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Blank out.
Thursday, February 25, 2010 10:10 PM

hmm, this tuesday was my first time ever having the time to go straight home ALONE to sleep. AHHAHA. somehow, i missed being alone. i dono, maybe im just some weirdo. i mean, honestly, even being with a bunch of ppl wont make me happy. why force myself to smile? now, im just forcing myself to forget. perhaps i need time again to calm myself down. i find that im ostrasizing myself again with my stupid temper. perhaps yes, i just couldnt be close to anyone anymore.

ok, im suppose to talk abt being able to have time to slp! AHHAHA. yes, so tuesday was relax. in a sense, at home. HAHAH. yes, and i didnt felt like doing my hmewrks. so obviously, i just slack, slack and continue slacking. i just seriously lost myself.

so now its my super free period. cause i dont wanna study. neither do i have netball anymore. its stated so clearly. somehow or rather, i began to dislike it. some ppl will be happy seeing that, but some not. AHHA. but somehow, deep down, i know i cant do without netball. but i just have so much of confusion now. i cant set my mind straight to think at all.

even the chinese paper was abt being happy. what is this man? i think this time round i may get higher. cause im so at the wrong mood, i can write all sad stuffs out now. but yeahh, i totally read the passage bfore. though i forgot all the answers. HAHAH. okk, perhaps i would not get high marks afterall. and yeahh, the passage do make sense. but who's gona help me make sense? no one.

so what i can do now is only run. and im serious, run. im even quite amazed at myself for running 1.8km in 9min7sec? yeahh, it may be rather slow. but i sucked at running long distance. so yeahh, its rather alright for me. but obviously, the run im referring to is mentally. i make myself busy, tired and force myself to blank out. i dont want to think abt anything. just let me think abt studies now will really do.

neither do i know why izzit affecting me so much. but yahh, its really affecting me. but obviously, nobody would know. unless ur have read this. AHHA. but yahh, its a different case alr if ur read this. but nobody would know how i feel. but even if ur read this, ur wouldnt even realise anything. cause it wouldnt be shown. cause, neither do i know how.

forget it, i dont feel like talking abt anything alr. since someone just aggrevated my condition. HAHAH. i sound like someone who's terribly sick. though somehow, i really hope i am. and ive forgotten what i wanna typed in the first place. HAHAHA.

so, bye!

perhaps being alone was all along the better choice.
if its not meant to be, its not meant to be.
no point putting in effort if u urself know the outcome would be the same.
perhaps u may think its not good to not try.
but im really tired of everything and anything alr.
can the world just stop revolving for once.
perhaps a day would also be enough.
im drowning in saltiness.
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