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Salvation
Tuesday, May 20, 2014 12:00 AM

I really want to break free from this cycle. No matter how much I try to take care of myself, I'll still fall sick. Why? Why must I go through this? I know it's not as bad as having cancer or whatever. But nobody even cherish my presence. Actually having cancer may even be better. Cause I know whats happening. I know when im dying.

But I know cancer will be way worst. Will be way painful. I really had enough. I wanna get free from all these. Please please stop making me fall sick. Stop making me having the need to go to the doctor. Please help me.

I want to go on. But not with all these problems. Im alr more susceptible than many others. Why do I have even more problems that I have to overcome? Please let me have an easier time. And definitely I thank god for letting me go through 4 months of illness-free days. Besides asthma, which had always been the problem. Though it got worse. And made me put in even more effort for something thats so simple for others. Im thankful that I can still do the things I like and enjoy. Thats all I wished for.

Please let me break free.
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