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“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” Swami Vivekananda
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” Steve Jobs
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This place sucks. So do my life.
Wednesday, June 09, 2010 10:55 PM

damn, studying is really a chore. no matter how much i try to put effort and time and whatnot into it, i STILL DISLIKE studying. oh man. how am i gona study for Os man. yahh, i shall try harder. devote more time into studying i guess?

today was quite sucky. finally had the determination to wake up in the morning to run. HAHA. i perspired like CRAZY. seriously. though its no big deal. but yahh, the feeling was cold instead of hot. i guess its because of the morning breeze? then after bathing i went back to sleep. and FREAK it. theres some sort of construction going on-.-

so i only started studying at like 4? or 5? HAHA. and its english. yeahh, just finding words lahh. and the freaking book had so much errors. no wonder the teacher only ask us to do a few page-.- i am so gona dump them away. and then writing the words down is another chore):

freaking tiring. i guess runing too early is not good for me. cause i'll feel tired for the whole day. HAHAH. but if u ask me to choose running or studying, i'll choose running. HAHA. although its also freaking tiring. but at least i wont be thinking. in a sense.

and now, i gave up finding words. AHHAHA. i'll do it tmr?

i swear this place sucks. its getting from bad to worst. i do not even wanna talk anymore. its starting to make my life even worst. cause im getting lazier and lazier to explain stuffs. to speak, to mix, and to whatever. im tired of sacrificing. im tired of being that shadow. im tired of being that bad person. everything's just so tiring. i just really want to get it over and done with. somehow, i dono what im talking either. perhaps its too mundane? this all sucks. i rather be some irritating asshole or some selfish idiot or someone who dont feel anything. yeahh, i guess i was once someone who felt nothing. perhaps that should have continued. i should not learn how to feel. let's just get back to darkness.
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