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“The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is.” Winston Churchill
Now, theres nothing left to do.
Sunday, August 28, 2011 1:12 AM

after exams, im totally free alr. i realised im really not that go out person. i mean, i have the freedom to go anywhere i want, until anytime and whatever. but i choose not too. in the past, i used to complain abt not having friends that could stay out or have their own freedom to go anywhere. but now, ppl ask me out i also lazy to go out zzz. k, but partly also because i didnt like the thing they're suggesting, so i rather not go? dont wanna go there and complain and spoil the fun.

so yeahh, after thursday's paper was freedom alr. HAHA. no more 埋头苦读, no more panicky feeling, no more stress. haiz, k, i also dono what i want. but nvm. i have to learn to enjoy this freedom of not having the need to do anything. when i really grow older, i doubt i'll ever have such luxury of long holidays anymore.

k, so i managed to not have netball/running/exercises for one whole week. its a bad thing and a good thing. HAHA. good thing is that i can finally rest my body. bad thing is, trgs are starting, meaning i need to get my stamina back!!! and worst thing is, im still sick :/ k, whatever.

this holiday, im really gona focus on netball. i dont want to always be saying but not doing. yeahh, having more trgs would help. yepp, no negative thoughts. should not, must not, cannot. its what thats affecting my play when im playing at diff place/lvl. ive decided. im not gona give a damn to whatever attitude ppl give me. i mean, it is natural to think negatively after someone scolds u or nobody wanna pass the ball to u or maybe its so freaking obvious that no one trusts u. im not gona care abt all those stuffs. if that means being alone, so be it. anyway, im born this way. besides, trust is not something to be given easily. i know i have to earn it. i dont know why did it became like this too. maybe cause the competition is up. but i know im not gona always sit out. i know im not gona always run for no reason. i know im not gona be the burden always. i know im not letting ppl push the blame to me anymore. no way am i being such a weakling. i dont care how much u scold me infront of everybody else, or whatever ppl think. this is the only way i can be stronger. im not gona let status/age affect me. i must do this. before the passion dies on me. i dont know how much longer i can keep this up. although yes, pesta im in. but so what? its just because of the rules u set. even if its not, im really glad u stuck to it. im really glad u gave me that chance. i do hope u saw the difference. 我知道努力不是光用嘴巴说的算。i honestly believe u know what kinda person im like. ok, whatever. i just know i have to work harder. i really hope everything goes well.

k, i dont wanna type any longer. its long enough i know. but somehow, no matter how long i typed, no one ever understood anyway. yeahh, its just for my own reference(:

i have a poisoned finger btw): hahah. random i know.
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