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Just a facade.
Friday, July 12, 2013 1:19 AM

I realised im really really extremely drained. Mentally esp. Physically I think soon. But no, I wont allow it to happen. Its not maxed out yet. No.

Everything may just be a facade, but I just got to go on another two more weeks. No doubt that im tired. But it has to go on. Its my last year and I'll do whatever it takes to make this a good one. I want to be part of the win. Not just being part of the team. But being part of one of them who put in effort and sweat to win every game. Even if its just one half. I dont even mind. Just dont bench me for the most ridiculous reason. Its my freaking last year. Cant u just let me end properly?!

Its the only thing I wish for now. To end this whole season well, without regrets. Without disappointment. And my life would be finished. Hahahah. Literally somehow.

Its scary to me actually. The thought of having too much time. The thought of being so free. The thought of being so lonely. The thought of starting to become the old me. The one that really hates interaction and talking. Its not easy to let things go and start talking again. I dont want to sink back in. Seems like it does play a big part in my life. But no, I cant keep on playing this. I cant keep on stressing myself, making myself so pathetic and sad. I just want to be happy playing netball again. Just want to...

Just let me endure another two more weeks. It'll be over soon. Real soon. Rmb, dont let urself have anymore regrets. No way....just give it ur all. It doesnt even matter anymore if u injure anywhere.

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