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“Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.” Swami Vivekananda
“Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” Steve Jobs
“The truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end; there it is.” Winston Churchill
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Saturday, January 14, 2012 6:24 PM

i really do need help somehow. really. i really just hope someone could just help me solve everything that's on my mind. somehow i couldnt calm myself down at all. its just so hard. i hope it isnt all that important to me, but it is. i just cant deny that fact. i really just dont get it. just why? i really hate this kinda feeling. who actually really better? am i even fit to judge that? but if i doubt myself, then who would still dare to trust me? but yet, am i really good even to be on court? this is just confusing. i use to just trust the coach. but now, whatever she does, i just doubt all of them. i really just dont get it, so what if i dont have the height? cant u just trust me for once and let me play? what if i can play better? i really hate it when ppl dont trust me. i dono. really unsure. i told myself i'll quit if this continues. but will i really do that? will i really be that determine to quit something i cant live without? abit exggerating but somewhat true. will i be willing to leave my teammates? it is somewhat fate that brought us together. i really dono what i'll be doing after next week. this really make me not feel like doing anything. i think im even going to pon my lectures on monday :/ this is a really bad term. i really cant wait for it to end. nothing seem to be able to make me happy anymore. if i keeping harping on it and it doesnt solve, ultimately, i'll be choosing the same path as her. quit it. perhaps that is the best choice. i really dono. too little confidence causes u to fail. too much results in the same failure. so, what am i suppose to do? seriously, times like this, i really do hope someone could enlighten me. this is partly why i dont want to go church too. HAHAHA. i can change topic easily man :/ he just doesnt feel real enough to trust to believe. yet at important times, i chosed to trust him. guess my mind is really not as determined as others think i am. ppl like me, will god even want to watch over? let's just hope i continue to stay strong.
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