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“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” Swami Vivekananda
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” Steve Jobs
“The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is.” Winston Churchill
everything sucks.
Friday, October 14, 2011 12:32 AM

yeahh, im so not appreciating life now. everything seem to suck. i cant look at the big picture. or maybe i dont want to look at the big picture.

yeahh, my body sucks big time. when its time to be strong, im weak like shit. when its time to be weak, i dont feel a shit. hahaha. lack of vocabs. but anyway, my week sucks because of netball. it arent going well. for me perhaps? this really sucks. i dont even feel a thing alr. and i dont know if im escaping or that i really dont feel a thing. i actually did not feel sad/unhappy/happy and whatever. just NOTHING. not even disappointment? thats TOTALLY weird. its not me at all. i didnt even felt like crying. i mean like even when im alone. perhaps it wasnt as impt as i thought. perhaps i alr knew the outcome. perhaps i didnt even wanted it as badly. perhaps what they said was always right. perhaps im just lying to myself again.

how i wish everything was just a dream. i cant believe i actually said that. i guess thats how my brain make me behave when i dont have anyone to turn to talk abt how i really felt. or no one to understand how i really felt. this all sucks. friends but no friends.

but whatever, i dont care whatever/anything thats gona happen, im playing tmr. period. im not freaking gona feel anything and im not giving up. im not benching myself. move ur freaking legs please. not the time to feel like shit and pity urself. u're just being even more pathetic that way. dumb ass.
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