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not fated.
Sunday, October 30, 2011 1:51 AM

When things are not meant to be, they'll never be yours. time flies and people change. how i wish that doesnt happen. i know i know, look forward and forget the past. but somehow im still learning i guess? its just really so so so hard to forget things which meant alot to u. cause it was the only time u'll be really happy and enjoy urself.

yes, it was also my toughest time. cause i had double bad stuffs clashing at the same time. that made me grow up/mature. it may be good it may be bad, i dont know. i just know i really enjoyed myself alot no matter what. somehow, all those bad stuffs doesnt seem that bad anymore. yeahh, i guess time does make u forget some stuffs. or perhaps more like time just make u have less hatred. or maybe it no longer mattered. yes, for sure that one of the thing happened to me then didnt matter to me anymore. cause we all know that when things are not meant to be, its better to cut them short. HAHAH. that was how we thought, but apparently, we all regretted. just that its over alr, no point anymore. hahah.

somehow, i really dont get life. maybe even dont get god. the more u want to see someone, the more u wont see him/her. the more u think of someone, the more the person wont appear in front of u. thats really just how interesting ur brain can be. its just so complex. i guess thats why we're humans. actually, i really alr ren ming. whatever that happened to me, i alr accept everything. really. cause after so many years, i really only have one wish. hmm, i guess i just had to be less greedy. at the very least, i do see a few of the person that's part of my wish quite often. hahaha. i guess the big part is that i didnt have the chance to thank someone who meant alot to me. but to think of it, will i even dare to say what i want to say when i get a chance to see her. thats me i guess.

but again, i believe she understands me. so i also believe that on that day of graduation, she would alr have known that im really thankful and greatful for everything she did for me. yeahh, some things are not meant to be said. HAHAH. thats MY theory. cause i believe ppl who understands me dont need me to say thankyou/sorry. thats my some things. HAHAHA. but really, i do want to see her again.

but how would i react when i actually see her again? like how i saw ms choo? i know how i feel would be the same. but i hope not how i react. cause i dont even have the courage to walk over and say hello.

i hate it when i reminisce. sometimes, i just feel that even my teachers treate me better than my own mum? i hate to feel that but to a certain extent true? i still rmb the incident on my mum's birthday. its just so so so bad. somehow so many things happened on this day till the extent that i actually felt relieved when i had to go overseas at that period of time in sec1. i felt bad for not being there but yet relieved that i didnt had to think of anything.

i guess i should really sleep soon. before more stuffs comes out. HAHAHA. this time, it isnt about u anymore. good or bad, up to u to decide. if u were to read this.

one last thing, just why must she be my coach again? AHHAHA. shes the last person i want to see again from my pri sch memories. it just spoils everything and make me rmb everything. so, 我只能化悲愤为力量。wish me luck!!
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