have gotten the first two easily. so we shouldn give up and start workin hard for a place in bdiv nxt year! HAHAA. im startin to tink far again. and its a good experience for all of ur hu wasn in netball and south zone last time isnt it? for me its actually very normal alr. only for the fact tat tis few times we've got thrashed very badly. and its my first time. other than tat its reali normal. all those familar faces and stuffs.

i jus want to buck up on my defending and stuffs and try my best to get into bdiv nxt year which i noe its gona be a very tough thing. cose im neither here nor there kinda person. and try to achieve something alr.

its been a long long time for u to read until here. HAHA. if it takes u a short while means u didn even read the top part. HAHAA. okk, crap. yahh, some of ur might tink im tryin to show off or mayb everything was crap. but i dont tink so. netball actually mkes up most of my life. everything tat ive done. all my memories and everything i wish to rmb. i reali reali miss my past a whole lot. esp my pri sch teammates, mrs dave, ms choo, the gang im always wif in p5and6 and some seniors and my crappy partner and some of 6d'06 ppl and some juniors. they are all reali nice ppl who could always cheer me up and pei me wenever i need someone. i'll nv forget them as they've made an impact in my mind.

after so much ive been through, esp those sad times where i reali wanted to give up and theres nobody there for me, i noe ive choose the correct cca. netball brings me happiness though sometimes its reali very sad. and though it brought me so many probs. I STILL LOVE NETBALL ALOT!(: i'll take everything it needs to continue netball. though i noe i always have those scary nightmares but its alright. though i'll always be very tired and always no time for others. but i noe those good frens are always my netball mates or either ppl from the same class. so i'll always have time for them plus my family dont need me. cose i noe tis aren family. its jus a house of humans.

okk, im tired to continue typing alr. so if u reali read until here, 3BIG CLAPS for urself! u've improve alot cose tis is a reali super ultra long post. and perhaps if u're smart and observant enough, u'll actually get to noe me more heh! wanna noe more[which i noe nobody wants to] wait till i have the urge to blog again. HAHA. cose i noe im gona get lazy again to even on the com(:

until HERE; 3BIGBIG CLAPS and A PAT ON UR BACK!(: im starting to get lame-.-

im jus too lazy to blog lahh. so it will always be a long post. wanna read up to u(:


WED
had those normal boring lessons lahh. nth special. jus tat wednesdays with so many periods of VE is stupid and boring. cose the stupid old hag wong is damn assing irritatin.

after sch had cip lahh. heng even numbers wif ms poon. at least shes much beta. and we've found out tat shes engaged. and gettin married soon. cose i saw her hand got ring then asked ppl to ask her but nobody wants to. so i asked instead. and she said shes engaged. HAHA.

cip also not bad lahh. we did two blocks in jus 1hour wif many many newspapers and stuffs. not bad ehh. so return sch quite early but ended up waitin a long time for jackie ong-.- then went home.


THURS
thursdays are always VERY relax but lessons after pe are always so crap-.- so pe played badminton as usual lahh. then chinese. its jus crap lahh. then recess and then iap. tats far more worst than crap. its jus stupid irritatingly boring lahh! drama was okok since we are not reali needed to act YET. then art was stupid. damn lila turn to tok. or so far shes the one been tokin since i didn attend art. noe how she called me? ro-chel. si beh nan ting can. i almost wanted to said 'ehh. damn u lahh. wat a name to call ppl. how many times mus i say my name is rochelle?' but in stead of sayin i jus stared at her.

then we were asked to do some drawings or watever crap lahh. my picture was a dono wat thing lahh. qi huan said it was lao po bing and waffle. but i only noe tats waffle but the circular thingy i dono wat is tat lahh. then stupid lila said it was bun and basket-.- and she re-drew my picture. since she drew it and i lazy to erase, i jus painted over wif some shit ass colours. HAHA. the whole picture was ruin. but anyway in the first place i didn wanted to draw so its long ago ruin. HAHAHA.

i played wif the paint and glue as usual. mix the glue paint brush wif the paint. she asked us to wash the brushes but i jus wash it wif dirty paint water and clean it wif her weird feeling cloth and put the brush back. HAHA. then quickly run down liao.

then reached class my bag was at jaselyn seat there. weird heh? cose we are seated at each end of the class. then went toilet find the others and heard frm clarissa weizhen not coming cose shes sick. i tink shes more sickly than me lahh. so changed and went to eat.

then i cant rmb wat happened and jus went up the bus wif mrs ong niia. game wif henderson won lahh. 36-9. played one quarter only. so others can play. but anyway i didn played well either. the seriousness is not there. HAHA. cose the first word i heard from the opponent was 'LOL'-.- damn dumb. and qian yan says shes the one who kept scolding vulgarities on court. but i didn get scolded ehh. HAHA. but it would be fun meetin such opponents. cose she will get it from me(: ij got one and i purposely mke her more angry. HAHA.

halfway cheryl came though. we've got nice coach ehh. HAHAA. then game ended and went back sch lohh. waited for the damn bus for like 1HOUR lahh. damn it. meanin i stood for 1hour-.- somemore we have to share bus wif ncc de ppl. then reached sch and some went to play volleyball.

