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today isn a good day either.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007 8:58 PM

haiz. today isn nice too lahh. seems as though nearing the holidays sch seems more borin and not nice. so today had normal lessons lahh. eng had debate abt tchers being strict and stuff lahh. and tat stupid damn nair complain our class dirty. like hu cares? its not her class. then was maths. fucking tcher came in. she totally sucks to the core lahh. guess it was cose the debate thingy tat made our class weird today? but like hu cares? she also in the wrong and she wan us to apologise to her. how thickskin can she ever get? i wanted to walk out wen she said she not happy walk out de lohh. but i test my patience FIRST. until i reali cant tahan i will say everything then walk out. i don care wat will happen to me or watever. i will talk back if i noe im not in the wrong. i will STILL control for THE MOMENT. same to all tchers hu are so unreasonable alr. i feel tat im begining to go bad. my bad temper and bad attitude is cmin back. i dono why. the was science. ms low nv teach then ask us do things. then i pretend readin but usin fone to do things. ahaha. then was borin VE. haiz. then netball. didn do warm up stuffs. suprisingly i didn perspire much and didn get muscle cramp though i didn warm up ehh. so i finally understood why i always had muscle cramp. cose i over exercise myself. im pushin myself real hard. but wat do i get in return? jus more pains and scoldings. haiz. mayb i shldn be tat impatient either. im tinkin too far le lahh. today's trg was so so. not nice. cheryl isn fair. or mayb im tinkin too far. ahah. i guess my skills and standard are reali reali goin off. i haven been trg much lately. suddenly i dono why i seems to be NOT as interested in netball as bfore le. mayb its bcose of the position im playin. im reali reali missing my defence position and my last year' team. im relai missing them. onli wen im playin wif them i culd have more confidence in playin mid fielder and throw the height they can catch. cose now they seems tall but they cant catch my ball. like wats wif them or wats wif me? i will reali wanna noe. i also wanna noe why im unable to play defence. izzit the same reason again? izzit bcose im too short? im beginin to hate myself again. i tink im reali too kan chiong le lahh. im like expectin them to be as good as me in jus a short period of time. im not tryin to boast or smth lahh. but i reali miss playin a NICE game on court wif nice throws and defence. cheryl ask me not to show attitude wen i catch a bad pass. but i jus reali can helped it. i tried to controlled but failed. tis is my attitude. i suppose now then the coach noe wats my attitude like on court and all le bahh. but ask my other coaches. im like dat since i startin playin netball. i showed attitude on court to umpires. cose it was obviously their fault. but my tcher understands. i wonder if tis yr the tcher wuld understand? but after i showed attitude i will be more angry and thus more focus on the person and the ball. so means i will play beta. so mayb its beta? ahaha. haiz. im jus beginin to hate everything all over again. i miss my past life and frens and my best best partner and my good team! haiz. they are reali reali good! love them loads. ahaha.
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