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am i reali goin more wild this few days?
Saturday, October 06, 2007 10:39 PM

im goin more and more crazy this few days. or i shld specify, after exams. actually not reali after exams. cose of tat stupid maths paper i cant say its after exam.

today woke up late or i shld say im too tired. so slept all the way till 1130. and im suppose to meet belle and denise at 1230. ahaha. so obviously im late again. i reach j8 abt like 1320? HAHAA. paiseh lohh. im too tired. ytd busy playin my sis bf de nintendo. ahaha. i beat my sis bf de score for mario kart. HAHAHAA. i help him open alot lehh. hopefully my sis haven return him yet. ahahaa

ok, back to meetin them. i found them at the lib the 4th floor-.- found them. HAHAHA. cose they in lib then off their fone to silent then end up nv reply my sms. they were in the middle of nowhere can. wat a place to choose pls. so very soon we tok too loud, or i shld specify belle ang tok too loud so we kinda got chase out lahh. and obviously don need me to scold the person belle alr started scolding. ahaha.

then went mac. i bought chocolate sundae. and belle ang studied for a while-.- she can nv be quiet de. then she said the mac too noisy wan go open plaza-.- shes the one tats being noisy pls. but ended open plaza got dono wat thingy goin on. so we went food cort. she continued studyin for awhile. then kept sayin she want us to go her hse. and we saw one idiot. dont want say her name lahh. even belle noe her man! shes so famous wif her stupid act cute voice-.- low voice also wont die until where wat. mus she go act the voice out? WTH~

since we saw her we've been tokin abt her and acting like her. ahahha. then we went belle's hse. put down our bags and we went down. belle wanan play swing so me and denise jus followed her down? since she wanted to play so i shall play wif her. long long time no play alr(: she tinks tat im challengin her so i SHALL challenge her and obviously i swing higher than her lahh.

then she wanna play monkey bar so i shall pei her play also. but end up we're too tall(: HAHAHA. no lahh. is the monkey bar too short le. so we decided to play see-saw. ahahha. we stood on it instead of sittin down. stand up more fun i tell u. ahaha. i always stood up while playin see-saw de. see-saw mkes me tink of the past again. the fun time i had wen im much much younger. wen i didn have anything to thot abt or noe anything. but now, i cant even rmb of my young time playmate): shes very very nice. i rmb how decisive i am in the past. but now, im not the old me anymore.

after we got bored we went bishan park walk walk. tok alot abt other stuffs. then after gettin many mosquito bites, we went to buy drinks. me and denise bought coke and belle bought 7up. and we got reali crazy after drinkin. HAHAHA. coke contains drug and acid. 7up contain dono wat which is able to mke belle go crazy. HAHAHA.

belle and denise suddenly thot abt playin mahjong. so we went up and they reali played mahjong. they want me to play wifout me noeing how to play-.- yahh, i dont noe how to play mahjong lahh. so after playin a few rounds we change to play dai di. played one round onli tat stupid belle ang got tired of it and wanna play stress wif me. btu i say no and say play speed instead. ahaha. stress will mke me go crazy man! but speed is diff. ahaha. and we reali reali got VERY crazy over the game and the tv advertisements! HAHAHAA. everything was super funny. even if its not we jus kept laughin and laughin lahh. AHAHAH

ard 7+ me and denise went back. even at the busstop we went crazy. ahaha. and wen we're crossing the road, belle wanna jay-walk[?] then me and denise say dont wan lahh. then end up no car belle jus walk and i jus follow since the stupid traffic light SO LONG. then denise thot i will stay there wait until traffic light turn green man. but i didnt and denise jus stayed there and wave to belle. HAHAHAA. ok, perhaps jus by typin here nobody will understand lahh. so nvm.

we're the onli few hus tokin very loudly at the busstop. HAHAHA. took 162 then at amk there change to 851. then at interchange took 804 back. reach home nobody. so heck lahh. i do my own things of course.

and ive realised tat i haven had much things today. i onli ate biscuits ard 12 then ard 3 i ate ice cream. ahaha. and obviously my whole bottle of acidic drug. HAHHAHA. thankyou for lettin me have a wonderful day(: or i bet i'll be home alone again.

HAHAHA. i did not type wrongly lahh. curiosity shld be controlled at times(:
simple outings or gathering is enough. i dont ask for much at all. today is alr enough even if its onli once or even if theres onli the 3 of us or even if its jus some simple activities goin on. i understand tat many ppl changed. they have their own life to live alr. so no point wantin them to change back to their old self. and theres no need to even go anywhere special tat need to waste much money. like today, we can jus have fun in parks or anyway. i realised, in sec sch its totally diff from pri sch. in sec sch, the ppl i noe i cant seem to understand them. i still prefer straight forward ppl. why be so hypocrite and be wif someone u dont like? and my sec sch frens jus cant seem to mke me very happy. or able to relax while wif them. perhaps onli sometimes they can. cose i reali need to be more happy. i thot she was the one which understood me since she noe me for quite some time alr. but seems like im wrong. i dont tink i ever dare to trust anybody anymore. my lonely life is back again. perhaps i shld take the initiative to tok to ppl. but i jus dono how to start sayin. everything is jus kept in my heart not being able to say them out. sometimes i reali wished i was mute. sometimes i reali jus wan to keep quiet and observe. but sometimes i jus reali hope i culd explain to those ppl. but wats the use. im meant to be lonely. seriously i jus reali reali hope netball trgs culd start asap. i dont wan to waste my time tinkin abt tis stuffs anymore. wats the point ever tinkin abt all tis wen i noe tat nth of tis will ever happen. onli netball can mke me forget everything tat i dont wish to rmb. even the person i thot knew me don know me. wats the use of sayin. nobody can do anything to mke me not lonely at all. i noe i dont even look like the type hus emo or watever. perhaps u all tink its fake rite? perhaps it is. i dont noe myself either. though i still have many things to say but i will not type anymre. im not gona jus cry like dat anymore. the past is the past. wats done cant be undone. no use tinkin abt it. and even if anybody read tis, jus pretend u did not read it at all. or perhaps i shld say, dont try to take pity on me. cose it wuldn work. i will jus scold u. like i say, i dont trust ppl anymore. watever ive said may jus be fake or not impt at all. even if i said out, wats the use?nobody can change the fact.i wan to be myself again.
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