then some were taking out their tapes. funny part come liao. AHHA. jackie and jiajia was takin out their tape at their ankle there wif GREAT PAIN. AHHAA. then clarissa was helpin jackie. and jackie put her shoe at the drain there where me and alyssa was sittin. then alyssa started to kick her shoe to me. then i kicked it further. then we two walked off to pretend nth happened. then jiajia finished taking out her tape and asked us hus shoe is tat. and we jus answered her by showing some facial expression. then she took the shoe to alyssa. and alyssa went off so i followed. then since the shoe was so near to us i decided to hide it. not reali hide though. jus put it at the netball area the chair there. then jackie finished taking her tape out and started askin where was her shoe. then me and alyssa jus pretend we didn do anything. HAHA. so jackie started askin jiajia. then jiajia kept laughin so she think was her. so ended up they both ran around the whole netball court. we were all laughin away lahh. the ones tat did it didn get chased but the one hu didn do anything got chased instead. HAHAAA. but of course jackie found her shoe lahh.

then went hub eat and homed. rushed d&t. and kept cursing the bus uncle. HAHAA. managed to finish most lahh. left wif drawing the sketch and pasting everything in. so learn sci for the NEXT day common test. but i ended up slping wif the book ON me-.- damn crap lohh. so i jus slept till the next morning.


FRI
morning rush to do everything. and i ACTUALLY ran for the bus-.- cose i'll rather miss the bus then goin after it. but i noe if i miss tat bus my d&t die die alr. so i jus ran for the bus lohh. then read my sci notes on the bus. even in 851 lahh. chloe tan ended up slpin as usual lahh. she always read until slp de. so nth new for me.

then reached sch rush my d&t. then go com lab do the stupid ace-learning. wifout finishing my d&t lahh. so after maths rush again. then d&t liao. tcher came in after awhile say give us more time until monday to hand in our book. good thing for me is; i haven finish so jus nice. bad thing for me is; i rushed like siao and nv study properly my sci yet say today dont need hand in!-.-

but i still got over the bad one lahh. then d&t finish was recess lohh. didn reali study sci though. got some questions from rachel which actually didn reali help at all lahh. cose her questions aren reali questions-.- yet i help her for history lehh! so had sci nxt. i tink its ok lahh. wont fail i suppose.

then was english. ssrp. dono the nair go do wat lahh. then goin toilet tat time saw shermain thin. she ask me help her tell the sec1s no trg today. then monday they also need meet. then went back class as clarissa to tell them. HAHA. then slack in toilet as usual. then was geo. then after sch liao lohh.

then changed and ate. suprisingly most of us stayed back lahh. but they ended up playin volleyball and i ended up staring at them. HAHA. another friday wasted. but stupid funny things happened though.

cose winny wanted play volley then ask us to help her look after her wallet. then as usual i so called stole her money. AHHA. tis time 1dollar niia. very good liao. but its bcose she dont even have a single note-.- then went shes goin i ask her check her wallet since alyssa say i very evil. so she ren ting i took her money. so we started passing the coin. cose theres 3person sittin on one piano chair lahh. then i passed to clarissa then she passed back to me. then i pass to alyssa. then continued lahh. until clarissa use jackie to distract her then i hid the coin in the piano chair. HAHA. actually i dont even noe if the chair can open anot lahh. AHHAA. but most piano chair can open so in jus stuff it in. then winny no choice but to go for her rc alr. HAHAHA

then after awhile tat stupid old hag wong ask me and alyssa to go help her cut things. cose we wasn doin anything-.- then we had no choice but to follow her there. then wen she went in the staff room we jus walked off to the toilet to hide. HAHAA. then came out after awhile. we saw her again cose i tink she was finding for us. then i ran away forgettin alyssa cant run. AHHA. so i stop and waited for her. and we went up library there since clarissa and jackie said they were goin there. but nobody there. so we jus waited outside for awhile and asked carol to check if shes still there.

then carol said no so we went down. continued watchin them play volley. then after awhile mr lee walked pass. then they said wanted to greet him so i started sayin hi first. then everybody said hi too. then he dono do wat came back and asked if i was rochelle. then he said the specs so i took it out and he said 'yahh, u are rochelle' then i was laughin and sayin tat he was the first one who cant recognise me in specs! i wore my specs like everyday every minute every sec except wen im playin netball only lahh! and yet he dono hu am i. HAHAA. meanin he can only rmb me on court lahh. stupid man.

and after awhile shermain came down to play volley. then tat damn stupid old hag wong came askin us to help her cut again. we wanted to run away again lohh. but since they were scared stupid old hag wong will tell their form tcher. cose shermaine form tcher was councillor tcher then alyssa herself is alr a councillor and my form tcher is alr stupid old hag wong so she can complain to herself if she wants. HAHAA. so we no choice go help her cut lohh. but obviously is anyhow cut lahh. i put like dono how many pieces of paper together and cut. HAHA. heck her lahh. anyway we didn get anything in return.

then they cut finish and they ran away leaving me to do pair ball wif chloe. then tat stupid old hag wong ask me and chloe to help her pick up litters-.- then we didn bother abt her and she took our ball away tinkin that she reali is bballer arhh?! then i very buay song so jus kick them. i alr very good help her cut still ask me pick?! ass her. then kicked half way i decided to run off. ahaha. heck her lahh. wan scold scold lohh. i got alot excuse to give her de. demerit me i also dont care.

then went to find the others. they hide in the toilet-.- then after awhile stupid old hag wong got others to help her. and then gone liao. so we all went netball area and soon everybody back le lohh. but cose we have nth to do liao so all go home le.

then went hub and homed.


TODAY
nth much lahh. woke up ard 12 and started watchin tv. then did my homewrk and finally finished d&t. then continued watchin tv and use com lohh.

CNY cming but the mood is totally ruined by not able to celebrate plus no car to go other place. damn crap can. but tinkin wed can go back mcs more happy liao. long time nv see others. tis time im not gona drag liao. after sch straight away go back le. hopefully nth croops up.