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Useless
Saturday, March 24, 2012 12:45 AM

Today is a bad and good day. But since I ended it with a bad thing, i'll only think its bad):

I dono whats with me. It is not a big injury. But actually, to me whats even a big injury? Until I really cant move? I've really no idea. Whats pain to me? I dont know either. I hate being able to withstand pain most ppl cant. I can still walk/run/play when I sprained my ankle. Even if it was the first time.

But now? It was just a bang. Yes, it did hurt. But it was bearable. Just at that split moment it was like black out. Yes, it did affect my vision. But its a really small thing actually. Yet I didnt felt like playing. I gave up again. Whats wrong with me? I dont want to play anymore? I dono.

Yes, I wont say no to the question 'are u alright?' but sometimes I really wish ur could ask me that. Never once were u ever worried abt me. It really mean alot to me from ppl I care to just ask me a 'are u alright?' question. Even if I said yes. Everytime im injured it reminds me of that incident. Even my friend's mum was worried. But u? U only scolded me. What am I to u? Nothing? Thats why I hate feeling. I rather be as cold as I seem to be. That would make my life way easier.

Ur never ever cared how I really feel. Even if im hurt real badly outside, its the inside that hurt the most. I guess that was why I did those silly stuffs last time. To know if I really had any feelings.
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