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haizz. my goodness lahh.
Saturday, January 19, 2008 10:55 PM

ytd self train was okok lahh. i admit abt like the first hour or so the trg i was kinda fooling around lahh. but wen its time for court work i'll be serious and do it. but its like....everybody still in the playin mood or either the goin home mood. yahh, i noe theres no coach no tcher and yahh, i was playin also. but wen its court work, do u ppl see me laughin? or even smiling? i dont tink so.

seriously, i dont feel the anxiousness in the tchers and coaches. perhaps they are anxious but they didn show it. but one thing proves it all. tcher; team not name. not tryin to say naming the team is impt lahh and i noe tchers also busy lahh. but at least stop faking us and draggin and draggin right? coaches; i've got nth to say. cose they are still students like us. though one is not studyin now. but shes still busy lahh. and not everything they noe or can mke the decisions lahh. players lehh, i can say everybody practically have no confidence at all. how we gona get through round 1?

so trg ran 4rounds, pair ball, team ball. abit court work. court work is the part i reali feel like attituding alr. and i noe i kinda did at the last part of self trg lahh. cose i kinda reali cant stand it. u ppl say u wanna enter the team. but did ur put in ur best? to show tchers coaches that ur can do it? and then ur jus gave up like dat. wat are ur tryin to do and show tis way?

things came into my mind again. the pain seems to start all over again. the knee, its gettin weaker again. strengthening doesn seem to help anymore. everytime i land, it starts to break again. so this thought came 'the knee guards day are coming back'. even the elbow pain is cming back. plus the sudden weakness in my shoulder. i dono wats happening again.

so after trg, ate and went home.


today, plain boring again lahh. woke up early in case my ma gona go out lahh. cose i wanna go cut hair mahh. then hu noes she not goin out-.- mke me wake up early for no reason. so ate and went down to cut hair.

then came up, ate again. btw i woke up ard 11. and wet down ard 1+. HAHAA. so by the time im up, its lunch time. but i shared wif my sis. cose i wasn very hungry lahh. then on com and did some hmewrk. and started to feel confused lahh. bcose of the damn learning fest. it mke me feel so messy. cose i dono wat to do-.- plus the unfinish hmewrk collated since last tues. mke me feel more confused. cose i dono wat to start on first. thn wanna start and i realised im stuck. stupid right? then ask ard, nobody can help me.

fuck lahh. its always d&t and art where i need help. i ask ppl until i myself pekcek can. then end up the ppl i ask, either dono or nv ask directly to my question. maths i can solve it in no time. only depending on wen my sis come back. then the bloody hell learning journey thingy need time to go do research and stuffs. and i have so mny doubts to ask ppl. then the damn e-learning also need time. then once i tink of nxt week, is equal die die again. haizzz.

then at home, everytime get blammed for everything. sister sick my fault. no job my fault. helping them also my fault. wtf they wan me do. im alr lazy to go explain or even tok to them alr. jobless is so none of my business. its jus u hu is useless cant tahan tough jobs. and its him hu ask me buy pls. fucktard, wats so happy abt me calling him tat stupid not a word word. if its possible i'll rather call him oii.

once again i'm in need of miracles.
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