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y wuld i feel tat way?
Friday, January 26, 2007 9:39 PM

AHHH!!!i feel so weird lahh..smtimes i reali felt tat i left too many things unsaid n undone..i reali dono wat to do anymore..i feel damn damn stressed up at times u noe..its reali terrible..stressed up till i reali cant tink of any ans to do hmwrk to do anything..i jus feel useless hopeless..useless n hopeless cose i reali m..its jus like i reali reali wanna play netball but i cant play it for long i noe it too clearly myself..i got the feelin im gona give it up REAL soon..but i reali donwan..y is it like dat?those hu don like sports but are forced to join de all nth wrong then i like de reali wanna join de then like dat..then today my bone is like reali smhw out of shape okk..u can reali feel the bone sideways..n i cant tell my parents to let me c doc or watever de..cose i noe wat the doc will even say..i reali feel so like givin up..but i donwan..smtimes all tis is reali damn confusin..then watever ur said last yr reali cant b counted de..cose its totally so diff..everything changed..even wat u r tinkin n doin changed..i feel as though we are strangers..as though we didn noe each other at all..everything feels so fake n confusin..i wanna say it out but i noe everything will start over again..so i rather it b me myself and i to get hurt then anybody gettin hurt further more..i noe even if i don say u will still get hurt..but i rather keep it to myself..since i don even noe hw to say alr..we alr bcame strangers..mayb tis yr gone its gone forever..everything i predicted gona b so true..which i don wann it to b..i promised..but i broke it too..i hate those ppl and hate myself even more..tat mkes me don have anything anybody to dislike at all..i don have the rights to anymore..i wanna continue the promises i made but i dono hw to anymore..i reali feel weird..if i ever promised u ppl hu are readin smth reali reali REALI important,im reali sry i broke it..cose i reali dono hw to continue any further..im more broken then u do to even fix it up..cose even myself won feel it at all alr..it jus feel dead..smtimes i even cry wen i don feel anything anymore..its jus like the tears drip for dono wat specific reasons at all..my body's alive but my heart is so dead..i dono wats got into me but im jus like dat..mayb im exaggeratin but i reali do feel tat bad smtimes..i feel so tired everyday..physically and mentally..the feelin of everything is cmin back..i reali jus wanna have those happy memories back again sm day..jus one day im alr satisfied..but i noe its impossible..so y bother to tink abt it?wats over is over..i cant turn back time..so i reali donwanna bother le..leave it alone mayb..time heals wounds and breed new ones..the tape is not strong enuff..im not strong enuff..im reali reali not as strong as wat u tink i m..i wish i was but im not..now in sec sch my hand is called the made of steel hand..incredible ehh..ahah..but mayb smhw im used to hard ball le bahh..n its so shuang tat can throw hard ball to the coach..haha..cose not many ppl can catch my ball..they says its scary..haha..jkin lahh..alot ppl dare catch lahh..but i nv dare tryin to throw the hardest n most angry ball to anybody..cose im reali scared i will hurt them..i onli do tat to the wall..haha..n mayb myself?n everywhere i go huever i noe all will say i no feelin de..everybody says tat..i realised im so good at hidin things yeahh..haha..im proud of it..haha..jkin..but if anybody ever understand me i won b able to hide frm them..which is like nobody?not even my family lahh..they don even noe wat i do hw wuld they noe wat i feel?they say i always got alot money left..noe y?cose i don eat..im too lazy too..i rather use the money to spent on smth else..haha..they always say im so diff frm my sis..cose she spent her money like nobody business..haha..so now my sis got to work to get money herself..haha..and like smtimes my ma even like scared i not enuff money until give me until 6dollars per day..haha..which is like so much..so i keep 4dollars use 2dollars..haha..then the hse is emptier..but like as if i care..cose theres not much of a difference..nth else to say le lahh..sec sch life is always the same..onli tat got sm stupid things happen nia..then everything will repeat n repeat again de lohh..mayb smhw satisfied wif all the things le bahh..nth nice to choose or watever le..don feel like bother liao..its confusin..i dono wat to choose lahh..jus get on wif my borin life mayb..
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